[Celia C]

I was wondering im going to georgìâ for an interview next week I did send him an email not sure he hasn’t messaged me back should I call him on another number bc I wanna get my stuff there but wanted to let him know but he hasn’t emailed or reply back? I hope he’s ok but my stuff there i have expensive stuff so I wanna be able to get that out unless I get the job.

[Celia C]

And I don’t believe that is him it’s his emotions that are controlling him to do this stuff my opinion bc he knows that ticks me and I’m sure he’s hiding his emotions through these drugs bc he doesn’t want to heal which is why he’s doing this. He’s not doing drugs bc of me it’s bc his family technically disowned him and hate him they do nothing for him and talk down on him which is sad. And yes I do listen to him but I just think it was nice to dump all that info in three days and think I’m good feel good about myself when he’s going through that when he know I got problems at home too. Cuz if I didn’t leave back down here I would be fine up there. Peaceful and calm. And yes I know he needs professional help but if he’s using me for saying I’m his therapist don’t u think that’s him not getting the real help I told him before he didn’t want to bc money issues and such which his family downed him on his to waste and not waste him money he would have been successful if his family let him be the way he wanted to be and I told him don’t listen to his family and try baby steps. If he don’t try and I can’t control him. But at least I was telling him what he needs to hear not to listen to them cuz they aren’t helping him. I just praying I been going to the church last Sunday and I will try and talk to some counselor and such im feeling a bit better and I’m trying my best to not worry about him. I’m gonna let him be until I can try my best to be how I was when we were living together i know he can be better just needa that push not sure how but i know he can.
Celia

[Celia C]

Hi Heidi

Im ok now I got a book and talks about similar things like this one I’m only saying about the drug thing cuz the book does say when he does love u and when he does feel the way in the book that he will stop these things and first I have to figure me out and he has to do the same but if he doesn’t know how to deal with these emotions by himself not with a person is all I’m trying to figure to give him maybe a book or something i will give him the book when im done its really good i don’t really read books so this one is very good im on 50 pages its called from thr inside out a counterintuitive approach to re attracting an ex by max jancar

Celia

[Celia C]

And I don’t believe that’s who he is that’s satan controlling his emotions no one is like this satan goes into the minds and f ppl up. Like literally I have bad thoughts too but I don’t do it I may say it but I don’t do it but if someone pushes me to the point I might but no one dare has, so that’s why I’m strength.
He said he’s been reading the Bible more well either that or praying so maybe he will but idk get better but he needs to communicate instead of shut ppl out if he doesn’t like what I said bc my friend communicates with me even tho he don’t like what I say too he says what about on his mind and helps me which he’s thoughtful and older and more knowledgeable and he’s gotten better too he says back then I used to be bad and such and I’m more calmer now.

I think if he did communicate and not get so defensive and shut me out would be more nicer to me like I’m technically disabled so not talking to me doesn’t help me learn and grow which is a relationship we have to learn and grow together not shut me out and me being an idoit trying to figure what the f I did wrong on my own and ask here for help which is pretty sad bc I don’t have that support system of other ppl bc I don’t have many friends that I wanna talk to in that level.

• This reply was modified 6 months, 3 weeks ago by Celia C.

[Celia C]

I don’t think it’s fair for him to talk to me about his problems if he doesn’t want me helping simple as that he should keep those specific things to himself bc he knows I like to help and or unless he wanted me to fail and mess up again that wasn’t fair. I would have appreciated if he also didn’t info dump me with whatever he did and that when his grandma died he did coke just bc he doesn’t know how to handle himself bc he never saw his grandma again since the last time me and him saw each other I helped him a lot he only saw her maybe one or two times he told me, but I didn’t stay bc my new job that I thought I was gonna have was there but it wasn’t there. He’s probably still upset he shouldn’t have called I knew from his way of speaking he wasn’t but he did vent to me and he shouldn’t have and I gave him my time which he should have talked about good things more instead of venting about what happened the Months he was away from ME when I have a fragile mind. He knows I don’t like drugs and shyt too why u think he told me? If he knew I’m not a druggy or like ppl talking about that garbage.

He shouldn’t have tryed asking for my help with these things if he didn’t want my advice or whatever he was thinking, it’s not fair to someone who has adhd and Autistic to be Info dumping like that. He liked me cuz I wasn’t druggy like all his dumb friend were so why info dump me? So ur saying I should worry about him bc that’s not right bc I want him alive not dead somewhere. He’s targeted I want him safe but his emotional mind keeps him thinking he’s being followed and such and my other friends says the same thing but he don’t care and wish he had that type of mentality but cancer and Leo’s are different we strength and I wish he had that but no one wanna give me the info on how to help him by talking and such. He just I guess doesn’t have money to get real help even tho he spent it all idk on what but hopefully he will get the help he does cuz I’m getting older and I right now isn’t the time to info dump certain problems on my mind that he’s the one who said bad things when I was just trying to help that’s like he don’t know me and just blert out I hate u or something from my helping and knowing that I help a lot that he could have been more gentle and cancer like instead of hastal and just Ignor what I said and not even answer to it too so I can understand him if he was lieing or not.

Plus his mother was an achholic she never helped him or his family ever helped him so he never got the help he needed so that’s a main issue too she didn’t care while I do. He almost got killed by some guy and she never took him to the hospital he was in his room 7 days or something till he got better he was very injured.
After mark gave him or who ever drugged him with flaka or meth he changed a lot it’s very upsetting to me even my friend said drugs change ppl I remember joe also saying I never used to be like this but how can any one help him with this issue?? Idk if the doc can. Maybe herbal stuff .

[Celia C]

Yeha Heidi
Wasn’t sure but I reread one of ur messages not sure if I did wrote it but he lives in another state so we haven’t talked in person he can only text or call but he probably blocked me again which is silly but whatever.
He still has my stuff anyway so there will always be a connection 😂😂 I’m trying but idk how long should I wait to email him if I do? I don’t want wait another month 🙁 and or something but I understand I need to work on myself but I don’t want him doing drug again I feel like he never has anyone to talk to his family are never there for him like I was.

[Celia C]

He never called me that before I’m assuming he’s have problems he’s just I guess doesnt know how to handle his life but isn’t there something i can say to open his mind about not like communicating and shuting down instead of communicating the right way and not to over react on things like I was just trying to help bc i was worried about him and the cat and he told me he was gonna see go through the garbage and that was his neighbors which its illegal to get someones trash i didnt want him going to jail for that i was worried about him i didnt tel him that bc he wanted to know.why about just why i talked to them it was his phone service shutting me down fast cuz i just said okay so your not having problems with your phone and then he didnt answer my question first.i know right now supposedly he isnt well he has no money and still thinks to not have a job. I can’t help with that. Or his martial arts bc he has to want to do it I just tried motivating when i lived up there that we can together but the psychic said alot of thjngs which I understand why hes acting like that and at the time i didnt know that men dont like help thats why i said ok i wont worry about u for now.

[Celia C]

Is there anyway where there is a message u can make that like the way he’s speaking to me isn’t communication it’s horrible the way es talking to me like I understand I didn’t say right things but he knows I have a social Issue like I have adhd like doesn’t he know I can’t understand things like normal ppl yet he’s using slang and terms I don’t know if that’s why I asked I don’t understand
(Wtf, was a mistake to talk to you you are psycho.)

[Celia C]

Hello Heidi
I contacted the same company that he told me to get messager from he just has issues I will post what he said and what I said but I think respect that he calls me these things he’s younger then he I don’t call ever him pycho or slut and shyt before and his has the f adasoty to

[Celia C]

I told him I was happy with him with the good stuff he said tho but I don’t remember much. Like I’m.wondering if he called those few days to vent or what I’m very confused sad sucks. Cuz he stopped talking. ???? I wanna know if there is a way to ask him that or I shouldn’t??? It’s not fair to me to be used like what he said therapist everyone says I’m like help them vent and shyt. But he’s not texting and he was being a lot for those days. He does know I work but I don’t work full time.

I just sent him. Have a good sunny day.

• This reply was modified 6 months, 3 weeks ago by Celia C.

[Celia C]

Ohh he lives in another state I was wondering maybe I was a bit to needy like ? Idk I mean when he explained what happened to him those past days I told him only things that affected me. Might just get another job soon stressing 🥺. Sucks bc I love helping ppl. But I guess I did something wrong? But I saw in one of post from a forum that tying to help someone can be to needy? Idk how I can fix that cuz idk if it’s his phone or me or he just wanna be alone??

[Celia C]

Last message was the first

I sent this 4:11pm since I finished work. Sent through messenger he uses
——– Original Message ——–
Ok so ur not having problems with your phone?
——– Original Message ——–
He sent this in the chat message he uses at 1:34pm
Yea im just wondering why you tried contacting my phone company on my behalf, dont do that.

——– Original Message ——–
Today 12:52pm I sent this,
Huh what do u mean I thought u couldn’t get a hold of them to fix ur service? I just asked for there email that’s all how is that what u said I never even heard of that nor ever someone would say that to me my friends love when I help them out very odd u wouldn’t? are u upset again? I guess I’m just gonna not worry about u right now bc seems like u still need to work on urself. I thought that email u sent was truthful 😔

——– Original Message ——–
On Tuesday, April 30th, 2024 at 12:07 PM, he wrote:
Wtf dont do that thats way overbounds wtf

——– Original Message ——–
On 4/29/24 10:50 PM, I wrote:
Hi Joe 🤗

So I contacted the 4freedom bc I wanted to help u with ur phone service problem so I found they have an email and the guy said (Currently, we do not have a direct phone line to customer support. We look to schedule calls with users after receiving a chat/email request, and we will use a work line to get ahold of the user.)

[email protected]

The chat one

4freedommobile.com/help-center

I hope this helps.

You make me feel happy every time we talk on the phone can’t wait to hear your velvety voice again ☺️ 🤗

Ttyl Joe, sincerely Celia~

• This reply was modified 6 months, 3 weeks ago by Celia C.

[Celia C]

Not sure if I did f up again 🥺😫 but not sure if he wasn’t talking to me or not??? Idk what’s up with him.

[Celia C]

Hi Heidi
Ohh no I was asking what if bc I don’t know either his phones broken or his service is messed up cuz I know it happens a lot with him and just asking. Ima read the rest in a bit 🙂

Celia

[Celia C]

Hi Heidi

Yeah I suppose yeah I’m being patient so how would I help his self esteem 🙁 I don’t wanna rush really but what if that just talking pushes him away too? I’m not sure how man think but I know my joe i just wish I knew how I can talk because I’m not good with words I guess sometimes I get stuck or can’t say what I can I did talk to him three days I think but his phone is messed up it even happened last year too always something comes up but we do get in touch again he did tell me why he changed his number bc he don’t know how to unblock ppl and I know it’s crazy I just need to teach him 🙂 we don’t live close. So he also got a fre€don phone that is a special phone service but I guess they are trying to mess with his phone or the charger is messing up his phone cuz not sure if he does treat his phones good.

The other guy doesn’t talk much to me but the Leo one does which he knows that I wanna be with joe and that he accepts it I will try and talk to him soon again about joe I think he does wanna help me with him too but I just wanna not talk about us type stuff to joe yet I think the Leo wants me to but I think I forgot what he said bc I think we did talk today but I don’t remember much, but I do need my space too bc of the stress at work and such I did feel better when I lived with joe compare to my mom and sis.

• This reply was modified 6 months, 3 weeks ago by Celia C.

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