[Rhonda R]

Hi, Heidi,
Thanks. I will try to focus on the present. Every time I see one less day, though, I get more excited! And honestly, if another job comes up, I could leave here earlier. I’m totally bored. Nothing to keep me busy and they really could get along without me. I was told the solar project in TX is still trying to get me on part time. I’m praying that happens as it will give me something to do and provide part time work thru August. All remote so I could work from home in Canada.

Well, I’ll admit I was wrong about Russell. This is one time I’m happy to admit I was wrong. He did text me last night. Texted for 10-15 min. Then this morning out of the blue he texted again. Said he ended up going over to some friends last night. He also texted this morning that “when we get to meet we’ll make memories” or something like that. That really made me feel good as that’s the first indication I’ve had that he is really interested. I’ll stay backed off and let him take the lead, but that did make me feel good and gave me a bit of confidence.

That’s why I couldn’t sign up for Hinge. I don’t do aps and I don’t do phones. Everything is on my laptop.

Texted Robin Happy New Year. Did not hear back from him. That’s ok. I still feel badly as I know I hurt him when I left, but I’m really more comfortable with Russell. I think I’m kind of starting to like Russell. 🙂

Hope you had a wonderful New Year and got out for some fun. I worked. 🙁 Its clouding over again. We’ll see what the weather is tomorrow. If decent I’ll go do the 5-mile loop at LSU Lake. That’s about the only place to go around here. 🙁

Smiles,
Rhonda

[Rhonda R]

So how is Hinge different? I really didn’t see a way to sign up. It just had a “contact us” in tiny print on the bottom.

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Well, I was flipping through my views on Zoosk. Russell looked at my profile yesterday. Did not write and did not text. I’m sure I won’t hear from him again.

[Rhonda R]

Hi, Heidi,
85 more days now! Can’t wait! And no, those days are going to D-R-A-G!

I’m US citizen. Moved to Canada in 2012 and got permanent residency March 26, 2017. I have to physically be present in Canada 3 years during the next 5, but they will count one year prior to my permanent residency, so 720 days. Unfortunately since the down turn in oil and gas I’ve been out of Canada more than in it since 2012. I’m anxious to get home. While I could survive for 7 months without work, I don’t want to as I really need a new car and can’t do both, so praying God will give me a job back home come April.

Have not heard from Russell in 3 days. I told you I didn’t think he was that interested. I’ve only seen a few pics, but from what I can see, he’s ok. Not super attracted, but not unattracted, either. He lives in Airdrie just north of Calgary. Since I’m in southwest Calgary, it’s a 45 min drive to his place.

No holiday for me. Working again tomorrow. And its cloudy, extremely humid and rainy here. Happiness will be Gonzales, LA in the rear view mirror when I can finally leave!!!!!!!!!!

Smiles,
Rhonda

[Rhonda R]

Hi, Heidi,
Yes, disappointing. Seems like every time I’ve made plans they’ve been destroyed. I haven’t had a break since Labor Day – except 4 days of solitary confinement and total isolation over Thanksgiving, which was almost worse than working. I’ve just got to make it another 86 days! I’m hoping the border restrictions will ease before end of March. Yes, Calgary is my permanent residence. I’ve got to get home as I’ve got to physically in Canada for 7 more months before March, 2022 to get citizenship. So…. done or not done, work or no work, I’m headed home end of March.

I haven’t heard from Russell for the last two days, but I really didn’t expect to. His kids and grandkids were staying at his place last night and they were leaving at 6 this morning to go skiing and I don’t know what time they’ll be home tonight. Hopefully will hear from him tomorrow.

86 more days!!! Can’t wait!! It’s countdown time!

Have a wonderful super New Year!
Smiles,
Rhonda

[Rhonda R]

Hi, Kanya,
Thank you. LOL. Ha. Ha. Per the story of my life…. trip to Arizona in Jan isn’t happening. So now the project is saying we really don’t get time off. They will pay us an extra 2 weeks at the end of our assignment. So it will be March before I get out of here. 85 more days till my last day!

So I’m not sure what you mean that I’m building a foundation in my life that I’m not aware of?
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Isolation is not new for me. Ohio was brutal and I was just as isolated there. Most projects I’ve had few friends, but Cold Lake (way NE of Calgary) and Red Deer were better as I did a lot of kayaking, had friends to play squash with and got home once a month. Red Deer I spent a lot of time kayaking and exploring out on the trunk road. The one year I was home in Calgary I did quite a bit with a couple meetup groups and will continue to do so when I get home again. I own a home in Calgary, so it will be awesome to be in my own home again!

Talked with my boss today. He’s actually going to be part-time on another project while he’s finishing up this one. He said there’s possibility they can use my skills on that project and possibly I can work from Calgary. ALso another project potential in Canada coming up Q1, and I would think maybe for a while, anyway, I could work that project from Calgary. Then one of our leads says there’s 80% chance he’ll be going to the Flour Kitamat project and he’s already sent in my resume for that – again starting Q2 next year. So I’ve got 3 potential projects when this is over. Only God knows which one will come through.

Yes, Russell does have potential. We’ll see where it goes. Robin was very consistent in calling or letting me know he wasn’t going to call. Robin also let me know how important I was to him. But he also had a very negative attitude and the last 3 weeks he was consistently texting he wouldn’t be able to call, so….. Russell is very much a Christian, so big difference there, and he’s actually doing things like snow shoeing and taking his kids and grand kids skiing instead of working all the time.

Hope you had a wonderful Christmas and are looking forward to a fun New Year.
Smiles,
Rhonda

[Rhonda R]

Hi, Heidi,
Well, looks like I lost the previous response. I tried to submit it and it said it couldn’t find the BeIrresistible server. 🙁

Hope you had a good day.

No, don’t know anything yet about our time off end of January. I’m sure I won’t find out anything till after the New Year. I am SOOOOOOO looking forward to this though. And guess what!? Three months from today is my last day! Boss says the project will probably go on into June, but I’m going to have to go anyway, and he knows that. I’m already totally bored and they’re not keeping me busy. This place is killing me, too, my health has taken a serious downturn the last month. This isolation with nothing to do, no place to go and no one to do it with is taking a serious tole on me. I’m feeling more dead than alive and living in a total haze and fog with no sense of reality at all. I did get up to LSU Lake today and did the 4-mile loop. Considering how weak I’ve been, it felt good. Humidity, miracle of miracles! was only 24% instead of the usual 75% and higher.

Russell is texting almost every day. He surprised me and texted while I was walking LSU Lake. Its hard to get to know someone with only 10-15 min of texting a day. He did tell me to go ahead and send pics, though, and he’d get them when he gets internet, so sounded like he’s going to get hooked up again. I hope he does soon, as it will make it easier to communicate. He’s too funny. I was describing my walk and told him a great white egret was just in front of me. LOL. He asked if that was a bird. Ha Ha. So I sent him pics of snowy egrets, cattle egrets, great white egrets and white ibis. Also sent pics of Ya Ha Tinda, Cutoff Creek and Ram Falls, so he has a bunch of pics waiting for him. Yeah, I kind of like him. Interesting. He’s also a contractor like Robin. Robin does commercial buildings but Russell works more on residential. Russell hasn’t had the issues of not getting paid and difficult managers to work with that Robin has had and he has a much more positive attitude, as well as being a strong Christian. We’ll see. I’m blah about him? Maybe? Like I said, hard to really get to know someone with only a few minutes of texting a day. He’s taking his kids and grand kids skiing at Sunshine Wednesday. Should be fun. Hope they have great weather!

Hinge looks like its based in the UK? Wonder how many men they have from the Calgary area. It does look interesting. I’m kind of sitting back right now to see what happens with Russell, but if that doesn’t work out, I’ll definitely give Hinge a try.

Smiles,
Rhonda

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Merry Christmas, Heidi!
Thank you. Just another work day for me. 8 hours instead of 10. 🙂 BUT…. client did make their deadline, so we should be getting 2 weeks off end of Jan paid by the project and not have to use our regular PTO, so that will be nice.

I am feeling better. Still have a cough, but not as bad as it was. Hope its totally gone in a couple weeks as I want to fly to Phoenix and drive back – maybe rent a mini RV and take a few extra days coming back.

I hadn’t heard of hinge. I will give it a try. Hearing almost daily from Russell. We’ll see how much effort he’s willing to put into this. Others I’ve heard from I’m really not interested in, so we’ll see.

Hope you were able to get out and enjoy some time outside!
Smiles,
Rhonda

[Rhonda R]

Hi, Heidi,

Man, this week has been horrible. Wednesday I stepped out the door and immediately felt like I was hit by a ton of bricks. It was probably 33ish and over 80% humidity and it immediately seized up my bronchial area. I’ve been coughing ever since. FINALLY have it kind of under control. Still coughing some, but not nearly as much. Air quality around here was HORRIBLE yesterday. Today is some better, but I’m still staying in side. Constant low pain across the bridge of my nose, a pressure in my head and the threat of turning into a major headache. Fortunately it hasn’t, just a low-grade pain. But I’ve lost my appetite and just not feeling well. My boss is having the same issues and one of the other girls had the same tightness in her chest. This is NOT a healthy place to live! Four of the positive covid diagnosis in our trailer turned out to be false diagnosis. Out of maybe 15? And they were all from the same clinic.

So that profile’s been working. Heard from several men… ha ha including one body builder hunk who is either 42 or 44. He says I’m a pretty woman. Hey, I’ll take it! No, I’m not interested. Heard from thee others and one may have potential. He’s Christian and has a mountain bike and snow shoes and actually goes to the mountains frequently. I’m rather liking him. We’ll see.

I’ll have to look up respire. I’ve been using a breathe easy from Melaleuca. Minimal results. I really haven’t found an essential oil that works for me, but I’ll see if I can find the respire.

Hope you’re enjoying your weekend and are able to get out.
Smiles,
Rhonda

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Hi, Kanya,
I usually don’t like to look for the negative in people, so sometimes I wonder if I’m just looking for excuses for leaving like I did. And yes, realizing the negative confirms I did the right thing. I still feel bad leaving him when he was struggling, but…..

I figured out why I was struggling on the treadmill…… it’s got an incline of probably 6%. Not much, but enough to make a difference. Realizing that I can now give myself permission to slow down a bit and don’t have to make the mile in 13 min like I was doing on a flat treadmill.

No, nothing on Zoosk. One guy from just north of Calgary says he’s sending messages, but I’m not getting them. Now he gave me his phone number, but its a Winnipeg number. Plus he hasn’t shared his name yet. I wrote back asking about the Winnipeg number and asked for his name. Other than that, nothing.

So here’s a new profile as I should be changing it.

I’m looking to make memories…. What about you? Memories like volunteering together, praying together, BBQs, hot tubbing under starry skies, dancing barefoot around the living room, chasing each other around the bedroom. How about kayak trips, hiking, snowshoeing, an evening snuggled up in front of a campfire listening to the loons laugh and the elk bugle. There are so many other ways to make memories that I’m waiting to share with someone. If these seem like fun memories you’d also like to make, I’m waiting to hear from you.

I’m tired tonight and the temp has dropped….. 50 with 80% humidity. That cold damp air catches in my bronchial area. I do far better with colder, dryer weather than this cold and damp. I noticed respiratory issues as soon as I got down here and they’ve haunted me the whole time I’ve been here so way ready to get home!

Have a super evening,
Smiles,
Rhonda

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Good morning, Heidi,
Yea, it’s amazing the paranoia the media has been able to stir up. And its stupid. Most cases don’t end up in the hospital. And people are buying the media paranoia. They don’t question anything and just buy it?????????? I agree with you. There’s another agenda behind all this. EVERYONE that’s gone in for testing in our trailer has had at least one positive test, whether they were sick or not. ????? That sounds very fishy to me. At least 3 of them had no symptoms at all. So some clinic is making a killing off us.

That’s interesting they got positive tests of ones that were never used and ones on fruit. It wouldn’t surprise me at all if the numbers were inflated by 50%. So frustrating and scary.

Zoosk? One gentleman I’d be interested in but he hasn’t answered my last email. We’ll see if I hear from him again.

James Bauer put out an email just this morning on how to tell a man’s character. It was an interesting read. He talked about the difference between traits and states. I think that’s what I was sensing with Robin – a negative TRAIT. That attitude was starting to repeat almost every time we talked.

I’m trying to get up some motivation to do anything today. It rained last night, but there was some blue sky earlier. The clouds have rolled back in again. I got on my new treadmill last night. LOL. Oh, am I out of shape! Don’t know what my problem was, but I wasn’t even jogging a quarter mile and didn’t make even one mile walking. April I was jogging a mile in 13 minutes. Something went down hill FAST this summer! Yikes!

Think I’ll try to go find those white ibis that I saw last weekend. We’ll see if they stuck around.

Have an awesome day,
Smiles,
Rhonda

[Rhonda R]

Heidi,
Thanks. Yes, I agree, pretty immature of Robin not to respond especially about the Melaleuca stuff and his birthday present. And that’s true. He told me even when he was married he was working 7 days a week and when he’s stressed he withdraws – for, well, he was pretty much gone for 2-3 weeks before I left. So while I feel badly and I do miss having someone to talk with, I’m glad its over.

Dean also loves the outdoors and he’s also a photographer. One of his friends told me he’s got women chasing him all the time. I think I’ve given him enough signals to let him know I’m interested, but while he’s been friendly, he hasn’t shown a lot of interest. I’m not going to push it.

Sounds like a quiet Christmas for you. Hope you enjoy it.

Ha Ha. I may be out at work Christmas Day. I think they’ve got people scheduled to work. Plus 3/4 of our trailer is out for quarantine. There have been many “positive” cases that have been asymptomatic or bogus, false positive results when the same person has a different test very soon afterwards its negative. Clinics get large sums of money for positive diagnosis and there’s been confirmed cases where a clinic turns in a false diagnosis. My co-worker had friends who went to a clinic but left before getting tested and the clinic called them several days later and said they tested positive when they never had the test at all. I highly suspect there’s been some of that going on with our people as so many have tested “positive” but are asymptomatic or a followup test says negative. I don’t trust the medical field at all. I’m just waiting for them to tell me I have to go get tested and if they decide I’ve been in contact with someone who tests positive I’m out for 10 days in quarantine in this little tiny apartment whether I test positive or not. I’m not impressed. We’ll see, but my luck I’ll be spending Christmas in quarantine. I can’t stand 3 days in this little box, let alone 10! Yikes! Especially if I’m not sick! There have been many, many times I’ve been framed or someone else screws up, they get off free and I end up paying the consequences. As far as I’m concerned, there’s no integrity about this covid stuff at all. I don’t trust the media, I don’t trust the medical field and I don’t trust the government.

Anyway, that’s my vent. I’ve gotta get some house cleaning done and then I have 3 messages on Zoosk. 🙂

Have an AWESOME weekend!
Smiles,
Rhonda

[Rhonda R]

Hi, Heidi,
Yes, Robin showed up in my matches on Zoosk. No, he didn’t message me. My guess is he’s blocked my phone number and maybe blocked my emails. He’s not answering either. I haven’t tried for a few weeks but I texted and emailed him about a e-transfer of money I had sent him for his birthday. He never responded. I also emailed him about some Melaleuca stuff as he’s my upline and he never responded to that, either. My guess is he’ll block me on Zoosk and I won’t see him again.

Yes, I did message the guy on Silver Singles. He hasn’t even looked at my profile. There’s a grey check by my message so I don’t know if that mean’s he’s read it or what it means.

Worked a long day today. Left at 5:15 and didn’t get home till after 6. Gotta run. Gotta get on that stepper. Still don’t know what I’m doing for Christmas. Do you have plans?

Oh, too funny. Dean, the meetup lead I was going to connect with over Christmas for a walk showed up on Christian Cafe. He messaged him and he answered. I’d go out with him if he asked. He’s friendly but I can’t tell if he’s interested or not.

Smiles,
Rhonda

[Rhonda R]

Hi,
Well, what an interesting day. I thought I had a very strong job possibility, but then Worley decided the project can’t add anyone more. Limiting the manager and expecting him to do a job without giving him the resources to do it. So frustrating. I’m ready to leave Worley. Not impressed in how they treat their people and clients.

Got my extension to end of March, so that’s good. Income through March, anyway. I see vaccine is coming out. I think they’ve already started in Canada, so hopefully that will be effective.

Well, guess who showed up in my Zoosk matches tonight. Kind of twisted my stomach. Even though I left, there’s still some feelings. Nothing from the gentleman at Silver Singles.

Hope you’re enjoying your evening,
Smiles,
Rhonda

[Rhonda R]

Hi, Thanks, Heidi,

I will get that updated tonight.

Haven’t heard anything from the guy on Silver Singles. Totally silent. But……. what can I do? One of the guys that I was talking with earlier on Zoosk and went silent has been looking at my profile almost daily. There’s another gentleman that I messaged and he didn’t answer that’s also looking at my profile daily. What can I write to get them to write. Should I be sassy…..

“(soft, teasing voice with playful wink) I dare you to write me.” or something else? The 2nd one I’d really like to hear from. But don’t know what to say since I already messaged him.

Smiles,
Rhonda

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