[Emilie S]

Hi Heidi,

That’s so cool that you are doing dog sitting and are able to benefit from this crisis 🙂
My dog is a nightmare for that, she doesn’t like much other dogs, just some of them. When she was still a puppy I was leaving in India, and I couldn’t let her socialise with other dogs (mainly street dogs full of disease and pretty agressive). So as I came back in France while she was more than 2, she hasn’t really be able to learn this part…She seems to have a dominant behaviour aswell even if she is small lol so she is always making trouble …
What you are describing around closing hiking and all happened for us 2 weeks ago I would say. And since yesterday running isn’t allowed between 10 am to 7pm because too many people were going for run …But I can tell you that where I am leaving people don’t seem to know how to read a clock as I am still seing some outside “running” during this slot…
I don’t think we will be allowed to go out of this lockdown before end of may on our side but we are still waiting for our government to postpone this end of the lockdown for now it’s still for April 15th even if no one believes it anymore.

For the confronting part yes I don’t really know lol but I’ll see if they change their behaviour in coming days 🙂
I do like to remain connected with my family and friends but at some point I feel over connected and I don’t like it that much lol
Some of my friends I wasn’t seeing them much lately because we had different path with life, when the lockdown started I talked to them and join some Zoom Apero but now they are doing it every Friday, and to be honest I am not feeling like joining. It’s not like if we had that much news to share and I just feel it’s a lack of time I can’t spend on reading my book, free my minds or just rest after a long week of work. I might sound weird on this, but i feel a bit pressured because it’s not really like you can say you have other plan lol
I am saying a bit pressured but in the end if I don’t want to join I am not joining and not giving any excuse. But it’s more the global feeling.

So I guess that’s also why I like to have some space with my guy, because if I feel like that with my friends or family it can be the same for him. And whenever we talk I am just happy to have some news 🙂 And yes making fun and joke are his communication instinct I guess lol. And he knows I am ok without contacting him all the time but I still let him know I was missing him lol.
He is working slowly in his house but it’s going on. This week he is working, in fact they are not off, just they are doing “Part time”. Next week he will be home and just need to be ready in case of emergency. His parents are ok so far (or at least last time we spoke so 2 or 3 days ago). My aunt is doing ok yes she seems to be over it now, and everyone in my family is ok aswell. What a relief 🙂
I got to know yesterday that one of my Dad’s childhood friend is currently in the hospital in a critical stage. Which is a bit sad, I know him since I was born..But I hope it will be ok, I’ll ask for some news.

Hope everything is ok for your family and friends

Stay Safe,

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hi Kanya,

Thanks for your message!

In fact I wasn’t totally out of internet I could still reach it over the phone but not over my laptop so I wasn’t really able to work which was a bit of a pain…I am feeling more connected to this part, the family and friends part were still there via the phone 🙂
So I wouldn’t say I am far more connected, just back on track for work which is great because I have lots of things going on and lots around raising help through this crisis, so it feels good to act and not just watch and wait until the end.

What you are describing for the lockdown is same as in France (or at least what my colleague are describing lol as I am isolated it’s a bit more complex to experience exactly the same). But we are playing game over WhatsApp with my family and friends, trying to solve some emoji quizz around books or movies titles lol

For dogs, I think people took some here just to be officially allowed to go out, I am a bit worried of what will happen after the lockdown, because in France lots of people are taking animals at home and when holidays are there, they just abandon them because they don’t have anyone to take care of them, or they can’t bring them with them…It’s a serious issue here 🙁 Don’t know if it’s the same in US.

In 9 months else it will be world wide baby boom else divorced boom lol not that positive though but I think some people are getting pretty frustrated being lockdown together, especially people in Paris, because their apartment are so small that there is no way for them to find their own space. I guess at one point it might be pretty annoying even if you love the person not to have your special place.

And yes I told myself to feel comfortable with this situation and not put too much thought about how we act / react as we are experiencing something pretty new and we all need to adjust and live with our own thoughts and feelings. So I’ll just let it go and talk to him when I feel to. We still have fun while we talk, he is still making fun of me of course, I guess that’s what he prefers lol and that still makes me laugh so it’s ok 🙂
I guess until everyone is healthy and safe I’m happy with the situation. That’s all I ask for right now.

I didn’t knew I was calm and centered lol. Are speaking about the covid-19 situation or in general ? I guess just taking time to focus on myself, my wellbeing, my sports, my sleep, my food is helping a bit…But no idea exactly of what might contribute to it. I am just letting things go, trying not to have bad feelings and thought, and once again not thinking much on everyone’s behaviour but only on what I feel myself. I am discussing with some friends or even family, I’m under the impression they are always trying to find something to feel bad lol
I pointed this out to them, not meanly but just saying like “do you really think it worse loosing your energy on such type of things, it won’t help you make this situation better and you are not gonna help your body to feel strong enough to fight this situation so keep yourself low on this type of thought and just visualise better things”. They are happy with what I am telling them, but I guess every few days they are coming back with another subject lol
Maybe it’s because I am a “lonely” person, so I am not feeling that bad being on my own…Of course sometime it feels frustrating but I always find something to do if I want to so …That might help lol
Just a lot of thoughts on this writing down here, but I didn’t really think about it before.

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hi Heidi,

Thanks for your message 🙂

I’m doing good, better than last week, first I got back my internet and also I have less headaches…Don’t know if I was infected (I also had throat pain but don’t know if I had fever or not but felt a bit like it) but I was pretty tired.

I am still having healthy food lol even if I am still eating a bit of my “far breton” (still have 2 portions lol). And I am thinking I shouldn’t bake again but let see…lol it still feel a bit good to have a bit of sweetness…Otherwise no junk food, still cooking healthy lol
I am also keeping on my sport training so I can say that I found my rhythm lol

Puppy is doing great, I am going a bit less often outside (3 times a day instead of 4 at the beginning of the lockdown), because I want to avoid putting myself at risk too much, but I am doing longer walk twice a day, the last one is just going out before sleeping to ensure she will be ok until morning lol

Communication with my guy is…I don’t know, I let him alone so after 3 days he came back again, then I sent message and so we discuss a bit every day. I’m not thinking too much about it, when I feel I really need to talk with him I am sending him messages, otherwise I leave him with some space, and taking my own aswell 🙂
During the weekend I sent him a pics of me kissing him to encourage him with his painting work while I was taking sunbathe on my balcony lol. Told him I was missing kisses so he sent me out dozen of kissing emoji lool And I then told him I was missing him and he answered with a crying emoji and 2 kissing one…So not putting any word but he still has a reaction lol

Nothing much new for now, it seems they will postponed the end of our lockdown again but we didn’t get official info on this yet.

How is it on your side ?

Take care

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hi Kanya

Thanks for your message. You are right and after posting my message about feeling him a bit selfish on this i was thinking i shouldn’t judge as i don’t know really what he is going through right now. I did wait for him to come back and he did on monday morning asking how i was and all so we spoke during the day and evening and a bit today aswell. He is feeling better no more breathing pain just coughing a little but no fever. His parents are still ok for now so it seems they are not infected.
This week he is at home so he is using this time to work on his house (instead of staying home and risk to infect his parents). He just need to be available in case of emergency. He still doesn’t have visibility on the fact his boss could retain part of his salary on this period but finger crossed they won’t…

I am talking with friends and family on daily bases yes 🙂 and coworker as well. But since yesterday my wifi is dead, my box doesn’t work anymore so i called technical support they are sending me a new one in emergency but communication is a bit more complicated as my phone network is pretty bad at home…But i will have a fun fact to share at the end of this crisis « how i survived the quarantine without internet » lool
I am still trying to work from my phone (can’t share with my laptop as it’s really too bad) so not really easy…

And for the negative experience i don’t really care karma will come back to them one day lol i won’t loose my time paying too much attention to her 🙂

For the « pain au chocolat » in theory we are lockdown so not really supposed to go out to the bakery lol but i know some people are still getting some of them 😉 I am not really eating that…not really going well with my « diet » (but i baked a « far breton » after finishing my cookies lol)

And for the dog i am definitely thinking they launched the virus to keep us home loool

Take care !

[Emilie S]

Thanks for this video. It’s definitely true and the world is changing, i just hope that when it fill finally be over peiple will remember what they learn during this period and will start to act differently and not going back to bad habits…
But i guess it will be true for most of the people 🙂

Today i was walking my dog and enjoying the time outside while liste ing to music so i was kind of « in my bubble » and i saw a woman walking with an old lady few meters before me. So i started to walk a bit slower to keep the security distance and my dog was smelling stuff so no big deal. The woman verbally attacked me telling me to keep my distance (which I was already doing) and then ordered me to go my way. I replied that she did not need to be aggressive that I respected the distances and that I walked at the speed of my dog ​​then I walked along. But I refrained from being Mean to her … The elderly have no right to go out in France so she made her take a risk and in addition she yelled at me … This type of person will not change Sadly…Nevermind stupid woman…That’s typicall exemple of french people not respecting the rule and being agressive while they are not doing it…

On the other topic, no news from mu guy yesterday neither than today (as i didn’t send the message…will wait for him to come this time) i know he might be busy with his house today but still feeling that’s a bit selfish from him not to take any news knowing i am alone…

Stay safe and healthy

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hi Kanya,

Thanks for the article sharing it was nice to read I smiled and laugh a lot while reading it 🙂

Yes it’s really and definitely strange time and everyone need to adjust his own way and path. For my guy it seems yesterday he went again for a run, his breath was ok so he might be over it. So hopefully nothing has been spread to his parents but need to wait the 14 days to see if no symptoms show up.

For me at work it’s pretty busy time, but it’s ok I like it. Prefer this than being lockdown without anything to work on and feel useless lol
At least I’m supporting my great company to keep up and that’s good.

Hope you’re all safe on your side as well.

Emilie

[Emilie S]

hahaha that’s a good one ! I’ll try to remember it 😉 and yes it makes sense lol

For now she is ok so she isn’t going to be test. And she is lockdown so she should be ok.

Yes I am trying to support him and same time I am leaving some space to deal with the situation the way he wants. Today we didn’t spoke yet (quite busy at work for me). But it’s ok for me now that I know what he is going through right now I’m not in the same state of mind. Just hope things will be better for him with his work and boss…But I guess if they already show so much stupidity they won’t change now 🙁 it’s pretty sad !

My hip seems to be ok even if I am training hard these days to keep myself busy and “on shape” even if I am not really eating bad considering the situation I could have let myself go for junk food but no lol
Trying to remain healthy ! I am doing lot of stretching though so it is helping to compensate the cardio training lol

We are in lockdown since March 16th officially and just allowed to go out for grocery or medical reason (and chemist). I am lucky enough to have a dog so I am also allowed to go out but to be honest I am avoiding to go out as much as I can except for my dog of course. I didn’t went to supermarket until today since the lockdown started as I had some supplies but I was missing fruits and yogurt today so had to go 🙁 lol.
We still have food delivery on (but I am not ordering) so restaurant are just open for this but not possible to take away.
And for us jogging is allowed but only 1km away from your living place so not possible to hike and trail at all. French are not conscious enough they wouldn’t respect the safety distance and all…At first during the first week we had more liberty but as it wasn’t respected they change the rules…

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hey Heidi,

Yes his work and hierarchy sucks a lot…I was feeling pretty mad for him too while he was sharing all this but can’t do much that’s how army works here…Next week he is “working from home” but he is afraid that they will force him to take holidays or remove part of his salary because of that. He just need to be available in case of emergency but they might assume he isn’t working…I think he will take this time to work on his house but we didn’t really spoke about that subject yesterday. And no even with his symptoms he is still going to work, I told him he should be on the 14 days sick leave especially to block his boss to remove his salary and holidays but I guess he doesn’t want to put his colleague into trouble. His symptoms as of now are not too serious and once again he is in good shape so he should be ok but we never know…
He was more worried for his parents and maybe he thinks that going to work would avoid him to contaminate them.

For my aunt and dad yes so far so good, my aunt hasn’t been tested because it seems her fever got down but she is a risky type of person as she went through cancer last year. I told her if anything was coming back she should definitely think to be tested. My dad doesn’t have any symptoms so far so it’s ok on his side. But yes for now we are just waiting.
One of my friend has a close colleague who got sick, he had 4 days of fever and then it was getting better but in the end he had pretty bad breath situation and was driven to the hospital where he spent 3 days in intensive care. That’s why I was a bit worried for my aunt because it was quite similar scheme. But for now she seems to be ok and it might have be something totally different.

The fact we spoke put my heart and mind at ease but at the same time can’t avoid to be a bit worried about his health lol and I am also really sad about his work condition and his boss stupidity 🙁 Really hard not to “be there” for him on this specific time and being able to support him more on this. On my side I am really glad that my company is really supportive and they really care about our health and safety.

I didn’t knew about the “rooting for you” expression lol

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hi Both,

Quick update, I answered him yesterday evening after my working day and also my online stretching class (my pole teacher adapted her work for us to do it through zoom).

I just answered nicely in the end I felt like I was just overreacting this all situation because I was mainly worried something happened to him or so… In the end we discussed for 1hour or so. Things are not going well at his job right now, his hierarchy upset him a lot for different reason and especially because they put him at risk by not letting him and his colleague work remotely even if it’s what is done everywhere else (for his type of job). Also they are not nice with their suppliers by not letting them know if they allow them to work or not so they can’t benefit from the “partial unemployment” proposal from our government…So lots of things going on there and he isn’t happy about that. Also he is telling me that they might force him to take holidays or they might remove a part of his salary and he was upset about that. (I was for him as well I don’t understand why they are so stupid)

After we discussed a bit about how his family and friends are right now, it seems they are safe…But while he asked me I shared that my aunt faced some symptoms so I was a bit worried for her and waiting to see how things will go. Also my dad’s boss has been infected and my dad met him before the lockdown so same a bit worried on this. But seems so far so good on his side so fingers crossed it’s not gonna change. They both (my aunt and dad) have some health issue so it could be a bit stressful to know they have been infected. And while I was sharing that he finally told me that he might has been infected himself. In fact 2 of his wife’s colleague had some symptoms but they have not been tested as in France the rule is that if it’s not critic you are not tested, also one of his direct colleague has been apparently really infected as he spent 5 days in his bed with fever cough and breathing pain. My guy told me he was also having some cough, no fever but he went for a run with one of his colleague during lunch time yesterday and his breath was really weird, not as usual and he had some pain…So…of course he is healthy so it shouldn’t be a big deal for him even if he is really infected, but as he is leaving with his parents that’s a higher risk for them in fact…

So I guess all of this lead to the silence a bit. Didn’t wanted to mention that or adding more pain or stupid thoughts around it. This morning I sent him a message telling him that I hoped his day would be better than the previous ones…

Have a good day and stay safe,

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hi Heidi,

Thanks for your message.

In fact he sent me a message 20 minutes back (I didn’t answer yet I was in a meeting and not feeling like answering for now…).
He didn’t shared anything just asked “how I am and how my dog walk are going with this sun”.

I’ll see what I want to answer. Don’t know for now.

I know communication is important right now, but I think I need to take my own step back on this and also on my reaction and feelings right now. As you said this situation is stressful and I might not be in the right mood for now to talk at all.
I’ll just focus on my work for now and I’ll see later on.

But I liked your message, of course I wouldn’t have kept the space for too long I was just thinking 3/4 days maximum. And I think I would have use your type of message if it would have been the case. Right now, I don’t really know what to answer.

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hi Kanya,

No he is not gonna upgrade it now for sure…lol
And yes it’s weird but it seems than since I wrote the word “boyfriend” here, he is being a little distant lol don’t know if it’s link or not but I guess it’s more because of the current situation and the fact that everyone is adjusting on his own way….
I have no clue about how he feels regarding his parent or going to work. I know that next week he isn’t supposed to go to work but he needs to be available in case of emergency. This week he is alone at work and his colleague are supposed to be available so maybe it’s a bit of stressful for him there. I have no clue.
I wish I could know but if he doesn’t want to share I can’t force him. But so far still no news from him. And yes I’m letting the space and not contacting him at all. Let see but I guess it was the worst period in our relationship to face this type of situation as it is still new and we were working on building it step by step…
Even if I want to stay positive I’m not sure we will make it if he is not working on it as well…

On my side to be honest I am lucky enough to still have work to do to keep myself busy, I am practicing home workout and yoga I’m reading and spending time over the phone with friends and family. For now everyone is safe and ok and I hope it will remain like this 🙂

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hey Heidi,

Thanks.
Yes it might be the good period but he still didn’t change his phone…So not able to install anything on it…

I am also a bit confused to be honest but I guess this situation is complicated and we need to accommodate, but I am under the impression that he is less sending message first (he used to be the one sending the message at first in the morning or evening). Now I am the one doing it and of course he always answered but it’s not the same. Yesterday I sent him out a message around lunch time as I didn’t had news from him in the morning and we spoke a bit but nothing in the evening and nothing since then…I know he was working at his house yesterday all day…And
I know he might be pretty busy at work due to this crisis so I’m not too worried but as I am by my own it’s true that I would like him to take news and show me he is thinking of me and maybe that he is even missing me. I don’t want to dramatise all this situation as once again if I send him a message he answered but I would have expect that knowing I am alone he could be more attentive about my well being.
Nevermind, I’m not going to send him message anymore until he does…

I have no clue why people are not respecting guidelines, but I think it’s just cultural…French are known for not being good at respecting rules, always bypassing so I guess it’s just this…But I would have expect that considering the gravity of this situation they would have been more smart on this. Also I am thinking that our government isn’t transparent enough which lead to this type of behaviour from the French people…But it’s just a guess.

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hi Kanya

Thanks for your message. France is indeed ahead and same time French people are so not respecting the lockdown that we are maybe equal in the end…

I had my first “Zoom Party” yesterday evening, it’s nice but I was thinking ok it’s too long now loool we were 14 I think online on Zoom at the same time with my friends, drinking alcool and chilling. So yes we consider it with my guy but didn’t do it yet. We are more like sending pics and texting for now but we will see to give it a try. It’s always a bit complicated because he is at his parent’s place so…
But he agreed to go for a weekend once the lockdown will be over 😀 we didn’t discuss the where yet so we have subject to discuss lol

Take care !

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hi Heidi

In fact since the lockdown they put a fine in place at first it was only 38€ so not really dissuasive, it came up to 135€ but it seems it’s not dissuasive…we are waiting for new uptakes from our president but it seems they will increase the lockdown and it will be renew for more time…As people are not respecting it, the spread here is going crazy and we don’t have enough medical infrastructure to support it.
So yes it’s really getting bad…Some specialist announced that there is a lot of people contaminated which are not showing any symptoms and that are spreading the virus more and more by not respecting the lockdown…

I am working in fact, so I can’t spend much time in front of my tv or so lol but it’s just that I am under the impression it’s going too slow lol and focusing is hard.

And for your suggestion yes I sent him a message saying that we should plan another weekend after the crisis just to spend some time together lol let see what he answered. But we spoke this morning and even on his side, they are starting to work 50% to avoid the spread between them in his office. He told me it’s gonna be for a long period. He might have more info than I do yet but he told me it’s gonna be hard time not to see each other.

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hi Heidi,

Yes it’s definitely a good thing but I was more thinking about his parents as he is living with them. They are quite old…So if he was getting infected it would be bad for them more than for him. But it’s not a subject for now. In then end I would be really proud of him if he was part of the people involved in this crises and providing help but yes the fear is it’s still. Same as for my family members in fact. My grandma is all by herself and she is getting old, my other grandma is in a medical institution with Alzheimer but I am really afraid for her as she had a pneumonia earlier this year. Same for my grandpa, he is not alone but he had some health issue early this year aswell so the fear is really there.

Lol no nothing official, I wrote boyfriend because it came to me like that, that’s just what I feel since we went to the ski weekend but never wrote it before. Don’t know why “my guy” wasn’t sounding good yesterday when I wrote lol we didn’t spoke about it and he never asked me anything about this. Don’t even know if he will put in on the table or not. I didn’t really asked myself about his. It’s more my own feeling.

And yes I learnt but I’m not totally paranoid just sometime I feel like I will be paranoid and crazy at the end of this lockdown lol
I learn one thing for sure, not being able to go out is making me less focus. I mean I have more difficulty to stay focus on tasks.

Yes it seems people are still going out, maybe a bit less as the fine is now 135€ if you are going out without an authorisation but…still where I am leaving we have a Facebook group (it’s quite big big residence) and they said that a lot of kids are still playing together in the afternoon outside, they saw parents with their kids (it should be only one parent one kid maximum) group of people are not allowed. Even people walking their dogs are going as a couple and it’s not allowed…So yes I guess French are still stupid French people not seeing the consequences of their action and I am really sad about it.
Apparently even if I am living in a private area, police came in and control people this afternoon, I guess people were thinking they would be “safe” to do whatever they wanted …I am happy to know it’s not the case. It seems that one person at least here has been infected. We saw fireman this afternoon coming to rescue her and driving her to the emergency.
Pretty sad and struggling period.

Emilie

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