[Gerry P]

Heidi,
Thank you so much for your response! Of course, it made me cry! lol But, I think I needed to see the words from someone trained, like you, to make it set in! They are things I’ve told myself a million times, but I can always find a way to rationalize it in my head and heart!

Now to answer your questions!

1. Whatever is happening with your health, is it something that is able to be resolved?
Unfortunately no. There are some things I can and have done to reduce UTIs, but I don’t always know when I get them, and this has led to me going septic. I have almost died a few times from it. The other health issues are not resolvable, however, I don’t let them stop me from doing things!

2. I am wondering…have you been holding onto this guy partly because he accepts you in your wheelchair?

I can say no to this, as I have been in relationships since I met him. It was a lot harder when I was younger to find someone that was okay with it, but I haven’t really had a problem with it for the past 12–13 years. I think it’s me standing in the way of myself, to be honest! lol I have never felt the way I feel for him about anyone else, and no one has made me feel the way he makes me feel, so I think that’s why I’ve held on for all these years. I believe he is my soul mate, but like you said, I can’t make him emotionally available to me. So, I have a lot of soul-searching to do so that I can stop this hurt that I have been allowing!

Thanks so much again for your words, and your time! I’d love to hear your thoughts on how to let this go, if you ever have a chance! God bless you and your family, Heidi!

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