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Hi Dawn,
Any woman would end up with a fog considering how he activated all of your hopes and dreams and possibilities….then in one fail swoop, he ripped it all away. Something happened…whether it was something he got afraid of or there is something else going on that you have no clue about…it’s a very unkind thing to do to a person. To go from being connective, talking about the future an taking you down 1 path and then one day tell you nope….that’s not the path anymore…without any discussion or honoring you of how that might make you feel…that’s a HUGE red flag to me!
Why not get ahead of this and send him a text saying….”You are right. I do want a relationship. I do want to fall in love and create a life with a man. Since you are not able to offer that and I am now in the friend zone, I need to create closure for myself so my heart can heal from the loss of where I thought we were going. I had a wonderful time getting to know you and even getting to know myself again, so thank you! I am now kindly requesting that you no longer contact me. I wish you all the best!”
This way, you create closure and allow yourself to feel that ending so you can deal with it now.
What do you think?Heidi
Hi Dawn,
I understand how good you feel when you are around him. That’s a very difficult thing to let go of. You are focusing on all the good qualities, but you are not making the not so good qualities part of your story or vision of him. You want to keep holding onto the good, but with that comes the challenges.
First of all, I wonder why he kept you a secret at the party. That isn’t normal. He is hiding something. If he is hiding something from his own friends, doesn’t that make you wonder? You are the one initiating the conversations and you are pretty much just going along for the ride of whatever design of relationship he is willing to offer.
My question to you is…where are you creating what YOU want in this? I think if you spoke up about what you want, you would lose him, because he cannot offer that to you…and is not willing….for whatever reason.
As great as you guys are together….he is not an option for you. He is not available. When a guy says that, it’s important to listen to him. I know you want to change your mind, but after being invited to his party as just a friend and him being very clear that he doesn’t want anyone to know you dated….he is not someone you want to get involved with. It’s not okay for you to be hidden….EVER! You deserve more than that. Love yourself enough to choose to be with a guy who is proud to have you on his arm where you guys go….anything less than that is unacceptable.
Thoughts?
Heidi
Hi Emilie,
Thank you for all the detail. You guys are definitely flirting for sure. The one thing I noticed is that you both are doing a lot of flirting, but a rejecting type of tone to it….kind of smart ass flirting. That can be really fun sometimes, but how much you both are doing, it actually can shift the energy and not take you down the path you want. It actually doesn’t create bonding…it can cause separation.
You can easily change this dynamic. You want to respond by building the energy of the flirting instead of cutting it down by being a smart ass. So if he says “you are so mean to me….” you can say something like, “I can actually show you how nice I really am…..” So….when and if things start back up again, be softer and more receptive to his flirting and a lot less “combative.” You can throw that in there sometimes, but just every once in awhile.
To be honest, it just sounds like neither of you are really sure about what you want or how the other person is feeling. I wouldn’t give too much thought to his comment about not being into it right now. He is a bit lost and not feeling like himself, so is feelings all kinds of things right now.
It’s a bummer he hasn’t responded. Give it a few more days. There are so many things that could have happened that have nothing to do with you. Give it more time and then you can say something like, “I have something for you. I missed a chance of a lifetime to be your nurse, so it’s a small way to make up for it.” and then see if he responds. This is where you can bake something for him. Maybe bake cookies but make him a cookie that is EXTRA EXTRA big. You obviously have to deliver it in person, so you just say, “I need to see you to give it to you and I’m not telling you what it is.” THen when you give it to him, you be flirty again and say “there’s a lot of healing ingredients in this cookie….”
What do you think?
Heidi
Hi Diana,
Have you been like this your entire life? Why do you think you don’t have a lot of self love and care a lot about what people are thinking about you?
There is nothing “wrong” with being shy. Some of being shy may just be part of your personality, but we do know that a big part of you being shy comes from not being connected to yourself and loving yourself. That is the part you want to work on. That is the aspect that men will not respond well to. There is a difference between being shy because it really is part of your personality and being shy because of a lack of confidence. It doesn’t matter though. You are who you are and what is most important is that you find a guy who will accept you and love you for exactly who you are! But you have to be able to do that for yourself first and foremost.
In order to create deep change in your self esteem, it’s always helpful to understand where it started from. Looking at your relationship with your parents, your siblings, your teachers, your culture…..all of those areas influence how you feel about yourself.
Here is a video that can give you some ideas about how to start this process.
There are a TON of books, videos, programs on how to develop self esteem, self love and confidence. Go online or to the book store and see what you are attracted to! Keep reading and reading and reading and practicing everything you are learning. If you are able to hire a coach or a therapist, that can definitely speed up the process!
Heidi
Hi Ana,
First, I want to suggest to hold onto that letter and not send it to him. My thoughts are this…everything you are writing, is so valuable and important to have as a conversation. Maybe you can set up a time to have a conversation with him and have the letter with you and you can use it to remind you of what you want to talk about. If a relationship is going to work, then it’s important to be able to discuss all of these things in person. And I would also recommend to change your perspective about what is a “failure.” When I look at relationships, I look at “what worked” and “what didn’t work.” It’s much easier to swallow the challenges with that kind of wording vs. calling them “failures.” Just a thought.
Here is the thing Ana. Because you are confused and not sure what you want, you are going to be sending mixed messages. You are not even wanting to talk about the relationship at this point….yet you want him to ask you into his life again?? I’m starting to get confused here. I am not sure if you want to be with him or not. I understand you are taking time to figure things out, but to what end?
Tell me why you want to be with him again?
Then tell me why you wouldn’t want to be with him again?
On a scale of 1-10, how much do you want to be with him? 1 is ‘not at all” and 10 is “absolutely I have no doubt I want to be with him” 5 means 1/2 of you wants to be with him and 1/2 of you doesn’t want to be with him.Heidi
Hi Emilie!
Isn’t it funny how a guy can make you feel like a lost teenager???? I’ve felt that many times (even in my 40’s) and it always cracks me up.
First, you ALWAYS be yourself! It doesn’t matter if he will be at the baby shower or not. If he is, you just be friendly, a little flirty (through a smile, touches to his shoulder or leg etc.) and get to know him a little better.
Okay….so don’t bake him anything. I wasn’t entirely clear that you weren’t sure how he felt. It would be a little over the top to back him something at this point, if you aren’t sure how he feels. Asking for his address doesn’t feel right at this stage of the game.
As far as flirty goes, keep it SUPER light. Instead of saying something like “fantasizing about you” you can say something like, “I’m glad to hear you are feeling better, because that sexy smile of yours is one my favorite features about you and you need to be using it!”
You said that he said he wasn’t into the flirting. Explain that a little more. It sounds like he is responsive to you, but he out right said he isn’t into flirting with you? Help me understand this a little more.
Heidi
Great questions Isotta!
1. There is a bit of an art to deciding whether or not to initiate conversation….but mostly in the beginning of getting to know someone. I would not suggest to ask him how his New Year’s went. You guys already had that conversation about your New Year’s. That would have been the time to ask him that question in return. Now…a few days have already passed and it’s a closed subject, so if you bring it up, it may come across to him like you are making up reasons to contact him. Next time you actually see him, just ask him that question then. In the beginning, it’s important to watch the dynamics of the relationship. If you end up ALWAYS initiating, then you never give space for the guy to initiate much and then you never really know how he feels about you. It’s important for the guy to initiate. He needs to feel and know that he is interested in you and you need to know he is interested….if you take the lead on that, it doesn’t really allow for that dynamic to happen…the guy can just sort of sit back and relax and know that he doesn’t have to really work for you. That’s mainly why it’s important for the guy to initiate in the beginning….it gets him in the chase and they need to feel that. Now….with that being said, understand that is also a generalization and there are a gazillion situations that may not fit that model. So that’s where your feminine intuition and skillset can help you know what will work best. For your particular situation at the moment, being that you are just friends with benefits, I would sit back and relax and allow him the space to initiate. When he does, you just be your wonderful, responsive and flirty self. Allow that dynamic to develop.
2. I think any advice from books and coaches and science is all good stuff! It’s like anything….the information can help some and not help others. The information may match a situation perfectly and then it won’t. So whenever I read about this topic, or any topic for that matter, I don’t make it the end all be all…I just put it away as part of new knowledge and I know at some point it will be useful information for me. With relationships and love, there are so many dynamics at play. If it doesn’t work out, it could be because of attachment style differences, it could be simply bad timing, it could be that they are not ready for a deep experience, it could be that they are not completely over an ex…there are so many reasons things do and don’t work beyond attachment style. The goal is to pay attention to yourself, know yourself and your tendencies and to honor all of it. The more you know yourself, the more you can know someone else. Knowing your needs is a part of that process. It’s important to understand what works and doesn’t work for you in a relationship. So basically, what I am saying is that piece of advice is just 1 perspective…not THE perspective to take when looking at relationship dynamics. Don’t make it the end all be all information and way to view relationship. Just make it another way to get to know yourself and use it as 1 perspective alongside many other perspectives. Does that make sense?
3. The higher purpose is balance. Sometimes people forget what they are doing and the reasons for challenging themselves. You are looking for growing and expanding how you interact with men. So the higher purpose for me guiding you from going from excessive answering to very little answering, is so you can find the balance or the midpoint between the 2 extremes. Many times people will resist going to the opposite extreme, so when I explain that it’s just for a season, it may be uncomfortable for a bit, but there is a higher purpose (finding the middle), they understand the exercise better.
Heidi
Hi Marie,
Yes….self care and self love is a DAILY choice. It is a real relationship. If you were with a guy and loved him, every single day you would do something to tell him, connect with him, show him, ask about his day, want to know how he is feeling etc. “Small things often” is what Dr. John Gottman talks about when he refers to his studies of how to make a relationship last. The same principle applies to the relationship with yourself. It is a daily and forever kind of thing.
I do want to help you understand that just because you think you are at peace about who your parents are, there are still some very active layers that have not quite been resolved. Consciously, you are at peace, but subconsciously, you know there are some unresolved feelings because you have symptoms….your symptoms are the kind of men that you choose. My guess is, there are still some areas of your subconscious that you haven’t connected to that hold those hurt feelings about events in your past…and that part is strong enough to influence the kind of men you choose. I know that many times I have resolved something consciously, but I am then looking at some of my choices that tell me there are still some pieces left….so I go into deeper exploration and discover all the unfinished business.
Does this make sense?
Heidi
Hi Emilie,
Okay…I get how difficult all of that would be without being able to see him in person. This is a bit of a tricky situation here. He doesn’t quite feel himself and is definitely not feeling like his good self. So this could make him a bit more shy. So that might mean you have to initiate more to keep letting him know you are interested. Maybe as he starts to feel more “manly” he will feel more confident to ask you out. He is responsive, you guys do flirt, so there is an attraction there on both sides….would you agree?
Do you know how to bake? What if you made some cookies or something and mailed it to him and leave a little note inside saying something flirty like, “Now that you are feeling better, I figured a few cookies might give you the energy to take me out on the town sometime. ;)”
I want to say to give it a little more time. If he didn’t have this injury he was dealing with, I would say otherwise. I want to say that you need to see who he is and how he treats you when everything normal is in his world. I think that sending him a message once a week or so is okay for now….that will change soon, but just for now….stay flirty and stay connected….just a little longer.
Make sense?
heidi
Hi Diana,
If you scroll down, you will see a title that says “Irresistible Communication and Bonuses.” Click on that, and you will get all kinds of fun stuff to learn about!
So it sounds like your shyness is about a lack of self love. It sounds like you are really driven by what other people think of you. When someone likes you and wants to be with you, you have confidence. When you are alone and don’t have that, you don’t have a lot of confidence. If you are really interested in changing your shyness, it’s about connecting to yourself and finding confidence from yourself instead of relying on other people to give it to you. The problem is, when other people are your source for how you think of yourself, you are ALWAYS going to be let down…because people will let you down….people have judgments about you and they don’t even know you…so it’s not a good source of truth. So strengthening your vision about how you see yourself, how you feel about yourself, liking who you are, loving who you are….it gives a solidness INSIDE that allows you to be in this world and not worry so much about what other people think. You can sit in a café all by yourself and not care what others think. You can wear whatever you want and love what you wear and feel confident about it. You can be involved in a conversation with a few people and know that you are worth hearing from.
Yes, you can learn some skills about how to flirt, but that is not going to change how you feel about yourself. Does this make sense?
Heidi
Hi Lingda,
What you do is up to you. Bottom line is….do you feel that you are loving yourself by being connected to a man that is back and forth so much? Do you feel like sitting around trying to fight for a guy who left and is with an ex girlfriend now, is something that is making your spirit stronger and is a loving thing to do for yourself?
Heidi
Hi Alexa!
Let’s talk about trust just for a second. Trust, bottom line, is about trusting yourself. When people talk with me about not being sure if they can trust their guy not to cheat or trust their woman not to be passive aggressive, I always bring it back to this….people are going to let you down, life is going to hurt, unmet expectations will bring an incredible amount of heartache. When you put your trust in others and life itself, it’s guaranteed to get broken. And that’s okay! It’s just part of the human experience…but here is where trust will NEVER get broken….trusting in yourself that no matter what happens in your life, you will be okay. That is where your trust always needs to be, first and foremost. I have been through so much healing work that now, I have a TON of skills to handle stress. It allows me to go through life knowing that I will always be okay. I absolutely have rough patches, but I definitely get through them much easier and faster than most people because I have those skills, I have people who hold me accountable and I have an internal strength and trust in myself that I have been through hell and if I can not only survive that, but turn all those many moments into gifts in my life, then I can do anything!
Here is an analogy to help you understand about who you attract in your life. Imagine we are all these big beautiful diamonds. We come into this world clean, sparkly and bright. Then trauma happens, hurt happens, life happens….and black, sticky tar gets gobbed onto our diamond when this happens. As we become adults there is plenty of tar that is covering our diamond. Now…..the only difference between me and you and the next person, is how much tar we choose to carry through our lives. So that’s where people end up matching up….they find partners who have a similar amount of tar on their diamonds. So the goal is, to get a chisel and a hammer and start working on getting that crap off….so your beautiful, sparkly diamond is what attracts your partner, not the tar. Make sense?
Yes, I worked with a PTSD therapist for years, one on one. I still work with her. I do it over the phone or FACETIME. I have searched everywhere for healers and found many great ones, but she is brilliant with this type of stuff and helps me remove all that crap faster than anyone I have ever known. It’s deep work. It’s hard and it’s uncomfortable, however very possible and worth every bit of it. She can get you there for sure, but you have to really commit. If it’s okay with you, I can talk to the administrators of this site and get your email address and then I can send the information that way. Is that okay?
Heidi
Hi Alexa,
Thanks for sharing all of that. I am so, so sorry for all you have been through! It all makes complete sense now!
You do not have the ability to love. You don’t trust men. You don’t trust love. All of that trust was broken a loooong time ago. Because you haven’t healed from the initial traumas, those emotions connected to those traumas are still VERY REAL and choosing your world for you. That wounded part of you that is carrying around all of that hurt, is VERY STRONG. That part of you is MUCH STRONGER than the part of you that does want love and connection in a healthy way. So this part of you will always choose a man who is unavailable because that is safe…there is no danger of love coming from something like that. However, that part of you knows that there is a danger of real love happening with a guy who IS available for you, so there is no way that part of you will allow that to happen. You have very split energy and that is very normal when dealing with major truamas.
How do you feel about seeing a therapist who specializes in PTSD? You need some deeper help if you are going to get to the root of this challenge you are facing.
You need to be at rock bottom, because this is place that can be most powerful for transformation and change. I’ve been there a few times and I’m so sorry you are there. It’s hard and there is no way out of it except for you fighting for yourself in a way like you never have before. There is a way out. There is a way to heal. I have done it and I can tell you, ever tear shed, every moment where I wanted to quit but didn’t, has brought me to this very moment where I can say that I am the happiest I have ever been in my life. My past traumas still affect me sometimes, but it no longer controls me. It doesn’t define my ability to love, it doesn’t keep me in my low self esteem….I healed enough to be able to live my life in the way I wanted, instead of from a place of trauma. I have freedom now. You can have the same.
Are you willing to work with someone privately who can guide you through the healing process?
I understand your thoughts about children. I faced that same thing. I am now 44 and no longer have an interest of having a child of my own and I am 100% okay with that. I am choosing for my life to have a different purpose other than being a mother. A healthy place to be with that is being okay whether it happens or not. Your open to the idea of children and you are also open to the idea of NOT having children. At this point, you have some very important things to do for yourself right now, so falling in love and creating a family needs to be something you create from a healthy place….not a wounded place. Make sense?
Heidi
Brilliant!!!! Well done Isotta! How do you feel about your choice?
I understand your need to “balance.” I find that interesting that you end up over responding and over connecting in efforts to create balance. So now, under respond for awhile. Get comfortable with it! At first, it will be VERY uncomfortable…but there is a higher purpose here.
If you were on 1 extreme of over responding, then it’s important to go to the other extreme (just for a bit) of under responding….THEN when you get to know yourself in this way and get more comfortable with it….you can then find the balance you are seeking. You will never know what the “middle” feels like until you know what the opposite extremes feel like right?
Also….just another thought to help you along….when someone offers you a compliment, it is ALWAYS more powerful when you just receive. If you respond immediately by giving them a compliment back, you don’t actually receive the compliment they are giving you. So if you receive a compliment, sit with it, feel it, appreciate it and respond with “Wow…you just put a huge smile on my face. Thank you so much for saying that!” And leave it at that….only offer compliments to someone when it is authentic for you…when you are actually feeling what you want to say and you are saying it just because you want them to know….not because you are trying to keep the “balance.”
Does any of this help you understand the higher purpose a bit more?? You really did a great job!!!
Heidi
