[Emilie S]

Wow that’s crazy for Harrington Rod, but I got to know some people who got healed thanks to this type of methodology. My nurse when I had my back surgery, she suffered from multiple sclerosis and was paralyzed for 10 years, she was in a wheelchair. She started doing magnetism, and she was treated and healed like that, and she was able to resume her profession. I myself suffered from eczema since I was born. One day I called a marabout, after all I had nothing to lose lol I haven’t had one crisis for more than 12 years now…
I will definitely check the movie and books you mentioned ! That’s where I am now 🙂
Just need to make final twist in my emotion lol

You want a fun fact, yesterday I spoke with the guy I firstly joined this forum for 3 years ago loool
He told me he has always been super sexually attracted to me, that every time he was seing me or speaking to me he was having all these thoughts…lol One thing for sure, I definitely have the “love goddess power”…as he is not the only one who confessed on this lately…
But it would be better if it was love and not only sexe for sure. At the same time it’s just comforting me that I do have this magnetism to attract people, just need to make this final shift to keep the one I do want. But that’s ok not in a rush, it will come when I’m fully ready to embrace it 🙂 I’m getting closer every day I know it.

For the positive impact, I think each small thing can become big, so I’m doing it at my own scale, the more I inspire people the bigger it will be 🙂 I don’t like to be in the spotlight so I guess something in between is cool. I don’t care if people remembers me for what I did, I just want this to be a global movement, a legend lol
For the impact itself I want people to care about other, stop being super selfish all the time, try to see that it’s by acting together for a brighter futur that we can have one, support future generation, reduce (or remove) inequalities, we are all Human, we all deserve to have a life….I’m a bit of a dreamer, but I know I can make things change, at least at my company level I do have this impact, let’s try to have more people onboard 😀

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hey 🙂

For online dating I don’t have a clue of what’s coming next lol but I know that seeing the “Tinder Swingler” will also have an impact…I don’t know if you saw it but it’s just crazy ! I knew for sure they were a lot of scam on tinder but THAT BIG !!!!!! I’m not on dating app anymore these days, not feeling like at all…Too much douch bag lol

For women empowerment I don’t know if it’s only link to covid or just the fact that every century some women starts to fight for their rights in different countries and so on…I also read a book mentioning that social media helped to raise more community, and as soon as 5% of a “population” is part of this community things are moving and changing…So it might be why and maybe covid helped because we were all online at this moment as it was the only way for us to connect. Also covid gave us the time to reflect, to see what’s important in life, knowing that sadly our life could just end in a blink because of this pandemic..who knows 🙂

Hahaha I’d love to talk about manifestation and all this for long hours as well 😉 To be honest I wasn’t really a believer of this things before, you know I’m a scientific so if something is not fully proved I have some difficulty to believe 😉 but I had some friends (and I guess it might also be cultural) who are really into this. She was always speaking about my energy, how much mine was “dark” or at least I had a shadow around me and she saw me shine since. (I know her like since 12 years now). And I started to feel this connection between my inner thought and my health. When I was in my last long relationship with the narcissist, I was always sick (but real sick) and I had a surgery in my back and all this was a manifestation of the fact I wasn’t doing good in this relationship that I was feeling trapped, that I couldn’t escape. As soon as I broke up with this guy and get rid out of him, my health became much more better, no more stomach pain at all, no more back pain, nothing…And since I really started my journey here but even more since last year when I really started to reconnect (or should I say connect) with my inner child, my inner self, my true self, I felt that my body was really becoming my friend, I lost 10 kgs in 8 months (I’m super proud of this) my body as never been better, even if I already had that weight, MY body right now is exactly looking the way I wanted it to look since LONG time. But just loving myself, is making it be the way I want lol. I can eat all the Brioche, cheese I want without gaining weight again, before I was just looking at this and gaining weight lool Of course I’m doing sport and that helps, but I was already doing that, and even more than what I do now, but not with the same spirit, I’m offering my body what HE needs to give me what I want lol and that’s SO much better.
And to answer your question, I read the book “The Secret” before seeing the documentary (wouldn’t call it a film). I don’t know how I came in possession of this book to be honest, I think it’s the ex I just mentioned mum that might have gave it to him…Really no clue, I read it at that time and was still not a believer lol still like “yeah whatever, those people are illuminated, but good for them if their belief is bringing them what they need”. (my judgmental me lol). Then I saw the movie and you know super American oriented, lots of superlatives usage and all, not French friendly I guess lol so same I was like yeah whatever lol
And then I started to work on myself, my self confidence, my self esteem, and all this, and manifestation topic came into my world. And I noticed that I was naturally doing this for work related topic or exam or all stuff not related to relationship. In fact it’s not true, I was doing it positively for everything except relationship. So I started to work on this for relationship, because I know that all reaction I had from past relationship, I dreamt about them right before it happened. You know I was speaking about my guts feeling something was wrong and all, and most of the time right after I had the confirmation…So I’ve decided that now I’ll visualise things positively, that’s also why I’m not closing everything with the guy. Because deep inside me, I know it’s there, and if my guts have been able earlier to show me negative stuff and getting those stuff, it can definitely show me positive and get results lol. I became a believer lol
Of course there is definitely an “x” factors, but we are all energy, polarity, and so on, so it’s a bit of scientific, and…I guess I can now relate to this. I think it’s not really explain properly in “the secret” otherwise I would have agree with it earlier lol (or maybe not, maybe I wasn’t just ready for this).
I can also speak about all this all day long, and I’m sharing it with some friends sometime lol (scientific ones, that might think I’m a bit crazy now lol but I don’t care.) I know I can inspire people, I’m assertive enough to know that people are listening to me lol. And they saw the change, I’m always smiling always positive even when something negative happen I’m switching to positive super fast now. And it feels so good lol. I know I can have a positive impact. You know this guy, he keeps on telling me I can change the world lol and I do believe I can at my own scale lol.

As for him (and I was thinking he would write to me today again lol), I just received a message while writing to you…I didn’t open just saw “I thought about you yesterday, I think I found a new employer for you (with a picture), and you can even answer me with my evening discovery while walking around with Remi (his best friend I met – once again there is a picture)…I don’t know what stupidity he sent me again lol but…for now, no request for a meeting so…no discussion 🙂

Sure I’ll let you know if I leave but it’s not planned yet lol

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hey Heidi,

For French I don’t know where it come from and why this is like that…I think France and French people are “proud”…We’ve more or less always been seen as the “shiny, luxury, love” country. And expectation from people outside of France are pretty high on all those topics. So I guess French try to convey with these expectation which can maybe lead to arrogance. I would say that it’s more because we are insecure, we hate not being perfect and so on…lol
As for the comment you receive “If you ever go to France, expect to be treated rudely.” I think it’s a question of language barrier…Lots of French (at least elder generation) were not speaking French, and as I said we like to be perfect, so if we don’t rock at something we avoid it. Foreign language is one of those things, we prefer to avoid than try and do something average…It leads to be seen as rude. Once again I would say it’s insecurity and shame lol (But we will enter the whole debate between intention and perception lol). So yes if you are the one taking the chance to try to speak French and not rock it people will tend to be more open and make more effort because, you would be at the “same level”. That’s my own analysis. Once again I’m unique, I’m super open minded, I don’t care of making mistake while speaking English, that’s how you learn.
And I think it will also depends where in France…If you go to Paris itself, you have a lot of foreigners, youth generation more open to the world, so you wouldn’t be treated as rudely as if you go somewhere in the middle of nowhere in France lol
But we definitely have this reputation, I know that when I was travelling I was always getting these types of comments like “oh really you’re French ? You seem pretty different that what I was thinking, I always heard that French were this or that, but you don’t seem like that”.
I know I know I’m special and extraordinary lol

Haha! I LOVE LOVE LOVE this! It’s 100% true and it just makes me smile that you are owning this about yourself…proudly! You know I think all the work I did, to understand who I really am, why I was kind of “afraid” of being my truly self were a bit link to this arrogance topic. By acknowledging that I am unique, extraordinary, special and so on, I used to feel “show off” and maybe guilty of this. But in the end that’s who I am, and I need to embrace that to get what I want in life, even more what I deserve from life. I can’t hide myself anymore of who I am so yes I’m proud to be so special, to have a lot of qualities (I know I have still stuff to improve I’m not saying I’m perfect lol) but at least, valuing my quality feels good. And I don’t care anymore of what people think, I want to own all this, and reflect all this, I want to shine and sparkle lol

Thank you for saying this! It really made me smile to feel like I get to have some kind of impact on someone like you…someone who is very wise and more advanced and on a expanded type of path. I’m honored to get to support you and I’m honored to have your trust! You were and are still of a great help 🙂 just repeating it just in case lol

I love your comparison with the bonsai tree !! It’s SO true, and it’s align with some of my meditation podcast, the lady is always saying that it’s your inside world that is creating what’s happening in “reality”. And even if you don’t see it yet in the reality, the universe is making things moves and everything will happen at the right time for you. When you are fully aligned. So I’m definitely into getting aligned with everything 🙂

As for the guy, you know I avoided answer to him a bit, wasn’t feeling good these days (I thought I had covid again but fortunately not, just my recurrent sinusite…). But he was sending me message everyday even if I wasn’t even reading them nor replying. I answered yesterday just to be nice because I was feeling better also. And from all the alignment I was speaking about, I know he is thinking a LOT about me lol and stuff are also changing in his mind. I still know I’ll have to have this clarification discussion with him but will wait to meet him in person. So right now, I’m letting him come back to me, ask for a meeting and we will talk at this time.
Until then, I’ll keep a bit of distance 🙂 That’s where I am at right now lol

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Yes…It might be because I’m using Safari ? Might work on other web browser…Nevermind lol

For French…I would say that’s because we are arrogant lol so we don’t want to be like everyone else, and even our language is showing that and the fact that when you’re not well educated you don’t use the right vocabulary / word whatever looool
For me German is much more complicated than English (I didn’t choose this one because of that and also because I find this language ugly but lol another story). Chinese is definitely super complicated, first not same alphabet and so on…
In school here (at least when I was in school) we were starting one other language first at around 13 years old, and keep it up until graduation (so like 6 years) and second one around 15 years old, and I think also mandatory until graduation (so like 4 years) or you should have taken extensive courses for the first one. And when I was in school first one was else English / German few school were proposing other language and the second one would depend on your school but usually those who choose German were taking English and those who choose English were taking Spanish or German…I did English and Spanish. I’m still able to understand Spanish but speaking is much more complicated without practice I lost a lot my vocabulary grammar and so on…
As for English, I went to England for few months and California as well also during my Engineering school and then I lived 2 years in India so I got used to speak. What you learn in school is a bit useless…lol Mine isn’t perfect but at least people understand me and I understand them lol I’m mainly working in English and sometime when I speak people think I’m English, I take it as a compliment lol because I definitely have a French accent but it seems to be ok lol
But I understood that now they are starting with basic language courses earlier not too sure when but the younger you start the easier it is to learn.
I’m always amazed when I see kids speaking multiple languages thanks to their parents origin.

The reason why I stayed here…hmm multiple one I guess. One is because of you, I like to get your perspective, you help(ed) me to grow, you help(ed) me in my journey and for me it’s important to keep this because I know it’s a lifetime journey first. Also it’s out of respect for you, you invest a lot of time with me so I “owe” you this visibility 🙂
And last one would probably be just because I’m a super resilient person lol never giving up, trying, experimenting, falling sometime, but trying again 🙂 that scientific side of me one would say ! I would say that other came with one problem, focused only on this one, got a solution or not and maybe just stopped trying and moved on …But as I’m resilient, and that I discovered a lot about me and what was really blocking me, and that it was something much more deeper than ONE (or so many failed relationship lol) for me that…I’m just thinking sharing might inspire someone at some point…Even though going through the 50 pages of tchat might be a challenge loool
And most of all, I’m UNIQUE LOL that’s why I’m so different 😉

Yes I guess whatever the reason why I just needed it, and I’m listing to my needs and not trying to please anyone else but me…I guess that’s also part of who I really am / really becoming. I know that ignoring him, is complicated for me, because it goes against my value (respect) but I also know that it would be a lack of respect of myself if I were to answer him even if I’m not feeling like to. I guess he can definitely understand that, if I tell him at some point why I needed this space…
I don’t want to overthink everything, but I just know I need to figure out what I really want with him or not, if I’m really aligned with where we are at. And I don’t really think because I’m missing him now that we spent so much time together, meeting once in a while is easy to deal with as friends, but being 24/7 during 5 days and having such a great time is definitely confusing in addition to his behaviour…Maybe I’m not good at playing this type of game. I guess I’m such a “complete / whole” – same here don’t know how to translate lol person that I can’t really play those games for a long period. That’s my scientific side once again but I need clarity..So I guess it will end up in a conversation but not ready yet for that, need to ensure I am align with myself first. And I don’t think I’m afraid of being happy in the end.

I didn’t right to him since Tuesday morning, he liked one of my story about brioche and sent me a message about it on Thursday, and I didn’t read it / answer it. Yesterday he sent me a voice message and I listened to it but didn’t answered. His message was nice but you know…just like “Hey coach*, I hope you’re doing well? Well, strangely apart from Monday, I haven’t done any sports at all all week, well I just walk…but hey… I’m going to have to motivate myself. Well, I hope you are well and that you are soon on weekend, Talk to you soon**, kisses”

*it’s because I do a lot of sports, hence my “amazing body” (I quote) and I made him ski, I “gave him ski lessons”…
**”Talk to you soon” isn’t exact translation but same I don’t know the equivalent expression in English lol so that’s the best I could translate haha.

So as I said, nice message, friendly one, but…Not feeling like I had anything to say lol

Yes I guess if people were being more positive we would definitely live in a different world, but as you said, 1 person at a time, in French we have an expression litterally “Rome hasn’t been built in one day” lol. I have this debate pretty often with the girl I’m managing, she is super impatient (I can related I used to, maybe I’m becoming wiser more and more lol) and I give her a lot of history exemple to show her than big changes take times, but each step is important and valuable…And then she reconsider what we already achieved (you know internal change management in my company) and she is happier lol

Hahaha I love that your brain is thinking like mine lol don’t drive yourself crazy though 😉

Emilie

[Emilie S]

See : Sorry, you are not allowed to edit this item. << That’s what I get when trying to edit lol

French is super confusing !!!!!! Even for French people…we have so many words for the same meaning but with a slight difference that can be interpreted totally differently from one to another…This is really not a language for clear communication lol

[Emilie S]

Hahaha yes see how much I’ve changed I’ve become the wise one LOL just joking !

And yes I guess everyone is afraid of being happy or to loose this happiness I guess…When you’re saying we are on the same exact spot but for different reason it could be true and not, maybe I’m also feeling fears of being happy ? who knows ? I’m not feeling it that way though but I guess if you consider my own barrier/blockers about the fact that I used to hide myself behind my family history and so on…It could be the same issue in the end ? Even though I worked on it, I might still have a little piece of that going on. Not sure but…it could…

Either way, you are still on the same page with each other, which makes things work so beautifully in the way you do. << yes…but right now I’m in a silent mode lol I wanted to take a step back and give it more thought (am I really ? or am I just hiding myself behind work ? lol)
Also I might have covid again …my sister does and she is staying with me and I’m having some fever and headaches so…odds are not good lol

And I think I am definitely becoming more and more as a positive person, because even when I’m getting negative feedbacks or comments, I am trying to see the bright side of them lol
I’ve decided not too accept negativity anymore 🙂

[Emilie S]

Hey Heidi,

I can’t really speak for him to be honest, but I know that when we were on the ski trip we listened to some of his meditation podcast (created specifically for him by the person following him on his depression). The messages were about his current fear, the fact that he needed to agree to be happy again and understand that he deserves on this again. So I guess he still need to heal from what happen with his divorce and so on, and that’s why he has the fear (but just a guess). So I’m thinking he is just not allowing himself yet to “be happy”.
To be honest I can relate so much to his current state, I felt this myself so much in the past (and you know it better than a lot of people around me lol). And I could relate to his podcast also. I guess he did start his recovery journey a bit after me and he is going in the right direction but it’s taking time. You saw it with me, it took me 3 years to be where I am today.
So I wouldn’t say he isn’t having this emotional intelligence, he is getting there at his own pace. And I understand why you are mad at him loool but don’t be 🙂 He is working on his own alignment 😉
I don’t blame him, and I just let him go through his own journey, he is also seeing that I evolved myself since we “broke up” I did a lot of work as well. And I’m definitely stronger than he is right now because I started my journey before he did.
And i know what I deserve but thanks for the reminder !

But you know if I am really honest, it could be also confusing on his side, I’m also “playing” with him, nudging him and all. I’m not clearer than he is I think lol. Probably because I can’t really make up my mind, I’m not really able to answer your question about “does it make you want to go further with him again ? are you clear that you are not interested in that ?”. The answer is “no I don’t know I’m not clear”.
I really enjoy spending time with him, because we really have this amazing connection, complicity, fun interaction and so on. But I have so much on my plate right now (work his part of it, I’m launching a HUGE Climate Program for my company and have a bit of pressure, and also trying to get promoted as a Director lol – no pressure at all no lol).
I’m also still healing myself, connecting to my inner child and all. So not really sure I’m really ready for anything more than this right now (that might also lead to his own behaviour because I’m sure I am also sending mix signals).

So long story short I would say the more I get to know him and the more I spend time with him, the more I could see something further with him. But not sure now is the right time (but is there really a right time?!). I do like the fact that sex isn’t coming in between when getting to know each other better, and I already know this part is great so it’s not even a concern lol.

I don’t know if it’s clear and if it answers your question or not.

For this specific “when he says stuff like “our kids” ” << it’s tricky because he didn’t say “our” it’s a wrong translation, but you don’t have equivalent word in English. In French he said “si on a des enfants” and “on” isn’t really a “we” it’s an undefined pronoun. French subtlety you know…When you don’t want to be clear speak French that’s great lol. it could be “you and me” but not obviously as a “we” but both as individual. Nevermind French is too complicated lol
But when he is fishing for my feeling it makes me feel that he is as uncertain as I am lol and that we might both need to be reassure to know if “it’s the right time” if we are “both ready”, “both align with ourself” and blablabla.

But to be honest I preferred to focus on enjoying the moment, having a good time and not focusing too much on words…Act speaks more than words…

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hi Heidi,

Hope you’re doing good !
I know about the edit button but I don’t know why it’s not working when I try to use it…Might be because of my web browser…Nevermind !

As for my dog yes it’s weird but I don’t really have other explanation…And she is having “normal food”, because of her allergie I can’t give industrial food so she is having mix or rice, green beans and fishes. It’s approved by my vet…But she also loves fruits and all vegetable so it might give her a bit of acidity that could explain this…I’ll double check with the vet.

Your weekend sound so fun ! I’ve never done rock climbing…I have a phobia of heights so it’s complicated for me. Also right now I still need to work on my shoulder lol I guess it wouldn’t be a good practice haha

For the baking yes I’ve try so many types of Brioche lol love it 🙂 And I’m having them for breakfast but I also shared a lot with my grandma and other family members and friends lol depends of the quantity I’m preparing 😉

I just got back from my ski trip with Jonathan. Just before this trip, he lost his grandfather so I wasn’t too sure he would still go or not, but in the end he said that he was super motivated so he came back on Tuesday evening from his family and we left on Wednesday morning. We had an amazing time there, and we were super lucky. It was supposed to snow every day but finally we had sun all the time ! We did 2 days of ski, one spa, lot of cheese restaurant, long walk, played video games, and had a lot of fun there. It was really refreshing, I really needed this trip, because I had “hard time” at work, really busy during the past few weeks since the beginning of the year, so this break was really needed.

And if you are wondering nothing happened there, even though he is still acting “weird”. Giving all types of compliments all day long, being super attentive, at some point some time he said some weird phrases but I didn’t answer … “about the fact that my family had already adopted him”, while we were coming back from skiing and he was having a hard time putting his skis back on so I asked him if he wanted help he said something like “no I have to train if we have children I will have to carry their skis”. Even before we left on vacation when he told me about his grandpa who was not well I sent him a message of support and when he died the same and he sent me lots of kisses so I told him laughing “yeah yeah you want it too much” and he said like “I assume but I’m being reasonable” or something like that (well first he sent it back to me that I wanted that too). and there on returning from skiing he said thank you I really loved the holidays and the company was great giving me a hug and a loooong kiss on the forehead lol. He sent me a message when he got home to say thank you again that it was really a top weekend at all levels and the company as well.
And on the way back by car, he told me that we were seeing each other again to celebrate my “non birthday” before he left for Switzerland, he also told me about a show in April, after we the weekend in Marseille in May and he said to me but if you want after you stay telecommuting there with me… There he forgot something at my house that he had left to make room in his box so I tell him , and he said “we’re going to have to meet again”. So I tell him laughing “yeah yeah it was a missed opportunity we both know that you can’t do without me” to which he replied “I assume but the reverse is true isn’t it?” I replied that I had never hidden it and that it was not I who had decided to be reasonable. But he did not answer on this point…But shared other stuff happening during his day.
And he is sending me text and voice message since we are back…
This is all very confusing to me…Nevermind, I had great time !!

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Sorry misspelled your name …

[Emilie S]

Hi Heydi,

It seems that she would have periodontal disease like humans. It starts by the gums and it then attacks the jaw bone but we were not able to see it without the scaling of these teeth as we do not do dental x-rays to dogs. And last year when we did it, it wasn’t there yet…But you know I got her in India and she was not well weaned so it is possible that it created health problems for her. Like all her allergies for example…
About human, it’s definitely an issue. I used to eat in front of TV so while having distraction and was one of the people you mentioned, eating too fast or too big bites and it lead to eating too much also. Because like that we do not feel satiety. I learned while doing “diet” that I needed to pay attention to what I was eating and taking the time to chew, I had an exercice that I was supposed to chew each bite during a certain time like counting until 30 and then swallow. The study you mentioned is super interesting !

Haha yes I guess I’ve always been strong ! Just not conscious about everything but now I do and that feels good. But I can definitely feel the result of all the work I did on myself, accepting bad thought sometimes but not focusing on them and let them go as soon as they come. By not focusing on them I’m not giving them any power to settle and change my subconscious. It’s definitely not an easy path, and definitely a life long work, but I’m happy that I took it. Not sure it will be a lonely path, I think our generation are getting more and more aware that this is an important thing to focus on. I had this conversation yesterday with the lady I’m managing at work, we were sharing some of our parents / grands parents remarks on some topic and went to this conclusion. But maybe as you said, it’s because you attract people that are also going on this direction that I feel this ?
As for the guys swooping back, I don’t know if it’s interesting, but I find it fun, but to be honest I am not even taking the time to answer. They are definitely not people I want to invest time on or with anymore 🙂

What’s your plan for the weekend ? I’m meeting friends tomorrow evening for a “murder party” it would be my first one and I’ve always wanted to try lol. It almost didn’t happen because 2 of them were having covid last week but today were there last day of self isolation. And Sunday I was supposed to meet with my pole dance teacher but she hurt her back…So not sure what I will do yet, maybe go to a movie with a friend let see 🙂 For now I’m sticking to my plan of baking one new recipe per week and I’m really enjoying it ! I’m into “brioche” since the beginning of the year lol so I’m trying all type of recipe lol

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hello Heidi 🙂

Yes I really had great time since the beginning of the year and it was almost looking like pre-covid situation, just enjoying the time being without worrying (too much) about that. Obviously we were wearing mask all the time and keeping our distance (more or less not that easy in public transport) and cleaning our hands and so on but at least we were enjoying ! And it felt SO cool 🙂
Haha yes that’s a pretty cool recipe. I read somewhere that “the right person will make you fall in love with yourself too”. I think I could thank him because it opens my eyes. I mean I did the work myself but what happened between us “forced me” to face what I already knew inside me at some point but wasn’t able to deal with yet. And since then I am finally accepting everything and changing the mindset behind all my deep belief, my limitating belief, I was not align with what I wanted consciously and what my subconscious was bringing again and again in my life. I am working on healing my inner child (that’s where all of it came from). I swipped this idea about my family past and my own destiny / choice. I now know exactly who I am and what I worse and deserve. I was already able to do it in my professional life but was still struggling in my personal life. Even though I had since journey since I’m here on this forum it was still not totally there in my brain.
I feel much more align with myself now, my friends (close one) and family can see the change, and it’s cool.
So yes I guess it’s definitely healing energy on different level but not only for this specific relationship but my whole life and connection. I also had a conversation with an energy specialist, I explained to her what was anchored in me and see how to modify it. So I explained to her what happened in my love life. And she told me to focus on the actions because the words (in this case the last one) are only a reflection of MY own fears and have nothing to do with what he may feel.
On another note, that’s fun because since I changed my mindset I had some people (guys mainly) I wasn’t talking to anymore that came back in my life, to be honest I don’t care about them, but it seems I’m attracting people lol.

As for my pup, I went to the vet last Tuesday and she did a control and everything is fine so I am super relieved. She is now back on track, eating properly, going for walks, not yet playing as much as before because I guess taking the toys in her mouth might still feel a bit uncomfortable but I can see she is doing good now and I am super grateful. This vet is really great, they are really taking good care about my dog and I trust them on this. They will do another checkup during her next monthly appointment (for her allergy) but they said she was really healing well. And for the 13 teeth it’s because she lost a lot of bone in her jaw so they were “coming off” and that brought a big risk of infection. They told me that it was better to remove them to avoid this risk and also that my dog must have feel a lot of pain with moving teeth. So it was for the best. They also told me that a dog can definitely survive without any teeth because they chew/crunch barely 1/10 of what they eat.
And your dog’s story is super upsetting and frustrating I’m so sorry you and the dog had to go through that…But happy that everything is fine now.

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hi Heidi !

I had a great week !

First I went to see my friends in Lyon so a city in “south east” of France. Even if the weather wasn’t really great we were able to go for a long walk in the city and then visit a museum about cinema and miniatures mockup it was amazing !!! And I teached them how to do a “babka” (it’s a pastry) lol. It was a really nice but exhausting weekend lol

On Monday he wrote to me telling me that he had freed up his schedule for Saturday, even if it meant joining his friends later and asked me if I was still available and that he was managing the organisation and if that was not the case he was really sorry.

In the meantime on Wednesday, I had a real hard day, I took my dog to the vet for a simple scaling and in the end 13 teeth had to be removed… So a big operation and she was not well for 48 hours but now everything is fine. But it bothered me a lot, and he was very attentive and consoled me.The day after he asked me if she was doing better and also planed for our Saturday.

Finally he came up with a great plan but not the theatre lol it will be for another time 🙂
In the end we went to see an exhibition at the Musée de l’Homme “at the Human’s frontiers” and one about “sneakers history” after we took a snack break in front of the Eiffel Tower (in the warm museum) and we then went to see “The Williams Method” with Will Smith on the williams sisters really great as a movie. So the theme of the day was “sports”. After the movie as in the end he had totally canceled his plans for me we went to the restaurant. I told her about my “resolutions” about trying new pastry recipes every week and also about leaving Paris at least once a month. So, we planned a few days skiing in my grandmother’s apartment, and maybe even a 2nd stay there and also the weekend in Marseille. And he offered me to register with him for the CAP (French training) pastry chef and also traditional cuisine. He told me that he really had a great day once again. As usual we teased each other a lot, and I played with him teasing him about my hairs, eyes and butt lol
So lots of plan coming but he was proposing them after I was “suggesting” stuff lol
I guess I’m getting better at this “game” (getting what I want lool).

Even if he will be pretty “present” in my life in coming weeks/months, I’m still having my life, I’ll still work on my pastry, I have some plans with friends next weekends, and also have some trip without him. So I’m living and enjoying my life !! And that’s really cool.

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Thanks !

Yes I’m speaking up more and more. Before it was more like I didn’t wanted to hurts people feeling and was keeping things to myself because I didn’t knew how to say things, now I’m just thinking that I’ll just say it trying to be a bit diplomat but not keeping stuff for me anymore. And it’s usually link to energy of integrity for me.

I had the same “issue” at work on a topic, so I told my boss and she said that my concern were valuable and that we should discuss about it. So let see how this discussion goes 🙂 but at least I’m not “afraid” anymore of speaking up and sharing my thought. I like your approach and will definitely keep it in mind 😀 thanks for sharing !!!!

As for him and his answer, I’ll see if he walks his talk or not, but I’m not going to ask him again and if I don’t have news from him about the 15th by mid next week I’ll probably plan something else with other friends 🙂 I’m not going to “chase him” or “wait for him”. That’s my new me, living my life only for me with positive things lol

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hey Heidi,

Yes it’s crazy time’s flying…This covid situation is clearly making time experiment weird lol and my holidays definitely flied too fast !!!! I want to be back on holidays lol too much work already.

We have good complicity and friends relationship and it’s good like that yes. Do I have feelings for him, probably yes, but what type…No idea really. I am attracted physically and mentally to him for sure but romantically and sexually I don’t know. I’m not having fantasy about him lol
I’m good like this right now, I’m getting to know him more and with a different perspective and that’s better, sex and hormones are not messing up my mind. So for now I’m really happy with this situation.

I’m not thinking about him everyday but I do have the same reaction as he does when I see something that is a reference to our past talks or memories together, but I’m not sharing it with him, just smiling and thinking I’ll mention it when we will speak or meet. And these days we are speaking almost every day but not that much, just few messages.

By the way we are not meeting this week for the theatre but he said he is super motivated to go next week and he gave me his availability. Only one that was ok for me was Friday but as we were already supposed to meet on Saturday I said I didn’t see the point to meet Friday & Saturday. He replied, “He replied “possible I might not be available on the 15th, but I am blocking my 14th”.

And to be honest I was upset because we mention the 15th last time we met. In my “past behaviour” I would probably just said “ok fine with me”…But it’s not fine, you agreed 1 month ago, we had plan, it’s unrespectful for me…And I don’t want to keep things for me anymore. So learning to speak up 🙂

So I told him “You know I love our complicity and our flexibility on the other hand the “possible that I am not available on the 15th” whereas we spoke about it a month ago and that yesterday you told me that you’ll let me know for Thursday or the 15th… I find that unrespectful and hey, that saddens me”. So he replied “Sorry but the problem is when I don’t have my diary I forget, so let me double-check and I try to free myself for the 15th there you are rooo stop eh”. (Definitely a guilty voice lol).

Now let see if he really walk his talk, if not, I’ll just go see this Theatre thing with another friend…and that’s ok.

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hey Heidi

Happy New Year !!!!

Yes I had nice holidays 🙂 happy to had the time to rest and relax and spend time with my family. For the flat tire…that’s ok, no one was hurt and same with the table so it’s ok…Of course it’s unexpected expenses but it’s just material…Happy that It didn’t end at the emergency lol

Haha yes sorry for the conversation, there was a lot around French references so it might have been a bit tricky to follow, but long story short, lots of joke and laugh in these exchanges. And yes I can totally relate to “past can get in the way”…It’s crazy but it’s like that…
Since this conversation we spoke again sometime he was initiating the conversation, sometime it was me, he wished me first the happy new year and had a specific joke about cheese in it for me. I had one around chocolate.
I sent him a message to ask if he wanted to go to see a new theatre piece if he didn’t saw it yet and he said sure. I’m just waiting to see if it will be this Thursday or not (covid test for him again). Otherwise it will be on Saturday 15th, as we had already plan to meet for my “non-birthday”. He is supposed to plan something even better than last time lol

And yes I think we already had this discussion around marriage and kids long time ago 🙂 and my feeling on these topics didn’t change lol

Emilie

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