[Rhonda R]

Heidi,
I feel no need to bring it up with him. He’s not chasing me and I’m looking for friends as well as a serious relationship. There’s no need to bring it up. He’s never really put it out there that he’s looking for anything other than a friend. If I feel he’s looking for or asking for more than just a friend I’ll let him know. I’m not one of these people that will only talk to someone that I might want to marry. I’ll talk with anyone – well, almost anyone.

Make sense?

Smiles,
Rhonda

[Rhonda R]

Hi, Heidi,
No. I don’t contact Russell at all. He seems to text on the weekends. If he does, I’ll answer, but again, on a surface level.

Yes. I’m very grateful there seems to be so many possibilities showing up for work. But I’m praying I’ll have something at home with a normal 40 hour week!!!!

Smiles,
Rhonda

[Rhonda R]

Thank you, Kanya,
Yeah, I’m not interested in pursuing anything with Russell. I’m always willing to be friends with people, but I’ll definitely keep it very superficial and cool. It’s possible I read his text wrong about the “niece”. But there’s been way too much that just isn’t adding up, so….. Ha Ha Dean (friend from a Calgary meetup group that showed up on Christian Cafe) actually wrote me and asked if I was still coming home in March. Said he thinks he has me on as a friend now on FB, so I’ll check tomorrow night. Yesterday was 13 work hours (including commute time) and today was about the same. I think tomorrow will be a normal 10 but I have quite a bit to do to help out this solar project. Can’t wait to get home!!!! 75 more days! And…… our global lead says she is super swamped right now. Huge project in Canada looking very promising. Its in Ontario, but looks like I’d be able to work some from home. We’ll see.

Anyway, I’m exhausted and 4:30 comes early, so I’m off to bed.

Thanks for the support.
Have an AWESOME day tomorrow!
Smiles,
Rhonda

[Rhonda R]

Hi, Heidi,
Thanks for the advice. I had been praying about it and getting nothing but silence. Something just doesn’t feel right. I forgot my phone when I went to LSU Lake. Got home and took a nap. When I checked my phone he had sent me a pic of him out on a mountain trail. So I did text him back. Said I was sad to hear about his niece. Now he says it wasn’t his niece, but a friend’s niece, but it hit him as a loss of life. I don’t know. He’s feeling a bit needy and dependent and maybe moody? I think I like your advice.

So I’m curious…… what is it you’re seeing/sensing that says he’s messed up? What bothers me more is he’s feeding me lines like, We’ll make memories when we meet, and Soon our eyes will meet, but he’s always on line out on Zoosk and not so much that as it could show him on line if he’s logged in (which I’m always logged in), but he boosted so his pic was out on the side of the window for 2 days this last week. It cost points to boost and the only way to get points is to play their carousal game – flip through pics and say if you want to meet the person or not. So that tells me he’s still active out on Zoosk while he’s feeding me those lines. ????????? Texting for a couple weeks doesn’t make a relationship, so he has the right to be out on Zoosk still, but to be actively looking and do a boost while he’s feeding me those lines……. He’s coming across as not being genuine at all.

So out of curiosity, again, what are you sensing and seeing?

Smiles,
Rhonda

[Rhonda R]

HELP!!!!! So what the HEY?!!!! Russell has been on line on Zoosk every time I’ve gone on (daily) and supposedly he doesn’t have wifi at home and a low data plan. ???? Zoosk has a game you can play to earn points then you can buy a boost and get posted where you get a lot more visibility and Russell had a boost earlier this week, so he’s been very active out there. I haven’t heard from him since last Saturday, so its 9:30 my time…. he never texts at this time. My phone goes off about 4 times and its him….. My dear Rhonda… very soon our eyes will meet. What has God done in your life this week? Have you seen Him leading? My niece in TX died of COVID. Its been a crazy week. God willing I’m going to the mountains tomorrow. WHAT THE HEY?!!!!!! Is this guy NUTS? He’s sounding like a scammer. I didn’t answer and I’m not sure I will. What are your thoughts? If he hadn’t been so active on Zoosk I might buy his story, but knowing how active he’s been out there, I don’t buy his lines at all. I’m tempted to be a real snot and say, Yeah, God’s been leading, and He’s showed me you’re not the right man for me. Ok. I won’t, but its tempting. Yikes!! I’m really tempted not to answer at all – or I’ll wait till Sunday and ask how his trip to the mountains was. If he’s serious he can chase me a bit and really work for me. I fell for his lines once. Don’t think I’m going to fall again. Any suggestions?

Thanks,
Rhonda

[Rhonda R]

Hi, Heidi,
Thanks. Getting more good news about possible projects after this one. Our global lead is back on full time and she is totally swamped. She listed 3 or so projects she needs help on. One project 5-year contract in Canada looking very promising, but don’t know when it will start. My boss says Worley is bidding on a project on the North Slope. His new project in Africa is still on the table. Most projects now are moving to more remote work so good possibility I can work at least part of the time from home. So good news there again. We’ll just wait and see which door God opens and which ones He closes.

I’m donating quite a bit of time to help our solar project in TX get up. Worley has a tendency to bid low on a project then refuse to give the project managers the resources they need to get the job done properly. I’ve seen them do this twice. And they expected our global lead to work for free for over a month. I’m NOT impressed. And even their own lawyers said they broke contract with OCCMS, the company that owns the other commissioning software we were using. Left 4 projects who were using that software hanging as the license expired. Again, I’m NOT impressed and would leave Worley with no problems if I had the opportunity.

Yea, I think I will try that matching service, but will wait till closer to when I’m coming home and know more about where I’m going to be and what I’ll be doing. Actually, I’m ready to slow down a bit. These 50 hour weeks with 10 hours additional commute time are wearing on me! I’ve been working 50 hour weeks since ’02 and I’m ready to slow down and enjoy life. 2019 was 40 hour weeks at home, but I’ve worked enough 56-60 hour weeks to average that year to 50 hour weeks. But it was sure nice to be home for a year and work a normal week! I was almost feeling human again.

Enjoy your weekend!
Smiles,
Rhonda

[Rhonda R]

Thank you, Kanya,
Yea, I don’t think Russell’s the man I thought he was. He also made the comment to me earlier on that he would never do a long-distance relationship again as people are on their best behavior when they meet and they don’t see how others get…. how did he say it, something about anger and fighting and disagreement. Kind of an odd comment, I thought, and made me wonder. Anyway, I’m done, time to move on. I don’t think he’s the man I thought he was.

Yes, my boss has said there may be a possibility he’ll need me on his next project and there may be a possibility of working from home. Its some where in Africa. But Worley has moved to a lot more remote work and I could do my work from home easily. There’s also a possibility of a nuclear project, probably in Ontario, but again, it would save the project a lot of money to let me work remotely. And unless they go with paper quality check sheets, I wouldn’t need to be on site at all. A third possibility is a project on the BC coast. Randy, one of our leads here said 80% he’ll be going on to that job and wants me to come along. We work well together and I provide the support he needs. I could deal with the BC coast – I think. This place would be remote and it would probably be wet. So we’ll see. I don’t know what God has in store for me. I could really start working this Melaleuca but I struggle with advertising and sales work. I would need coaching and support. Tried to get a zoom meeting with the training person for the Calgary area before Christmas but wasn’t able to. I need to get a hold of her again. That would be ideal as it would be a steady, residual income that would allow me to slow down, travel or live anywhere.

I’m killing time. Going in to work late. Since I have to work Sundays, I take the time off on Friday to balance it. I can’t justify working more than 50 hours a week. Not that much valid work. I be off at 2:30 today and will go to that little western store and see what they have for boots. Not expecting too much as its a small store, but we’ll see. It’s cold (mid 40s), windy, cloudy and damp (70% humidity). Horrible weather. Hope it clears up for tomorrow!

Have an awesome weekend!
Smiles,
Rhonda

[Rhonda R]

Hi, Heidi,
Well, so much for making brownies tonight. Tomorrow is the last day for one of our guys and I was going to make brownies to take in. I’m out of butter and too lazy to run into town to get some.

Yeah, I got depressed last night. Today was better. There was a little of “what’s wrong with me” but not as much as I’ve had before. Actually……. I was thinking today… last time he texted he said we’d make memories when we meet then he disappeared. ????? Is it just me, or is something not quite right there. He also told me he doesn’t have internet at home and has to go to the coffee shop for WIFI. He also said he was out of data on his phone in Dec and had to wait almost a week to get new data in Jan. So that tells me he has a low data plan. But I see he’s on Zoosk every time I log in and he’s active out there. That takes either data or WIFI. Again, is it just me or is something not adding up? Can’t say I’m terribly impressed. I felt all along he wasn’t really that interested. Yeah, last night I let it get to me, but I kind of liked him, but wasn’t head over heels for him. Something never quite felt right.

No, its more of YEAH!!! 78 more days till I can get home and I can get back to the mountains!!! Well, it will be more than that as chances are I’ll have to quarantine for 2 weeks, but at least I’ll be home. Its not so much about torture and suffering as looking forward to being home again and go kayaking and hiking and go for photo trips. All the things I love doing. Back home a couple of the meetup groups are quite active with walks and other outdoor activities, so looking forward to that.

Here? I do feel good when I know I’m making a difference at work and I’d say pretty much everyone there likes me and appreciates me. I might see if Zulay wants to walk the levee again on Fridays – when the weather gets better. Tomorrow I’ll go to the other western store to see about a pair of boots. There really is nothing here to look forward to, nothing to do. We don’t do anything as a group like normally happens on a project because of COVID, so no one’s going out to eat. Some of the guys used to golf, but I think Randy’s the only one golfing now, and number 1, I don’t golf and 2, I don’t feel comfortable going with just Randy. He has a girlfriend back home.

Smiles,
Rhonda

[Rhonda R]

I’m thinking of trying https://personaltouchcalgary.ca/. What I wish is I could go on some mock dates with a guy and get some feedback. I’m obviously doing something wrong, but I don’t know what it is. I’m pretty sure I came across too strong with Russell.

[Rhonda R]

I’m quite depressed. Russell’s still quite active on Zoosk. I’m sure he’s gone. I think I’d do better if I could meet someone in person, but then again, I haven’t done well, there, either. Feeling quite depressed tonight.

[Rhonda R]

Thanks, Kanya,
Nothing from Russell today, either. I’m thinking I won’t hear from him again. He’s been texting so nothing to do with his WIFI. It’s tough to date when I’m 2000 miles from home and working 50 hour weeks.

LOL. I have a countdown calendar in my office that I’m marking off every day and also one in my apartment. 🙂 79 more days tomorrow! Yeah!!! Under 80 now.

Smiles,
Rhonda

[Rhonda R]

Hi, Kanya,
Thanks for the thoughts. LOL. No, not interested in going anywhere but home. Time is ticking and I need to get home for my citizenship. And I do miss my friends there. Can’t wait to get back to the mountains.

Yes, I can jump up and down. Tomorrow is 80 days till my last day here. Still hoping something will come along to get me home sooner, but not expecting it. No, I don’t thing I’m afraid of looking for joy. I’m certainly not aware of any fear of being disappointed. I did make it a point to enjoy my walks at work and enjoy the sunshine the last couple days.

Haven’t heard from Russell in 3 days now. Have not a clue what’s happening with him. He tends to disappear for several days at a time and I never know if I’ll hear from him again or not. Does not give me warm fuzzies that he’s really interested.

Smiles,
Rhonda

[Rhonda R]

Hi, Kanya,
I liked that article. Thank you. I will try asking myself questions…… LOL (big grin) like How can I survive the next 83 days?!

I have started getting out for a walk during the work day. The laydown yard is pretty empty now and its about 1/2 mile round trip, so about 10 min walk. Gets me away from the computer.

I think I stated that wrong. Russell seems more serious and does NOT bring out that playful side. Extremely few men do. But that’s ok. I’m finding more and more he’s thoughtful and I like that. Texted for a bit last night but have not heard from him yet today. And that’s ok. I’m sure he’ll text when he’s ready.

I’m starting to send out feelers for other jobs when this is done. A former co-worker just posted jobs for a construction company in Edmonton on LinkedIn. I wouldn’t fit a construction company very well, but I messaged him and asked if he knew of any projects that could use my skills. I’ll contact a couple more former managers here in the next week or so and probably pay to have my resume professionally updated.

Gotta go get lunches made for the week, do some housecleaning and place my Walmart curb-side pick up order. Also will start packing! It was a 4.5 hour work day today for me. Too bad as the weather today is much nicer than yesterday.

Hope you’re enjoying your day.

Smiles,
Rhonda

[Rhonda R]

Hi, Heidi,
Thanks. Yes, this is a totally uncomfortable environment for me. Pretty negative and depressing environment. Today is 46ish cloudy, 73% humidity. Yuck, yuck, yuck. I’ll take 25 and even a light snow over this junk and definitely 25 and sunny with 6″ new snow on the ground beats this all to pieces! I’ll go do that boring, noisy 5-mile loop just to get out of the house. Need to get ear plugs for when the path goes under hwy 10, though. Boring and noisy, but a nice 5-mile loop for exercise.

Thanks. I’ll let the thing with Robin go. That just wasn’t going to work for me, even though he was telling me the night before I backed off how important I was to him. So, over, done, time to move on.

Russell? Just texting for now. He hasn’t called and he’s using internet at Tims occasionally. He doesn’t have internet at home so no video calling. LOL. He’d be pretty dense if he didn’t feel like I like him. If anything I’ve felt like I’ve come on too strong. I told him New Years Eve I was watching the fireworks in Dubai and wished he was here to watch them with me. Maybe a little too strong of a message. He said he wasn’t sure if he was going snow shoeing this weekend as he didn’t want to go alone. I told him I’d volunteer to go if I were there. I asked if he kayaked. He said No, but he would try it. I told him he was on and I have 2 kayaks sitting in my back yard. So flirting? Not quite the teasing, playful flirting I think of when I think of flirting. I really enjoy a playful, teasing, flirting banter but there are very few men that can bring that out of me, that I feel comfortable doing that with, that respond with the same playful banter. No phone call yet and 10-15 min of texting doesn’t really let you get to know someone. His pics on Zoosk are mostly outdoor activities, including one of hang gliding. I know he’s a strong Christian and a relationship with God is important to him and I know he loves being outdoors and enjoys outdoor activities. I think 2 kids – one an hour north of him and one over on Vancouver Island. He’s a widower. Don’t remember how long ago his wife passed away. So we’ll see. Potential.

I’m trying to get some motivation up to head up to LSU Lake. Tough to work up the motivation when its this yucky out. Its much more of an “I can’t stand to sit in this apartment any more!” rather than, “Hey that walk would be fun.” Saw a couple small flocks of geese this morning and saw some swan flying over while I was driving home the other day.

Canadian border has tightened up again. I’d have to have proof of a negative COVID test 3 days prior to entering Canada and then I couldn’t tell. I might have to still quarantine for 14 days even with a negative test. Which is stupid, but there’s way too much stupidity with this COVID stuff. So we’ll see what the rules are end of March. Hopefully they’ll loosen up some. I can understand the requirement for a negative test, but I don’t understand the quarantine on top of a negative test. I still say numbers are inflated by at least 30%. Worley is just as stupid as everyone else. One of our men had been exposed to someone who tested positive. The guy who tested positive was back in 10 days, but Scott, with 3 negative tests still had to stay out 14 days. Stupid. Now we have to turn in a self assessment every day…. have you been traveling domestically or internationally in the last 14 days. And we have to answer that daily?????? Stupid.

Ok. Enough venting. I have to get out of here before I go totally insane.
84 more days!!!!! Can’t wait!

Smiles,
Rhonda

[Rhonda R]

Ha. I tried to go look for a new pair of riding boots as there’s a boot shop less than a mile from here. It was dumpy, cluttered, crowded. I walked out after 5 minutes. There’s one other western store I’ll try, but quite honestly, I find the majority of stores around here to be dumpy and dirty. Yuck. So I don’t even go shopping!

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