[Dianaemanuela T]

I don’t think it’s his choice alone to break up. He has problems at work and I was wrong when i didn’t understand that and kept talking about marriage and kids. It’s the first time I wanted that and until recently I didn’t show him that I want that and he talked about that and I wanted to show him that I love him and I truly believe he’s the one. I didn’t say that to pressure him. Disscusions arose when he answered my desires of marriage and kids with sadness and silence. There where times when he answered sweetly, than with “be patient”, then by being sad and rejecting my dreams of these things. Of course I confronted him and he said that he wants to break up. This was in December the last year. We had a fight and he said that I have the occasion to prove to him that I’m for him by behaving adequately on Christmas and the years around New Year because some friends from another town came to visit. I refused to go with them on the first day they arrived because I was still sad, I didn’t feel well and I simply wanted to stay home. He said that this decision of mine wieghted a lot in his decision to break up. Interestingly enough, he searched for me before telling him that I don’t think he’s taken this decision alone and that this is really what he wants. He showed sadness when I was sitting close to him, than moving a little farther, he expressed this verbally!”come closer. Why are you sitting there?” He searched for my hand in bed when we were sleeping, he hugged me, kissed my forehead, he smiled whenever I smiled, he asked (still asks me) me what’s wrong if he sees me upset. He claims he doesn’t love me anymore but those actions were so pure and spoke love to me. He also seems to mistake me and my personality with the one I had in the past when I was depressed, that I don’t like people (I like people! I love having guests and dancing but he doesn’t believe me. He thinks I’m lying) tgat I like sleeping (I don’t! Now I sleep a lot becuase I’m upset)..he doesn’t want to see me as I am truly am! He says that fights like ours are unheard of, that we’re not compatible if we fight. Really? Everyone fights! Maybe others fight more ugly than we do. He doesn’t see those fights like I do. If today we were upset with one another, the other day, either him or me will ask for forgiveness. He doesn’t want to see the positive aspects of our relationship. Our strong bond anymore. He said that there are any positive aspects! He was the one pleading me to have a leap of faith, to believe in us. Now he seems a different person. Sincerily, he’s began to change when he’s began his terapy. And for the worse. I’m not saying that he has something to do with that therapist, but I really think that her approach in fixing his anger disorders, she counsels him to reject me. And I’M NOT THE CAUSE OF HIS ANGER! HE SAID THAT IN THE PAST! THAT I’M NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR HIS ANGER AND NOW HIS DISCOUSE CHANGED! of course I think that he is wrong! Of course I think that because I cannot recognize neither his personality nor his words in how he speaks to me now! He now sees me as the root of all his problems and doesn’t want to see that. This is not him and he never was. He’s manipulated into thinking I’m the monster making him angry and mad. I am not

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