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Hi Katerina,
I just wanted to check in and see how you are doing. What’s going on? How are you feeling? Any new developments? What steps have you taken to try and remedy things with your friends? We would love an update!
Heidi
Well I’m glad you have more clarity about Russell. What will you do if he reaches out again?
Are you going to try that matchmaking service you attached the link for? That might be fun!
I sure would love for you to be able to stay home, sleep in your own bed and have that job that allows you to stay there and grow some roots and not have to jump from project to project. There is a lot of energy output to live the kind of life you are living. I would love to see you rest :).
Heidi
Hi Rhonda,
I’m so sorry Russell is not responding in the way you are wanting. It’s really hard to not be able to get what you want, especially when you are struggling so much with feeling like you are living in scarcity (with your environment).
The loss of Russell is exposing a mindset you have that is giving you an opportunity to work on! I’m wondering how much “excitement” or “hope” you were putting into Russell because he was the most interesting thing happening in your life. If you were hiking and kayaking and living at home and having lots of contact with your friends, I wonder how depressed you would be about Russell. My guess is, you probably would feel a pinprick of hurt, but you would move on much faster. My guess is, he is sourcing you with entertainment and connection…things you are not getting anywhere else in your life. What about using these last 78ish days working on mastering ways to feel like you are being really filled up? I again, would encourage you to take down your countdown calendar and work on being present. It’s like you are saying in your mind “Only 78 days left of torture” or “only 78 days left of suffering” or something of that sort. So what you are thinking, believing, feeling about where you are at right now, is not working very well. You are more in a mindset of scarcity and everything you don’t have or want instead of in a mind of abundance and focusing on everything you DO have. This is an opportunity for you to develop a new skill that is sooooo valuable in any relationship….learning how to rely completely on yourself for ways to bring joy in your life, regardless of your environment.
Now that Russell is not showing up, you are depressed and you immediately are going back to the thoughts of “what’s wrong with me.” Now is an opportunity for you to recognize how much you are putting your value in the man’s hands. Why is there something wrong with you, just because Russell is not responding??? Why can’t there be something wrong with him? Why can’t it be that you guys really are not a good match? Why can’t it be that it’s just not good timing for either of you? Your thoughts and feelings of depression are letting you know that you have a little girl inside of you that is desperately wanting to loved and chosen BY YOU!!! She needs YOU, not a guy to tell her that is loveable and perfect JUST AS SHE IS! She needs to feel your love. Your judgment of her is what is causing the depression, not Russell. This is the hard work Rhonda, that few people really do, but it’s the healing work.
Thoughts?
Heidi
Hi Helen,
You feel unresolved because of what is in YOU. You do not need him to resolve anything. There have been MANY times that I was mistreated, ghosted, hurt and the person was not available or not really capable of resolving a thing…so I had to create closure all on my own. It’s very possible….and the path I would recommend for you to take.
It really leaves me feeling unresolved and wanting to be on a better note with him. Truth is, this guy isn’t capable of offering more. Here you are, trying to figure out all of these ways to be on a “better note” with him, but does HE really care? Nope. What is HE doing to resolve things WITH YOU in a consistent, healthy, follow through kind of way? Nothing. So that makes YOU the only one that really cares and the only one to fight to have a small thread of some kind of friendship. He is NOT even friend material. HE is clear. HE doesn’t want to connect with you. I know it hurts and I know it feels awful and activates anger / frustration for you. Because he is a BIG mess, trying to resolve how you feel with him in the picture, is just inviting more mess into your life. It’s time for you to start to say NO to emotionally unavailable men and start to choose yourself, love yourself more than the connection you are seeking from them and break this pattern. He is the perfect person to start this with.
Are you willing to forgive him and release him completely and close the door to any and all contact/friendship/connection with him?
Heidi
Hi Helen,
So I’m wondering…if you don’t want anything serious, you don’t feel like he treated you like a good friend, he isn’t responding to a funny video you sent…yet you want to gain back his attentions? What is happening for you that you are seeking attention from a guy who is not available?
Whatever his reasons, mind games or not, it doesn’t really matter does it? You have enough information to know that he is not responding and he cannot offer you what you want right now. It seems like you are trying to maybe tap into the potential that is there? Which leads me to believe that maybe you want more with this guy than you are willing to admit. Again, what you are saying and what you are wanting to do are 2 completely different things. I’ve been there MANY times and it’s important to get your whole mind, body and spirit in alignment instead of split.
So what do you want? Do you want to chase after an emotionally unavailable guy to see if you can gain his attentions? Or do you want to let this guy go and fight for something more for yourself? Either path will have a lot of gifts and lessons to learn. Either path will hurt. So it’s up to you what you would like to experience.
Thoughts?
Heidi
Hi Jules,
Welcome! Thank you for sharing your situation with us. It’s tough to let go of someone you get along so well with.
You say it felt like he could have been “the one.” What makes you say that? There is soooooo much you don’t know about him yet, so to give him so much clout when he hasn’t really earned it yet, isn’t really clear.
Whatever he is going through right now, I think the very best thing you can do is just keep supporting him and being friends. I love how honest he was. Who knows if it is from the depression or if he truly just doesn’t have those kind of feelings for you. It really is your choice to wait it out or to move on. Personally, I’m a move on kind of gal. If a guy isn’t crazy about me, then I’m not going to stick around, as I deserve nothing less than that. Everyone is different though. This is about you deciding what you want to experience and then aligning with it. If you want to wait around and find out whether it’s the depression or not, then it’s important to be clear about how long you will wait. If you don’t want to wait around, then just keep being friends and move on with your life. Only you know what you are willing to deal with. Either way, it hurts and there is no way around it.
Trying to counteract depression is pretty tough. Is he on medication? Whatever he needs to figure out about himself and whatever he needs to do to get balanced again, that’s what he needs to focus on, so trying to do any techniques to get his attention right now, probably wouldn’t make him feel very supported. As a friend, keep things light, fun and easy. Just be yourself. Let him figure his life out first and know that he isn’t going to be very available until then.
Thoughts?
Heidi
Hi Amy,
Welcome! I can understand your confusion as he is sending a lot of mixed messages.
Let me just ask you something. Are you sure you want to fight for a guy and gain interest of a guy who lies to you? He is showing you some VERY important sides to himself.
He is making plans and not following through AND he is lying about why he is not able to follow through. Regardless of how much fun you are have had with him or how well you 2 get along, he ALSO is not someone authentic and in his integrity. Are you sure you want to invite this guy deeper into your life??Heidi
I totally get it! You are used to a different standard of stores and living for sure! Your used to a completely different kind of environment. Just think of all the money you get to save by not shopping! lol.
I’m glad to hear Russell responded again! Out of curiosity, are you guys flirting at all? Do you think he feels like you like him?? Make sure you are giving him signs to continue to encourage him. A guy won’t take a strong lead unless he feels like he has a chance.
I’m wondering why you feel bad for hurting Robin. How do you know you hurt him? He had pulled away way before things ended. Let go of any guilt or feeling bad for your choice. You were honoring yourself and there is nothing to feel bad about. Trust that he is completely okay and in alignment with your decision. IF he is harboring any bad feelings, it’s because of his choices, not yours….so let it all go. No need for you to carry even the smallest ounce of anything about that situation. Whether you realize it or not, it affects you. So let yourself be 100% free from that situation.
Tell us more about Russell. Why do you like him? What do you guys talk about? Have you talked on the phone yet, or is it just texting at this point?
Hopefully you got to go take your loop!!!
Heidi
Rhonda! It doesn’t have to DRAG! If you choose this perspective, that is what will happen. Choose to have a different experience. The more you focus on how many days before you get to leave and the more you focus on that 85th day, the more you are losing the gifts of the present moment. Ask God to show you how to stay present. Ask God for help in seeing the beauty, the lessons and the gifts of TODAY. LEt go of counting the days and know it will show up when it does and until then, your goal is to stay connected to the present moment and find every little spec of joy that you can find. If all you are focusing on is what you don’t have, you will spend those 85 days in suffering and it will DRAG. I know how hard it is. I want to encourage you to really fight for more.
I don’t know why you are not able to sign up. It’s an app, not a website so you have to sign up through your phone. Not sure if that would be the issue or not. Hinge is just another platform. It’s different in that you don’t write a whole profile about yourself. They hask you 3 super fun questions and you answer it with 1 to 2 sentences and that’s what makes up your profile. Everyone gets asked different questions too, so it’s interesting. And of course there are pictures of yourself that you post too. It’s just fun and different…that’s all.
I’m sorry to hear that Russell isn’t responding. How are you feeling about that? Are you starting to get frustrated again at all? Feeling hopeless? Are you having thoughts like “what’s wrong with me?” Just checking to see what your mindset is.
Heidi
Heidi
Hi Helen,
Welcome! I’m sorry we missed the other post! Thank you for re-posting and bringing this to our attention.
There are a lot of dynamics happening in your situation, so let’s see if we can sift through all of them and get to the core root of things.
Here are some questions I want to start with. It seems like you are a bit confused about what you actually want with him. You say that you didn’t want anything serious with him, but all of your reactions, even you coming here and asking for advice, would suggest something different. I have had MANY experiences in my life where I actually didn’t have strong feelings for a guy but then I would watch myself reach out, initiate, flirt and take action to bring him closer to me….even though I didn’t FEEL that way. My actions and feelings were not aligned and that is something to REALLY pay attention to and explore. If you truly didn’t want much from him and just wanted to be casual and truly just wanted to be his friend and felt 100% aligned with that, you wouldn’t spend much time thinking about it or even asking for advice about it. You would feel peaceful, complete and resolved. So let’s talk about this a little more. What is happening for you? How do you REALLY feel about him? What do you REALLY want with him? I don’t know what it is, but it feels like something inside of you feels unresolved. Is that what it feels like for you?
To directly answer your question about being friends, it’s quite simple actually. No flirting, no romance, occasional talks, occasional hangouts and that’s about it. How often you guys connect will be a rhythm you both will figure out over time. Since this guy has trouble being honest and authentic, trying to develop a friendship will be a bit of a rollercoaster ride, as he has broken trust and you don’t know when you can believe what he is saying. So as you guys step into a new design of friendship only, it’ll take some time to figure each other out and to find the sweet spot that works well for both of you. Does this make sense? Is this helpful at all?
Heidi
Well done!
I want to suggest a book: https://www.amazon.com/Wild-Womans-Way-Potential-Fulfillment/dp/1501179888/ref=tmm_hrd_swatch_0?_encoding=UTF8&qid=1603279965&sr=8-1
This is my top favorite book for women. I also love this book, because she offers several, very practical and easy techniques to move emotions and ways to deal with stress. Check out her website and maybe you will respond to a method she created called “non-linear movement.”
is that i don’t want to have to go through this phase again, at least not for him.. If i have to, at the least, it would be for another relationship. I would be even more bold and say “I will not go through this again.” Not that you won’t face challenges again, but that you will handle them very differently next time. You will honor and listen to yourself much sooner. You will have a lot more self-esteem and self-love which will cause you to respond with much more compassion and care for yourself. You will stay so much more connected to yourself and not exclude yourself from the equation of connection.
Enjoy your NYE, your jog, your lists of dreams and releasing.
Heidi
