[Emilie S]

Hi Heidi,

Yes I already share this thought about a “bad movie” lol
While I see the way French people act I am thinking they are exactly doing what they shouldn’t and what we saw in movies leading to even worst situation…I hope they will understand the seriousness of the situation and that they will act for the common good…

I am happy to have a job where I can work remotely and were I can also provide my help for the common good. In a matter of fact we are offering our support for free to any non-profit, public institution to fight the covid-19 and all our employee are pretty keen to invest their time both professional and personal to help on this crisis. We are all feeling frustrating about the situation and all trying to help and support each other. We are lucky enough to be international and able to see what’s going on in every “part of the world”.
I hope we will be able to find out something to help on this but for sure we will try 🙂

Of course we are all using social virtualising and it even enhance some group conversation that were getting cold lately but it’s not exactly the same. We know it’s temporary and we are already making plan for when it will be over lol the only thing is the “end” is pretty uncertain.
For my boyfriend I am a bit frightened to be honest because even if he is for now working in the background and still on the security part of all the infrastructure, he can be called out for the crisis and be put in the “first lane”. I am feeling a bit guilty to think that because every effort is important, but it’s always complicated to think that he could be infected due to his job and all. For now it’s not on the table but it can still happen.

For now it’s a bit new to say what I learn about myself lol
Nothing much new, I don’t really like to be stuck at home and not able to meet my family and friends but even if sometime I can act borderline just for the love of the risk, I’m not doing it at all for this specific situation. I don’t want to take risk for me and I don’t want it neither for others. So for once I am listening and keep myself nicely lockdown.
Only thing is that being lockdown can drive us a bit paranoid that’s my current feeling.
But I want to remain positive on this, I am taking care of myself, I am investing a lot of my time on myself, I planned my agenda to keep slot for cardio working out and for yoga session. I still have the same habits about cooking healthy and yeah I am adjusting to the situation and ensure this won’t affect me too much.

Let see how it evolves !

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hi Kanya,

Thanks for your message. Yes we met last Saturday and it was nice to meet after such a long time…I cooked for him and also baked cookies that he liked lol so I offered him some to bring back home 🙂 we also watched a moovie and felt asleep in front of it lol
He was supposed to leave early in the morning because still having work at his home but he stayed a bit longer just to enjoy time together…At this moment we were not aware we would go under full lockdown and were planning to meet during the week…

But now due to COVID-19 and the lockdown in France we might not meet each other for a long period again…Can’t tell you how sad I feel about this. Especially as I am leaving alone and can’t have social interaction…No more pole classes, no more meeting with friends, movie or anything…Even working remotely, I am used to it but at least I usually go out and have a social life …These coming weeks are gonna be pretty painful and sad.

But I know that’s a must do and we need to go through this to avoid the spread. I am well placed to know how bad it is. As I am working in the AI sector we are helping to predict how it’s gonna evolve and without the lockdown it would really really go bad…

As a fireman he is allowed to go out but I don’t think he will come to meet me, I don’t want to force him in any case…If he proposed to do so I’ll be more than happy but I don’t want to ask him. I know it’s not a good idea in the end…But I would be more than happy to be with him during this hard time.

Hope you are all safe and no one around you is infected.

Please stay safe.

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Thanks 🙂
Yes I am trying to support him and staying also in the back in order to not disturb him 🙂
I’ll let you know but he won’t have final result before next month I think…

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hi Kanya,

Yes I am happy for him but still finger crossed for tomorrow and final result with all the exam he had last year aswell….

We didn’t plan anything yet but he told me he has back pain so I just proposed to massage him for now lol I guess he liked the first time because he was happy with this proposal 🙂

For now I just let him focus on his last evening of studying and then I’ll see what he wants to do 🙂

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hi Heidi,

You’re right 😉 his first exam was last Wednesday, and he told me “it should be ok I think I’ll have at least 10 (over 20). Next one is this Tuesday…Can’t wait for him to finish lol (same for him he was still studying this weekend).

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hi Kanya,

Haha I can only understand your love about cheese…Me when I’m doing low carb as soon as I eat fat …I am gaining weight. If I have balanced food it’s ok lol
But when we went to ski…it was cheese every day every meal lol

Yes I did noticed and I’m really happy about my own behaviour this time ! I guess I stopped feeling and being needy and putting pressure on myself to pleased someone instead of “pleasing myself” if I can say so lol
But I guess also his behaviour is helping, we found a good way to communicate, we are going step by step at our own pace, not rushing anything, just enjoying the time together so yes I think it helped a lot.
I guess the work I did on myself with my coach helped aswell, I am more self conscious I would say.

Haha for the cookie stoooooop I am on diet loool (thanks for your tips !)

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hahaha how come you love cheese you’re not French 😉 loool
Just joking ! Cheese is definitely the thing I can’t stop eating, I can stop sugar and fat (except cheese lol) while “dieting” but this one is really complicated. I remember when I was living in India it was SO hard not to have cheese, I was bringing some in my luggage every time I was travelling to France (and same for my French friends lol).
In fact while doing pole I’m not really using this specific muscle so it’s not paining. But while stopping fitness during more than a full month and doing Yoga to stretch it and the osteopath really helped to heal. I’m still being pretty careful on this one and I’m walking a lot to ensure my muscle is getting stronger. For now it seems that it worked well.
I’ll try to do fitness again yesterday, I’m just avoiding “jumping” exercise and I’m replacing it by softer one and I didn’t feel any pain neither while practicing or now (24 hours after). So I’ll keep on going slowly on this but it seems to be better. I’ll keep on doing stretch to ensure perfect recovery.

Yes for now I prefer just to show him support than sending him a package lol it will be “soon” over…This Wednesday he has the writing part and on March 10th the oral one. So one more week to go before seeing him. But I’m ok I’m a bit busy these days so no issue, we keep on communicating and all so I’m not feeling bad at all about not meeting. Of course I’m missing him a bit but not like desperately or not being able to think about something else 🙂
For the oils, yes men are still men it’s not good for them until they need it looool

I’ll try Marco Polo one day but as I said until he changes his phone it’s complicated lol

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hello,

Yes it sucks but it’s ok it’s fix now thanks to the nice dentist lol
And yes damn chocolate…Forced diet ! I almost only had soup for the entire week (which is good I finally got over the weight I gain with all the cheese meal we had during our ski weekend loool) – of course it was harder to loose without being able to practice cardio sport…
So it’s a positive outcome of this bad tooth situation lol

I’ll think about the package yes, but as it will reach his parent’s home I don’t really know how to handle it lol
I’ll think about something but I guess only cookies will be ok for him, he isn’t much into essential oils and all…he would just make fun of me lol (as always)

I never used Marco Polo I just know the game called like that lol but I’ll have a look. I don’t like much phone or video but I can check if it’s fun to use. Thing is that his phone is broken he bought a new one but didn’t took the time to change it yet because he didn’t wanted to break it while working on his house so not sure he will be able to install it yet…lol

Thanks for all this suggestion !

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hey Heidi,

Sadly we didn’t meet during this last weekend…

For 2 things…First he had too much to study and he was already late in his study so it was complicated for him to take that time off and I don’t blame him…I know he is pretty stressed about it.
The other thing is that…I think you will laugh a bit…but on Friday afternoon I broke one of my tooth…so I wasn’t feeling good lol
I said you will laugh just because I did it not even a month after he broke his own tooth. For me it’s stupid thing, during my Tuesday pole class I was supporting one of my friend and her knees came into my jaws and my teeth have slammed…I thought everything was ok but on Friday afternoon I was feeling like I wanted chocolate so I took some and while I bite in it I broke my tooth…Stupid thing …That’s a reminder for me to eat healthy loool
So I wasn’t feeling good on Friday night and Saturday I had dance class in the morning and I went for dentist emergency but he didn’t do anything I have to go back tomorrow. And Sunday I was with a friend of mine.
But for now I know he is into his study and really busy. It doesn’t stop him to message me every morning and night and take news it’s just the. 2 hours drive and distraction with me are not for now…Don’t think we will meet this weekend but I didn’t ask. Didn’t wanted to pressure him or so. I’ve plan some stuff to do so if I have time to rest that’s cool and if I see him that’s even better 🙂

[Emilie S]

Hi Heidi,

Thanks for the link 🙂 I guess we do but I never buy this so I don’t know the name in French 🙂
I’ll check next time I am going to supermarket lol

I can “sing” but I don’t think I am a good singer though…While we were travelling back from ski weekend I was singing during the whole trip…He didn’t kill me and didn’t asked me to stop so I guess it’s ok… But I wasn’t singing that loud lol
When I am alone I am singing loud and that’s fun 🙂
I think listening to podcast would be ok for me but audio book no, because I need to imagine what I read when I read a book so I really won’t be focus enough on the road lol

And yes what you are describing is feeling good when you have that type of connection 🙂 I think we do have a good one and I’m really happy about it 🙂 Still didn’t decide what we are gonna do but it will be on the moment and that’s nice aswell !

Thanks 🙂

Have a good weekend !

[Emilie S]

Hey Heidi

Thanks for sharing this recipe 🙂

I don’t know what is a boxes of pound cake though 😅😅 but i will give it a try for sure 🙂
And i guess cookies would never be healthy or atleast not as good like that 😅😅

I will definitely remember the bread trick !!!

The recipe i shared from Laura Todd seems not to need this trick but it’s good for other type of biscuit i think 🙂 and also the recipe from Laura Todd, cookies remains quite light otherwise they are overcooked…

For traffic i am putting music and i am singing lol i never listened to audio book. I have the feeling i wouldn’t be focus enough else on the road else on the story 🙈🙈

On another subject mister fireman needs to work for his exam but he says that he will find time for me this weekend 🤗 and he even said he will come to my place lol so apparently he isn’t frightened with the traffic 😁 Don’t know what we are going to do though let see !

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hi Heidi,

Yes it’s damn stressful…I now see what I am looking like while upset by the traffic jam loool
In fact it’s been part of the work I did with my coach to let things go and even when blocked in traffic jam I try to think about something positive coming out from it (not always easy lol but it helps me to avoid feeling too grumpy).
Thanks for your support on my reaction 😀 I just hope now he won’t be grumpy just to get massage all the time loool

And yes it’s because I’m invested and also I would have find it stupid to leave this “just because” of the distance…Even if I know for now he is the one who is driving the most in between the 2 of us…until he got his house finished…But I’m trying to drive to his place when we can to avoid him feeling frustrating all the time…

For the cookies I am using the recipe of “Laura Todd” https://www.lauratodd.fr/recette-cookies it’s in French but you might be able to find the English version…What is important is to use brown sugar not white one AND to use salted butter…It makes a lot of differences in the baking process and vanilla essence 🙂

I didn’t knew the poem or maybe small part of it but I never read the entire one it’s really nice.

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hi Heidi,

No he didn’t share any idea yet as we don’t exactly know what’s wrong … I guess while I’ll have the result from the muscle ultrasound it would help to let me know what I can do except than massaging, stretching and resting…It’s so boring lol
Also, I guess that if the ultrasound show something, I’ll have a prescription from the doctor to see a sport therapist for re-education.

I don’t know if it’s really a specialty, in fact I’m good with everything related to baking lol but my friends love my cookies. I shared with them the recipe but it seems it doesn’t taste the same lool
I’m doing them with dark chocolate, milk one, white one, m&ms, kinder…whatever I can lol I guess it’s just because it’s a slow cooking recipe so it remains pretty “melted”. In the end I was so busy all Saturday that I didn’t get time to do cookies but I’ll do it for another time it’s ok, no need for Valentine’s Day to do it 🙂

Haha good to know love is in the air 😉 Let see the future !!! lol

For the budget and all for now, as I said I am gonna remain on listening what he is saying more that giving him money for our entertainment, not sure it would pleased him for now. Saturday I paid for the cinema (in fact I have an unlimited cinema card) and due to traffic jam he was late so we didn’t get time to go for a real dinner we just had “Burger King” and we order separately because it took me ages to choose lool so like this no fight…and also because of the traffic jam he reach the place a bit upset, and he was a bit grouchy…So even when we were eating “fast” he was grumpy lol after the movie he was feeling a bit better. And when we reached my place I proposed him to do a massage like this he could relax. He never did much massage so at first he was SO stressed and tense…Every time I was touching him he was “jumping” lool So I proposed multiple time to stop if he wasn’t feeling comfortable but he always said no lol and in the end he was more relax and he thanked me. He just said something about my “little fingers” making him tickles. And even while I was massaging him he wanted to cuddle me lol. He almost felt asleep directly after the massage while we were speaking about his bad mood of the day lol (while of course he was cuddling me). I wanted to tease him about it, because I felt “afraid” that at one point he would tell me “ok we are leaving too far from each other I’m tired of this traffic jam all the time let’s stop here”. But no, he just said, I’ll avoid this time slot to come and meet. Lol
He had to woke up pretty early to go to work at his house, so I woke up with him, I bought orange juice for him so he was happy (I don’t drink orange juice so he knows I bought it only for him) and then I walked with him to his car and let him go. Same he thanked me again lol.

Emilie

[Emilie S]

One thing I forgot to mention about the dinner yesterday is that while we were supposed to pay he said we do 50/50 and while he wasn’t watching I paid for everything. He wasn’t happy about that and I told him but I owe you money for the plaids and he was like it was only 10€ common…And then he gave me 10€ because he didn’t wanted me to pay for all lol
I think I’m gonna stop to do that because he will definitely be upset after…

[Emilie S]

These are the last 2 tests he will have. In fact it’s both the same subject but one is writing and other is oral one. These 2 should be “easier” than the ones he had by the end of last year. More related to his day to day job. But still he needs to study a little lol
I got to know the recruiting process, training he had at first, and also his 2 first week he spent after the training were pretty hard. You know they were really trying to break them, telling them they were shit all the time, lots of sports not much sleep and all. So it seems pretty hard to join the “Paris Fireman”. He even thought about quitting during these 2 weeks, but he stays. I asked him about the spirit there, if it was like competitive in between the fireman but in a bad sense of competitiveness or if they were more like friendly one. He said except these 2 had weeks, it was more friendly one. And the reason why he didn’t remain a “real fireman” (don’t know how to say it) was also because of his training. But he said that since he joined it seems to him that they became “nicer” because they have hard time to recruit people.

For my leg in fact I went to the osteopath last Saturday because I thought I had some blocked point (pelvis) that were causing the pain, but the osteopath said he wasn’t too sure it was “only” this. Because it wasn’t really blocked. But I think it might also be because I was training a bit “hard” after Christmas holidays and maybe I wasn’t totally heeled from my previous injury. Both osteopath and doctor told me to stretch but avoid “hard training”. Usually pole isn’t really hard on this part, but we did some move that put pressure on this muscle and I wasn’t feeling good about it and afraid so I wasn’t training properly and in the end I was thinking I might injured myself on other part by compensating this muscle pain. Osteopath also told me to do massage on this specific zone but not easy alone lol he told me to take a tennis ball and roll the muscle on it…which is paining loool So I am mainly doing yoga to stretch my leg more right now and I avoid fitness training.

“the way to a man’s heart is through his belly.” << for him it’s definitely working lol while we start to talk he said that he loved woman who can cook for him. Not in a sense that he doesn’t like to cook himself or he is a macho man but really linked to the “the way to a man’s heart is through his belly.” statement lol
He isn’t that much into sweat stuff but I know he liked the biscuit I gave him for Christmas because there were vanilla/chocolate ones and lemon ones and he told me he preferred first one and eat all them in front of me lool
So yes I was just thinking if I have time I could do some for him. I used to be called by my friend “cookies master” it’s been a while I didn’t bake cookies, I could do that aswell…Let see 🙂
But I totally get what you mean with your shared story I had the same with an ex-boss which was really not a good one and always trying to break me and all. But when I was baking he was the nicest guy in the world. But in the end I don’t like to bake for people I don’t like lol

And yes hopefully he is into me lol as much as I’m starting to be about him 😉

Emilie

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