[Emilie S]

Hi Heidi,

I don’t really have an answer of what would have happen if I did what I wanted by that time. I think I still did with them not knowing it or discovering it after a while, they were “hurt” a little because I was not respecting their boundaries or choice so it led to some “not talking” period. I guess in my mind they seem to already have “suffer” enough both from their own parents, their divorce so I didn’t wanted to add a burden on this. I don’t really know. It’s also because at that time I was thinking I was responsible of the divorce in a sense that they got married because they got pregnant with me. I feel ok about all of this now and we discussed it has nothing to do with me. And yes I am an adult now, and I can do what I want, and I do what I want in fact, except if I give you a small exemple I can’t show my tattoos in front of my grandma, that’s a request from my mom because she is afraid of what she could say or that it would heart her or whatever, so I “respect” that. I mean I am not purposely showing my tattoo but if she sees them…I don’t care. So I’d say for both my parents it’s a question of what their parents would feel about what I do more than themselves. My parents are more or less both ok with my tattoo they know they don’t really have a word to say as it’s my body but…It’s just the bias associated with people with tattoo even if it’s less and less a “problem”.
For my mom my work isn’t a problem she is happy with what I’m doing. For my dad it’s a bit more complicated because what he does (working for flight industry) is a bit contradictory with my work to reduce environmental impact and same his vision sometime on DEI is complicated…But all of that doesn’t change the fact that in the end they love me and are proud of me. We agree to disagree lol

Yeah he does, it feels good, real good. But sometime weird because of my past relationship I’m like “is this supposed to be like this” and the voice in my head is like “yeah that’s what you want and deserve so it is” lol. I said it’s mixed signal because at the same time he is doing all this super nice things, treating me like a princess, making the move when we are together, but if I’m not the one initiating a meeting or a date he is not. So I don’t really understand how he feel himself about all this. But at the same time, as I am still really not in an official dating state of mind that’s ok for me. So I can’t answer if he wants a relationship or not because I didn’t asked this. I guess in the end we are both ok like that, seeing each other and spend some fun time.

Dogs are definitely funny, and yes I know it’s more about energy or smell for them. But if I’m honest, it’s the same for us, sometime you don’t “feel” a person and you don’t have any explanation lol. At least I do 🙂

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Yes, you were like this as a kid, but I’m wondering if you know why. What created this belief? << Because both my parents are like that, and they raised me to be like that…I guess I’ve always felt this conflict about being what they wanted and what I wanted to I am usually borderline lol doing what I want without hurting them or their beliefs…

As for the guy he did showed up yesterday evening, he “picked me up” on the metro and we went to the event together, I introduced him to my friends / colleagues and people I’m working with and he was a bit shy but still discussing and it seems he enjoyed the evening. He was as usual super nice to me, ensuring I was not having an empty drinks or not missing the food. During the event he was taking my hand, or always having physical contact with me. He was also supportive and a good listener. He also asked me to take pictures at the Photo Booth there but he kept all of them lol. At the end he walked me back home and he slept at my place. We kissed and felt asleep in each other arms. But no sex, we discussed it a little as I was a bit surprised but didn’t really get any answer out of him lol. This morning he slept pretty late so I had to tell him to leave at some point because I needed to go into a meeting with my boss lol
So we had goodbye kissed and hug…And he sent me out a message during the day to ask how my meeting went with my boss.
Long story short he is still treating me as a princess which feels good and at the same time he is sending mixed signal lol
But I really enjoyed the evening, we had fun.
Hopefully he will remain responsive…I think we spoke about going to a weekend somewhere lol but I’m going to wait a little to bring this back. Not good to speak when you are tired, your memory is a fish one at that time lol

My pup loves to explore and go for walks for sure. As for the dog friendly part, it really depends, and it seems there is no real rules on dog she likes or doesn’t…I mean usually when it’s a female dog she won’t like but for the other…no real rule lol
And she definitely loves to be with me and she is asking a lot for attention, but it feels good 🙂

Emilie

[Emilie S]

I think that what you say and what I say are more or less the same. You think my grandma’s soul still has something to do with my father…I think it’s link to the fact that he doesn’t accept yet she has to go…So yes…she might know exactly when she has to go…when he will accept it…For me it’s not contradictory lol

I think I do have blind spot sometime yes, I mean I used to. You know when someone was just showing me a little respect, a little attachement a little whatever I am looking for in a relationship but not the full picture, I was falling for it. I did wrote a list now of everything I am expecting from a relationship, and I am kind of “ticking” lol not a real test but kind of accountability. But yeah I’m not in the right mindset, but keep it somewhere in the back of my mind.
And for a new fun fact, today I was at an event “Made in France event”, with a friend of mine, and I walked by a stand of a creator I knew thanks to the guy, because he is selling this brand in the shop so I sent him out a message telling him I met the creator and he was like no way, you know I’m there, where are you I’ll meet you. So he met me and my friend, he offered us champagne and we discussed a little lol. It was so fun, he was not behaving the same as when we met in his shop you know, he was like more shy. And he confirmed he would be there tomorrow lol. My friend said he was nice and fun and generous lol

Yeah it’s a big big deal with all layoffs these days…Thousands of employees all over the world in the tech industry have faced it…It’s because of market recession, war have put the energy cost higher, and so on…Capitalism system needs profits so…they need to cut costs…it’s not only covid …It’s full market, also it’s more and more complicated to get electronic chips, so less computer and electronic devices, less budget…But the war is part of the issue right now.

For the imposter syndrome, I told you I think it’s because I’ve always done what was expected more than who I was when I was a kid and even after. I am less feeling an imposter now that I found my place in this work, where I’m inspiring people to change for good. But at the same time, I don’t have any real background in this except my passion, so yeah sometime I feel like an imposter. I trust my guts on this only.
But I’m working on it, working on acknowledging my accomplishment and all.

I love holiday decorations, but I don’t like to have it too early (I can keep them for long though) it’s just that I link this to cold season lol and cold season in Paris isn’t the best one lol

My pup is doing great, she had a week of adjustment to the new flat, but now all good. She like the neighbourhood, we met some other people with dogs, of course she doesn’t like all of them lol but it’s ok. She likes to walk around.
I love my place, really calm, and really easy to move around and meet my friends or even my family from there. I got back more social life, and I’m trying new restaurant around lol. It’s also easier for me to go to the office from there.

Emilie

[Emilie S]

I don’t really know…I’m not into religion so heaven / hell… That’s not really something I believe in lol
I’m scientific, so if I had to give it a thought I’d say it would bring balance in energy…Nothing is fully created, it’s a transformation from one state to another. Maybe her energy will transform to a new type of “life”…I just think it’s for good and better for her.
I think she is still there because my dad doesn’t allow her to go…but the fact that all other member of the family accepted it already, and we “told her” that she could go can definitely help yes. She is just missing my Dad “approval”, and their attachement is I would say the strongest so until he let her go, she might stay for him…Which is for me wrong, because he is suffering a lot to see her like that…Denial period…

For the guy, I’d say I do like him but at the same time right now if I am fully honest I am not in a space where I am really ready to let someone in…The issue with my grandma, some issue at work, not with my boss but much more bigger…I guess you read it over the news but a lot of company had some layoffs campaign during the past 2 weeks, mine included, not a big one but still, it’s a real change in our company culture, and the way they handled it really brought anxiety to everyone. (And to be honest we are more align since then with my boss than we used to be).
Long story short, my brain is somewhere else than into “dating” officially. So I would say that yes as of now, he is someone I like to connect with to free my mind occasionally. I also think it’s better to get to know each other in another “framework” than the dating space. Would avoid my blind spot lol.

For imposter syndrome, I guess I felt it my entire life, you know I shared it with you but always doing what was expected from me instead of being me brought me there. Of course I know that what I’m doing is much more bigger than me, than I can’t change everything, but just inspiring or influencing people to open their minds is important and “enough” at some point. I don’t have all the answer, I can just speak with passion about my beliefs…

We were discussing holidays yesterday evening, it feels that every year it’s coming more and more earlier. Like in our decoration shop, you can find holidays stuff since early October which seems totally crazy…In my city they have installed lights but it’s not on yet, I guess it’s because they are rebuilding streets so they needed to put this before the streets were not accessible anymore. In my family and friends we are not doing it before early December, it feels to weird to do it now lol.

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Yeah I wouldn’t call this my “gala date” as he is joining along 4 of my colleagues as I had 5 invites. But he indeed didn’t hesitate. Now let see if he shows up and doesn’t forget as he is bad with date…

Yeah I get what you mean for my grandma, but I have the feeling she stays only because my father won’t let her go…He is in total denial that it would be best for everyone and especially for her to go…Of course I can’t have this type of conversation with him, he would be even more devastated but clearly it doesn’t make any good for anyone in the family.
Of course I am sad about this situation, but we all know that it’s life cycle, you have to reach the end at some point. For my grandma I think I was prepared since we got to know she was having Alzheimer, and I know from another grandma that at the end they are not there anymore, so I just feel she should go. Doesn’t make me less sad, but it’s for the best. I don’t like to “keep people alive” to make me feel better (it’s not the case when you see them so diminish) so I made up my mind, everyone did in the family except my father I guess…He knows it deep inside but doesn’t accept.

And yes imposter syndrome I know it too well lol. Thanks for the video !

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Haha yes it was a crazy fun story. I invited him to a caritative gala event I’m sponsoring through my work. Told him that for once he would be the one evolving in my professional life. He said yes directly and was supportive also…I Told him my grandma wasn’t doing well, she was in a coma, she is now awake but not really there anymore. I’m feeling like it would be so much better for her if she goes. I know it will be hard for my dad but not sure it would be worst than the actual situation. I mean she has Alzheimer, she is clearly not there anymore, she doesn’t seem to suffer when you see her face…But can you really consider that living…I don’t think so.

I spoke “only” in front of 1200 people not 2500 lool but yes thanks. I guess I do have self esteem, but as everyone it depends on the topic, it depends on many things. Sometime it just feels I’m playing the role of someone with a lot of confidence while deep inside I’m feeling like an imposter. It’s “easy” to play this role instead of showing vulnerability to others.
I am highly sensitive and empathic that’s for sure…

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hi Heidi

I don’t really have a clear plan lol
But I guess it’s more focusing on my strength and continue to do meditation, sports, things I like and do all the things for me and not other 🙂 Keep working on my mindset mainly 🙂

What make you think I have a lot of high self-esteem ?

Of course I am human and the low self-esteem will always be there, I guess I have this a lot when it comes to relationship apart from that I don’t have “that much” I’d say…And yes I need to work on the transition on this…that’s what I’m trying to do since I joined this forum haha

And thanks, that means a lot, I want to inspire people to change it…

You want a “fun story”. You remember the guy from this summer who treated me as a princess? I went to his shop yesterday evening because I saw there a bracelet I wanted to buy for one of my friends birthday. He was there (he isn’t that often apparently), he offered me drinks…we ended up spending the evening speaking and joking with one of his customer. We obviously had too much drink and not enough food…This ended around 1.45am…So I called a cab and while waiting we discussed a bit, because he was definitely in seduction mode…I asked a bit about what happened during summer but the discussion itself is a bit blurry today…In the end he came with me in the cab because apparently I told him something like we would never see each other again…(I don’t remember using these words lol but that’s what he told me this morning). He slept at my place, no sex…but he cuddled me when we felt asleep and this morning when he woke up as well…He was kissing my forehead…Kept on giving me compliment about my body and my soft hair lol
I asked him what his game was..and he said he wasn’t able to have this conversation in the morning with our kind of hangover…
I don’t really know if I’ll hear from him…But it was fun to see him again. Just like if the silence moment never happened…

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hi Heidi,

Focusing on the wrong things, being afraid of not being good enough, lack of self esteem, self confidence that usually lead to me doing what people are expecting from me instead of doing and having what I want.

Haha yes it was impressive to be in front of such a large audience. It’s a bit stressful lots of adrenaline when you come on stage but it feels good in the end lol
I didn’t really like to perform at all before, I remember 4 years ago when we launched the program I am leading in my company, my boss asked me if I wanted to present it in front of 250+ people and I was saying no, no way lol and this year I did 4 of these events, in French or English, for internal one and 3 external ones and I’m ok. Of course I’m still a bit stressed before going on stage, but I just try to focus on my message and not the audience so it’s ok 🙂
I wasn’t really happy about my own performance because of some technical issue on stage but that’s just me, people really enjoyed, a lot of colleague event bosses or customers / prospects came to talk to me after and told me it was really great and energizing and that they could feel the passion lol. That the program and projects were really great and that we needed more of this in other company. They asked to collaborate for some them, so yes I am happy of the outcome.

Emilie

[Emilie S]

I want to continue my journey and feel totally free from all my past behaviour, my fears 🙂
It’s so easy to go back in my hold habit, it’s what I know…So being outside of my “comfort zone” which in fact is having a pretty negative impact is a day to day journey. And I know it’s for the best, it’s just at some point it gets easier to re-center my thoughts.

Indeed we had a great chemistry and connection. It was really nice and natural, we really had fun and YES I laugh a lot. It just felt good to be around, we were also able to appreciate the silence sometime, not always having to speak, just enjoying the moment. Of course we are teasing each other a lot but that’s ok.
I am obviously attracted to him, I wouldn’t have take a shower otherwise lol
Not too sure about the difference between like and like like but I guess right now, I do like him and want to know him more, see where it could go.

Yesterday I gave a presentation for my work in front of 1,200+ people and I was overloaded with work all week…But I wanted to celebrate this achievement with him, so I sent him a message to see how he was doing and shared a picture of me on stage.
He answered just after, saying that he was himself also super overloaded with work (might explain why no news and might not lol but if we are both acting the same on this we are not going anywhere lol). He congratulated me, said it was super impressive and ask a bit how I was feeling after that.
So we exchange some messages, but the day was pretty packed for me so I answered finally this morning…Let see lol
We are still teasing each other and it feels good.

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hi Heidi,

Thanks for the tips. I used to do your 1. but I had to stop, my dentist told me I killed my teeth by doing so…
For 2. I’m not really eating any “fat” so kind of doing it already…but yes I might need to take 3 more. I am already but not zinc specifically.

For the guy our “date” went well. He came to my place as we discussed about my warm house party and my moving earlier, he brought rhum because we joked about it and we had a nice and fun evening and even night, we didn’t really saw the time flies and we drunk too much rhum lol. He slept at my place and we just hugged (no sex) and he gave me some head massage.
We met again on Sunday evening, I dropped by his place this time, we had dinner together, hugging again and we took a shower together but still “no sex”. Kind of playing on the sexual part but not actual sex. He gave me one of his t-shirt after the shower and told me to take it back home…lol I needed to take care of my dog. So everything was going well, we exchange few messages on Sunday night after I came back home but I don’t have any news from him since then…I didn’t contacted him either so I don’t really know what to do right now 🙂 I’m kind of waiting for him to make a move…Let see, if no news I’ll probably send him a message.

As for my age lol I don’t really care to be honest…It’s just figure, I’m feeling good and in shape for 37, I look younger haha.
And I think this past year has been great for me and my own development even if I had some hard time, I’d say it was pretty positive. I’m more focus on myself, my well being, a bit more detached to every negative things, more able to let things go so it’s a positive year overall.
I don’t know exactly what I want to accomplish next year, but I guess I just want to pursue this journey and keep focusing on myself.

Have a great day !

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hey Heidi

Hahaha thanks, I love my bakery challenge swell, I just posed this week as I was resting for Covid but will start again lol
I don’t know, I think as I was pretty tired after moving and work might be the reason why my immune system was a bit low. Also we have our 8th wave here in France and a lot of people are getting positive again or are just “usual sick” because temperature dropped pretty hardly.
I’m taking vitamins in the morning and eating lots of fruits and vegetable, keeping my pace with sports so I don’t really know what’s wrong lol

As for the guy yes he is nice, he was sick the week before, not with covid but bad cold so he knows. Also he didn’t wanted to take any risk because he is taking care of his mom or at least visiting her pretty often so better not to get covid for him lol
For the online dating, yes and no to be honest, I mean I’m speaking with guys but not pushing anything, not feeling like I need to. This guy we are speaking together since last June I think and we were just chatting, stopping chatting, restarting…And he was teasing about meeting so I agreed to it. Since then he is acting super cute, sending message every day, even more since I got sick to check on me lol
So let see 🙂
I’m also speaking with other guys, they asked to meet but wasn’t really feeling like I wanted to rush myself in this, so for now it’s just chatting once in a while. One of them it seems we really don’t have the same rythme, even though we have some common interest in travelling and sport, but he is more a night owl than I am and feeling like it could be an issue so…not really into it. Another one, is nice, we spoke even before the guy I’m meeting but same his life rhythm doesn’t seem to be super align with mine…So all this “sign” are kind of warning for me that it’s not fitting my needs.

I’m Turing 37 this Saturday yeah. And we will be 14 (can’t really accommodate a huge group of people at my place, this is going to be tricky already lol). Hence the fact that we are just going to do a warmup there, have them visit and then head to restaurant nearby lol it’s easier for me, also because I won’t have to cook to much considering I was sick all week !

And so happy I like fall colours as well it’s really nice. Especially when it’s sunny haha

Have a great day 🙂

[Emilie S]

Hey Heidi

Yes it is I love it 🙂
I’ve finalised the decoration part, and for once I put a lot of picture with friends, family, trips lol really feel home !
As for the kitchen I definitely used it already, got back on track with my pastry challenge (almost lol)
My dog is also ok now, she might have been some “struggle” at first, but seems pretty ok now, always with me lol
We met some people with dogs around, she is just ignoring them lol but it’s better than being upset after them lol

I’m having a warmhouse party this Saturday and will also celebrate my birthday with friends.
Fortunately…I got covid for the 3rd time end of last week and should be over it by that time !
And unfortunately, I was supposed to meet a guy the day I got tested positive lol but he was really supportive and it’s just postponed to next Friday evening when my quarantine will be over and just before my birthday lol

Hope everything is ok on your end !

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Haha yes indeed !
But pretty happy with all theses changes and event in the past few weeks / months

When I moved to my parent’s house I knew I wouldn’t go back to my flat for different reason. I’m renting it to someone of course but I could have ask to get it back it’s allowed by the law here. It’s just that I like my flat but it’s too far from everything, including friends, family and work. The fact that I needed to take my car for everything not being sure I will be able to park at some point, the restriction I had to go out during weekdays and so on was really a pain and in a way I got isolated because of that. So I choose a really cute flat, I love it, it’s really near Paris, like 5 minutes walks but super calm. I have access to everything by feet, I have the metro (first time in my life I’m next to a metro station) that is direct for my work, only 20 mins and even closer to Paris city center. I have few friends in the same street, I’m in between my dad and my mom’s family so it’s really great. I really like it, when I saw it online I knew I wanted to be there lol
I visited few apartment but this one really called me lol and the kitchen is great, and that’s not something easy to find in Paris especially when you are renting. So I’m super happy !!!

So for the first guy yeah he needed to hear that I wouldn’t be part of his life anymore in any way. Because it seems he didn’t understood the 2 first time I told him…3rd one might be the good one lol I don’t really care…The funny part is that now I’m really nearby his place, like 15 mins in transport (I was around last Saturday to meet some friends).
For the other guy, I have no clue, I was thinking I could write to him just to say I finally moved in and so on, because he was pretty interested in all this, he was even looking at all my videos visit when we were meeting each other, sharing with me his thoughts. But I didn’t do it…I was busy moving in and “adjusting” to my new life lol. Will see I might do it in some time. As I said, I enjoyed being treated like a queen and I guess it wouldn’t be the same now that he kind of ghosted me.

For the mediation, to be honest I don’t know if she is really that bad, or if she is “just” clumsy…In any case I just rather prefer to focus on myself and not really pay attention to that. Will see in the long run 🙂

For my shoulder no I didn’t check all this, to be honest as I was always outside of Paris and all, I didn’t really took the time to deal with that. But I’m feeling better now, I didn’t really do sport during the last 2 months so it might have help to heal 🙂 I’ll do a checkup just to see if it’s better or not. But right now I’m ok, I’m starting to exercise slowly again, focusing on how I’m using my shoulder also to ensure that I won’t injure myself again lol

And yes I’m happy right now, a bit tired if I’m totally honest with the moving and the work but happy 🙂

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hey Heidi

Super sorry for the late reply….

The last few months have been pretty busy on my side between work summer holidays and moving !

To answer your question for my pup it depends of my family availability, it’s else my grandma, my sister (at home) or my parents now that they are back from England for good (hence my moving lol). And of course I’m missing her, it feels weird not to have her around, but she doesn’t seem to be hungry after me when I’m back lol

For Sevilla yes I don’t know why I like it so much, but I guess it’s because it’s a city with history and Spanish vibes lol and it’s a sunny place haha. At the same time I am thinking that living there during the heat wave from the past summer would have been super complicated…
For Egypt wow what a trip…I went there for a week with friends, we first visited Alexandria for 3 days and then heads to Giza. We went almost in a backpack mode even though we had hotel booked there…but in Alexandria we mainly walked around and visited the touristic places in addition. For Giza we visited the main pyramid and sphynx site, it was amazing !!! and then we did a tour of the secondary pyramids at Saqara, Dachour, Maydum and also went to Memphis. We also went to Cairo as it was nearby Giza, visited the 2 mains museum the flee markets. So I really enjoyed to see all these monuments, it was amazing and incredible. It’s still looking so awesome even after 3000 years !!!!
But Egypt itself…to be honest I wasn’t thinking it would look that poor…and that dirty…It Brought me back to my time in India. That’s not what I was expected to be honest lol Also…It’s definitely a Muslim country and I wasn’t always feeling comfortable…People always staring at you, it was super hot and you had to have your body fully covered, not able to go to the swimming pool…(even though I think that I wouldn’t have gone in any case because of hygiene…but not being able due to religion stuff was frustrating…). So I’m just focusing on the good part and all the memories. We really enjoyed being together with my friends, we had lot of fun. I would probably go again in the future but doing the cruise on the Nil and all the temple, because we didn’t do that part.

As for the guy, even if I clarified everything with him, it seems he wasn’t ready to really let me go, he was popping up here and there by messages…When I was in Egypt I made it clear again that I wouldn’t be part of his life anymore at all. And this time I guess he understood…I was feeling good taking distance, I needed it, but he didn’t let me take it really so I was upset of his lack of respect for that. Hence the fact that I was pretty harsh in my last message to him. Just wanted to close this topic definitely !
At the same time, I met a guy, we spent really good time together, like an awaken dream, but then he disappeared. To be honest, I didn’t really try to pursue him or try to understand, it was just before my holidays in Egypt and I was also super busy with my apartment hunt, signature, and then moving there so in any case it wasn’t really the right time. I just enjoyed being treated as a princess for few days lol it felt good haha

For my boss…we had our last meditation meeting when I came back from holidays. To be fully honest, even if we had open conversation, I still don’t trust her. I know she is really good at speaking and saying what people expect from a good boss, what people expect from a good person but deeply inside I still feel she is toxic. I decided not to care about it, I’m working, my project are moving on, she is a bit more supportive but I’m waiting to see on the long run…At our last meeting she was saying that I shared with a lot of people our issue (which isn’t true) and that I was responsible of a bad reputation and that it was hard to come back from that. In my head I was just thinking that she did it herself, because I spoke only to HR and my boss…If people were asking me how was work I was quite evasive, if people were asking me what my boss was doing I was just honest, saying I don’t know…but everyone working with her is struggling and that’s definitely not on me. So she was like you need to rebuild my reputation…And I was like, that’s not going to happen, else we really work together, we really support each other and this reputation will be rebuilt naturally else…you dig your own grave…
Especially when I know that she keeps on criticising her own team in our back…I had some feedback about it even after our mediation…
But never mind as I said, I am just focusing on my work, ensuring my project moves on and if she stay align with our action plan from the mediation in the long run yeah why not…otherwise…I’ll just speak up again.

I was really not aware about all your surgery. Glad to know you are doing good now. And yes all these injuries are really life lesson. I’m listening more to my body of course now. Infiltration…They inject a product directly in the muscle and tendon to remove the pain. It’s not helping for the recovery just removing the pain.

How is everything at your end ?

Emilie

[Emilie S]

Hey Heidi

It seems that my last post didn’t worked…i am facing issue with the forum while trying to connect from my laptop…

Anyway, I am doing good, i travelled a lot lately and it feels really good !

So to answer your question about Sevilla, i like the architecture in city center, people are nice, weather is always good, i like tapas a lot (so not only in Sevilla lol) but i don’t know i feel good in this city. I have been there twice and really enjoyed !

In May i went to Marseille with the guy and our friend for the weekend, rhings were still weird between us and i wasn’t the only one thinking that our friend as well so i had a talk with the guy. He told me he met someone with whom he wasn’t blocked so i said ok but our friendship is over i need to move on. He tried multiple time to send me messages but i am not answering anymore.
Then i went to Ibiza for one of my friend’s birthday it was nice but i am not into that kind of party lol but i was there for my friend and it was nice 🙂
Then i went again to Marseille this time for a team building and…it was almost the end of May lol
In June i went to see my parent in Bristol just before going to London where i was a speaker at one of my company event (but this time with customer, prospect…) and i came back and left for NYC for a week also to speak at my company event…

And i am just back from my holidays in Palma de Majorque. I spent a week there with one of my friend and it was really nice 🙂 and i am going to Egypt end of August with friends once again 🙂 can’t wait ! That’s a long time dream

Since i am back i am looking for a flat (and might have find one, waiting for the owner answer) as my parents are coming back from Bristol end of this week with all their furnitures…

So as you can see i have been pretty busy lol and i was also trying to still work on my shoulder i jad an infiltration and i need to go back to kine now…hopefully it will be ok this time !

As for my boss, since your last message we started a mediation with an external third party to re-open the discussion/ communication and to try to find a solution…it seems there is a lot of misunderstanding (but i know she is good at speaking so i am waiting for the action now)…but it’s getting a bit better.

What about you ? How are you doing ?

Emilie

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