[Heidi G]

Hi Emily,

Isn’t it funny how things happen like that sometimes???

I wouldn’t read too much into the Facebook thing. I do it all the time. I forget to accept friend requests and sometimes, I get so overwhelmed with all the info that I mostly just stay away from Facebook. I am not a common user…lol.

As far as his shyness, remember that it’s pretty tough for a guy. Facing a woman and dealing with the possible rejection is just plain hard. Imagine if you were the person who had to do all of the asking out. Imagine all the pressure was on you to make things happen. I’ve put myself in that position before where I went through a phase where I wanted to know what it felt like to be a guy. So I became the initiator. I become the one who made things happen. It is soooo hard and scary!!! lol! I learned so much and since then, have great appreciation what they have to go through with us ladies.

I understand wanting to find someone who is less shy and a lot more pursuant. AND…maybe keep the door open a little longer. There is so much to learn from all different types of guys. You might find that despite his shyness, he opens up more and more as he gets to know you. Maybe give him that chance? just a thought, but of course you know what feels best for you. Keep us updated!!!!

Heidi

[Heidi G]

Hi Shannon!

Good luck on house hunting!!! This is REALLY exciting for you both! Especially you! There is something very special about creating your very own home! Keep us updated!

The male side of your personality is controlled by your left brain and the female side, your right brain. The male side is the “doer” the producer, the part of you that gets things done, deals with money, deals with logic. The female side is where your nurturer lives. That side deals with all the emotions, your relationships, it’s where your triggers live. It’s what is expressed in the yin and yang symbol as well. It can all be expressed in many different ways. You can look it up and you will find a gazillion different thoughts about. But basically, it’s your male energy buying the house. It’s your female energy that will have the emotional reaction to each house. It’s your female energy that wants your man to be with you. It’s your male energy that says, but he is sick, I understand. Is this making more sense?

Heidi

[Heidi G]

HI Sharon,

This is sooooo good for you! So what is your plan??? You are worried about losing yourself, so what EXACT steps are you going to take to make sure that doesn’t happen. I will have clients put “me time” spots in their calendars, make sure they have dates with their friends, make sure to continue any hobbies they love and most of all, have accountability. This is how you learn to operate differently in your life. So what is your plan? What areas of your life do you neglect when a guy/s shows up? How do you end up losing your head?

Let’s create a plan for you!

Heidi

[Heidi G]

Hi Lois,

I understand how badly you want things to go back to how they used to be awhile ago. It’s a start that he is coming around more and letting you know how he misses you.

Do you know what EXACTLY is keeping him staying with that other girl?

The first thing I want to suggest is to learn some skills about how to communicate when things get tough. Being abusive, belittling and harmful to another will break their hearts. Your guy needs to feel safe with you. Have you ever done any kind of anger management or read some books or worked with someone to help you deal with situations differently? I am wondering if he would return home faster if he knew that you were improving upon that side of yourself, beyond just saying “I’m sorry” and being regretful.

Do you know why he shifted at that time? Do you know why he originally started to get distant? Was there a pattern about what the arguments were about?

More information is helpful! But to start, be patient. I know you want things now, as we all do. Learning to accept his choice, honor that he is not quite ready yet and just build your friendship, can be really helpful in drawing him to you. The more you pressure him to do what YOU want, the more it will trigger his need to stay somewhere else. When he feels respected, listened to, honored…that is what draws a person in more and more.

Thoughts?

Heidi

[Heidi G]

Hi Ziya,

I’m so sorry for what you are dealing with. Heartache is awful. I understand your need to re-connect and do everything you can to get him back.

I first want to help you understand how your thinking is not exactly true all the time. You keep saying “I mean if AK really cared for me and this was as hard as said and also showed, why give up?” You are thinking logically. Matters of the heart are hardly logical. I have seen this a MILLION times!

My Life Coach reminds me of this all the time “The number one reason people don’t get better, is they start to get better and get what they want, so they sabotage…because they are not set up to be healthy and happy.”

I too work with people all the time who start to get exactly what they want and then start to ruin it. It’s called the “upper limit.” It’s this phenomenon where each person has a limit to how happy they will allow themselves to be. That limit is directly tied to how much low self-esteem they have. The more low self-esteem, the lower the limit. You know when someone is reaching their “upper limit” when they start to sabotage. That low self esteem gets VERY powerful….more powerful than the feelings of love and connection and the loss of it. Essentially, what your guy is choosing to give power is “I’m going to break this off now so I don’t have to hurt when she breaks up with me.” He doesn’t feel good enough, valuable enough nor capable enough for anyone. He wants to blame it on his sickness. Who knows what that other girl said to him when she broke it off eventually. Whatever it was, it sure stuck with him and is still affecting him today. That fear and low self esteem is not something you can fight against Ziya. People who do, end up spending the rest of their lives trying to “prove” to their person they are not going to leave. Even if he did take you back, that fear and low self esteem is not going to go away. You would be walking on egg shells with him. When the smallest little thing goes wrong, or you have a fight, he most likely would react by jumping ship saying, “See! I told you! I can’t meet your needs, you shouldn’t be with me so let’s just end this now.” He is not someone who stays and fights for his emotional health. He is not strong enough to risk. He won’t risk loving again and letting someone in. Reality is, you don’t know that you wouldn’t break up and neither does he, but that’s just what love is…it’s a HUGE risk. When you truly love someone, that person can tear you limb to limb without ever touching you. That person has so much power in your life to cause incredible amounts of pain. That’s the risk and reality of it all. AND…there is no beauty and power like love that is kind, caring, supportive, adventurous etc. Your guy would rather just focus on the risk of it vs. being willing to take a journey again. That’s sad.
He would not be a good partner when things get tough. He runs. I know your connection was wonderful and I know how hard that is to come by. However, that connection is the least of the relationship. You need someone who will stand by himself and stand by you when fear shows up. He is not that kind of person and it is not your job to convince him otherwise. That is a pursuit that will cause you to slowly lose yourself and wear your heart away. He needs to face his fears on his own.

I know this is not what you want to hear, but maybe it will help you understand a little better the seriousness about what you are dealing with and that it has NOTHING to do with you nor logic. This is about you facing that his fear is bigger than connection, bigger than love, bigger than you and the wonderfulness he brought into your life. His fear is GIANT and it’s not for you to prove to him that he is wrong or try to pull him into taking a risk with you. Let him do that on his own. This is VERY important!

Thoughts?

Heidi

[Heidi G]

Hi Abby,

Be kind to yourself. I know you feel like a fool. I have felt like that many times in my life. Truth is, you just invested in an idea and it didn’t work out. You tried everything you knew how to make that idea fit, but unfortunately the other person in that idea didn’t want to join. Be kind to yourself. Have compassion, have appreciation for your open heart, have gratitude that you are not the kind of person who will shrivel up and die with a bitter heart. You are someone who learns, who grows and who is resilient. That is who you are, not a fool. It’s just a moment of being fooled, but you are not a fool. And that’s okay! It’s a necessary part of the human experience so we can wake up further and learn….and I have no doubt you have.

Sending so much goodness your way for your healing and transition!

Heidi

[Heidi G]

HI Shannon,

Thanks for all the updates! You are happy where you are at with him and do see a future with him. I wonder if his “moods” can be shifted? Many women don’t feel in the mood either, but the man can get her there, as long as she is willing to take the journey. It’s a little bit of work on both parts, but definitely can be well worth it. If he chooses to NOT let his mood dictate the intimacy, maybe it can be “fixable” to an extent.

Moving in together sounds like a good plan. You both need more information and experience with each other to really test the waters. In regards to your dreams, a good way to interpret them is to imagine that every person and part of your dream is an extension of you. Most times, dreams are giving us a “story” about our relationship with ourselves and how we are dealing with our life. In your dream, the male and female parts of you are in a relationship, but the male side betrays and breaks trust. This would be a reflection of your female side not feeling safe with your male side. Your male side is the betrayer. So in your life, can you see this fit anywhere? Is the male side of you not working with the female side? Are those areas of your life out of balance? Is your male side not caring nor respecting nor listening to your female side? These are the kinds of questions you can ask yourself so you can learn what you need to pay attention to. Then your dreams will be more about your male and female getting married, having sex, being best friends etc.
Does this make sense?

So is it decided that you are going to buy the house on your own then and he will move in?

Heidi

[Heidi G]

Hi Abby,

Quick question….does he still live there?

I am sooooo sorry for what you are dealing with. Of course you are exhausted and having trouble moving forward!!!! You are dealing with intense sickness! Sheesh!!! And you have lost your relationship. You need help! You cannot do this on your own!

Since rent has been paid for, can you just get anyone to help you move out? Even if it means you stay in a spare bedroom for a month until you find a place. You need to get out of there!!! How can you possibly heal in such a rejecting environment?? You have fight for your life right now and that means surrounding yourself with peaceful people that can help you, finding support somehow and living in a space that has good vibes.

Is that possible at all????

Heidi

[Heidi G]

Hi Natalie,

This is a really good question. It really depends on you. Reality is, he is not available for you right now. There is no guarantee that he ever will be. Your mindset is important in how you approach this.

I recommend that you don’t put all your eggs in this basket. All you have is the present moment and in the present moment, he is a friend and that’s it. So with that being said, would you consider still dating and moving on with your life? It’s not to say that at some point you both will be in the same exact place again, but for right now, if you have the mindset where you are still going to live your life and not invest all of your heart, thoughts and ideas into a guy that is unavailable right now, the your expectations will match the situation and it will keep the pressure off of him.

What a lot of women have a tendency to do is to put their lives on hold “waiting” for a guy to come around. All the while, she forgets about HER needs and completely focuses on the “right” things to do or say to get the guy back and interested. They forget that the guy needs to EARN HER HEART. That means he is treating her well in the good and bad times. That means he is committed to growing with her through the good and difficult times.

I think your situation is just a product of really bad timing. He has a lot of things to figure out. If you guy were 10 years into a relationship, that would be different, but you are long distance and brand new to each other. This is the very first challenge you are facing and he is deciding NOT to do it with you, yet he is not able to let you go either. He keeps you connected to him on a weekly basis. What design feels okay for you? Truth is, you are going to get him back (right now). So if that is the case, can you just be friends with him, move on with your life and let go of the dream you have about being together with him? That way, you can truly just be his friend. If he shifts at some point and wants to be with you again, you can consider it at that time. If he doesn’t shift again, you still lived your life to it’s fullest and didn’t close the door to other possibilities.

If you are able to truly accept his choice right now, then there would be no need to say anything to him, because you are accepting his decision. That also means that he will have to accept losing some connection with you as well and I am going to bet he will struggle with that (and maybe even activate his desire to fight for you).

There is an element here where he doesn’t really have to feel like he lost anything with you, because you are available and connective with him anytime he wants. Therefore, he doesn’t have to face the pressures of “relationship” AND he still gets to have you. There is nothing wrong with that, as long as you agree to the design and don’t live off of “hope” that things will change.

What are you thoughts about this?

Heidi

[Heidi G]

Hi Shannon,

It sounds like there are still some stumbling blocks in the intimacy area, but that is so wonderful that you guys are talking about it! that’s a start. Do his challenges with sex feel fixable? Does he understand what is happening for him in that area of his life?

It sounds like if you are going to buy a house, it might be safest to just do it on your own for right now. Your relationship still has a lot of growing to do. Do you feel good about just buying a house on your own? Do you feel that the would be okay with that design?

As far as this situation being a “gift,” wouldn’t you say that your growth personally and the fact that you guys are overcoming challenges neither of you have experienced before….gifts? That’s all I meant. The gift is what you learn from challenges. The gift is the new skillset that gets developed. The gift is the stronger relationship. But sometimes that particular word doesn’t resonate for people in these types of situations and maybe that’s what you feel like.

Thank you for the update. I want to ask you again, how do YOU feel about the relationship? It sounds like everything is heading in the right direction, but it doesn’t mean that your heart is fully invested. Do you still feel he is worth fighting for? Is the relationship turning into something you really want and enjoy?

Heidi

[Heidi G]

Hi Abby,

I’m a little confused.

Let’s just start with the breakup email. You said he didn’t respond. Did you write it in a way that would make him think he needed to respond? Usually breakup emails are pretty final. If he did respond, what would you want him to say?

Why wouldn’t you take his rent? Why would you tell him that you left? This is the part I don’t quite understand. Have you found a new place to live? What the status? More info. will help on this.

I’m so sorry! I know you feel powerless in this situation. He cut off really well and is doing everything he can to avoid you. That just feels awful. I hope you have found a new place. I think that will help you heal so much faster!!!

Heidi

[Heidi G]

Hi Natalie,

This makes so much more sense!!! I don’t think you have lost him at all.

Here is something to understand about men. The core of who they are and their self esteem is about their ability to “produce.” They have to create and make something in this world to feel complete and whole and valuable. For us ladies, it’s all about “connection.” As long as we are connecting with people and have our relationships, the rest of the world can fall apart, but we will be okay. So he is doing a very natural and instinctive thing. When he cannot “produce” the rest of his world will seem impossible. Until he gets his work situation figured out, until he gets his body stabilized, until he gets his mind thinking clearly (and being able to enjoy you sexually), he cannot think about trying to keep you happy. Women are wired so differently. We would be thinking about the relationship first and how to keep it going. lol! So it’s hard for us to understand why guys pull away, when in our minds, we view how much a relationship can HELP. Men view a relationship as 1 more thing to deal with and they just can’t when their ability to “produce” is compromised.

He is still very connected to you, he just can’t think about a relationship right now. My guess is, the drugs just are making everything worse. Has he gotten a 2nd opinion? I have an idea of a type of referral, but I need to find out how to find a practitioner in your area. I’ll get back to you on that one!

So again, just for now, you are doing GREAT!!! Think of this time as building your friendship. Ask him all kinds of questions that you want to know about him. Ask him some fun questions like “If you could design your perfect morning, what would it look like?” Or “If I gave you a million dollars to fix up or change only 1 room in your house, which room would you pick? And what would you do it?”

Keep it light, simple and know that every friendly conversation you have with him, it’s building a bridge, it’s building a relationship, it’s investing in what already exists. He just needs some time to heal.

Heidi

[Heidi G]

Hi Natalie,

I’m so sorry! This is a tough one as you are long distance. I”m so glad you got to experience that kind of connection. It’s beautiful and powerful and the loss of it can break the heart! Let’s see if we can help you figure out how to draw him out of his hiding spot….

I just have a few questions:

1. How long have you been dating?
2. What kind of pain is he taking Lyrica for?
3. When you talk every few days, who initiates the contact?
4. When you do talk, how are the conversations? Does he seem depressed? Does he seem heavy hearted? Are the conversations just surface? Is the length of the conversation much shorter or about the same?
5. Is there anything you can think of that might have scared him away? Any conversation you may have had about marriage, moving in together or anything of that sort?

Something has happened. Whenever someone all of a sudden goes from super connective to overnight, becoming distant and cold, something usually has been triggered. He is afraid most likely. Maybe the baby mama threatened him, maybe he lost his job, maybe he got a bad medical diagnosis. I don’t know, but whatever it is, he most likely is not telling you the whole story and probably for reasons of him thinking he is protecting you or something.

For now, keep connecting with him. Keep being his friend. Whatever it is that has happened and caused this shift in him, it will either pass or maybe he will tell you. Your friendship, your support, your encouragement can go a loooooong way in his life and can definitely help things eventually shift.

Let us know more details and then we can better guide you from there. He is very lucky to have you!!!

Heidi

[Heidi G]

Hi Kathira!

Man this is one tough situation you are in! I really applaud you for coming here and asking for guidance and being willing to grow and learn. It’s not an easy thing to do!

Here is the thing I want to invite you to think about…. What kind of relationship do you want in your life? I don’t mean with him, but in general. Do you want to get married someday and have a family? Or fall madly in love and have a deep, meaningful experience? What do you imagine?

Kathira, your body is special. It is sacred and special and any man is LUCKY to get to be intimate with you!!! Do you really feel it is okay for you to be physical with a guy who doesn’t value you, nor see you that way? He is the kind of guy who doesn’t value women. It sounds like he uses women. Many men can use women for sex, for comfort, for whatever they need and feel okay with it. They are just built differently than us. One main difference is the chemicals. Like Kanya mentioned, only women’s bodies do this: for the first 7 years you are with a man, your body will release dopamine during sex which is a bonding chemical. Men’s body’s don’t do this! I know it’s been 8 years, but look how bonded you are to him now!

Playing this bartering game with him, can get messy. Reality is, you are wanting him to commit and he won’t. So for YOUR sake, you have to decide either just friends or all in. There is no way to still have sex and then talk less and break other kinds of patterns you guys have established. It won’t work because YOU are just going to keep hurting. He will visit, have sex, you guys will have an amazing time, then he will leave and go back to his regular patterns.
If you are going to do anything here, it needs to be really accepting him for who he is. He has a history and a pattern of having a few women available to him at all times. Whatever is causing him to design his life this way, is HIS issue and something he needs to figure out on his own. Until he does that (he may never take that path) you will just be another woman whom he knows he can keep on his list. He will keep you connected, as is, as long as you are willing to participate in this design. He has treated you this way for 8 years now. So you can keep participated and accept this design, or you can set boundaries and not allow him to keep using you on any level.

When you think about boundaries for yourself, you need to ask, “What decisions am I making in this situation that are causing me harm?” That’s where you need to set the boundaries. If having sex keeps you bonded to him and causes hurt as well, that’s where a boundary needs to go up. The idea is to make boundaries for purposes of honoring who you are. Boundaries are for protection. Boundaries are ways to keep our hearts safe from being harmed by someone else.

I wrote quite a bit, so I look forward to your many wonderful thoughts on this!!!

Heidi

[Heidi G]

Hi Margit!

Man, this is tough! I am sooo so sorry. It’s awful to watch someone you love torture themselves and all you get to do is watch, because they won’t let you in. Hang in there!!! Just a few questions…

Does he have a history with alcohol abuse?
Does he talk to you about what life regrets he is referring to?
Do you think he would be open to getting help?

I am wondering if he has done something that he has kept secret and he just can’t keep it quiet anymore. Secrets can be a cancer to the soul. It will wear away at the spirit slowly and in a subtle way. Many times people are able to keep those secrets at bay for awhile, but then they always reach a point where that secret literally starts to poison their spirit. I am wondering if he is feeling guilty about something. Regret and guilt go together. Maybe he cheated, maybe he hurt someone in the past, maybe he got a girl pregnant in college and bailed….I don’t know.

How does he behave when he is drinking? Does he get drunk? Is it always at home, or does he go somewhere?
How do you feel about your marriage (before this behavior)? Do you feel you guys had good communication? Was he an honest guy and share his true thoughts and feelings or is he the type to bury it all?

Heidi

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