[Strand J]

We had been with each other 3 months so it was fresh. And very good right from the start. We clicked on every level, like we knew one another forever. Like never before with anyone! We both said that actually.
I know I did things wrong due to my history and I know he has a history with his ex wife and unfortunately he owns a business with his ex wife and she loves to nag him and dig into his life which doesn’t help. He shuts down when to many people are pushing I think, mind you I was learning things still. You definitely think his ex wife was a huge negative in his life. And I pushed a bit too much a few times and my apologies made a difference at first then I yelled at him upset that he was being a jerk, which I promised I wouldn’t do. But I was sad. And confused. He said I won and that is the last I heard from him. He messaged saying he needs his space and he was busy.
But again from what I know he had been in a 16 year marriage, held down, we were different fun, new, and then communication was difficult over a few things one being his ex, and her involvement in us.
So, I don’t know if I should message him ask if he is okay, I am worried about him. He is much like me, emotional, yet strong on the outside. My gut feeling says he is just hurt he even said I hurt his feelings.
I pulled away scared weeks prior. Not wanting to go places with him. I made a mistake and he is holding me accountable. As I should be. But to an extreme, which I don’t feel is fair.
Weather this is because he is scared of his feelings about us, or getting hurt more, or what. I’m am not sure.
But I love him! And don’t want to give up on him. Being around him felt so natural. Felt like my other half that had been missing. He knew my horrible past and never skipped a beat accepted me for me. Until this.
So it doesn’t make sense.
See why I am confused.
Please help me

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