My head understands and agrees with all you say above. I deserve someone who can give back what I put into the relationship. My heart is just not there. It is so hard to find someone you connect with like we did so I am struggling with that aspect. I think if this was a year from now our story could of been different and I am so tired of timing being an issue for me. But no I don’t want a roller coaster ride, I could tell he had those moments. One minute everything was great then I could tell he was feeling scared with it all. I am probably not making any sense but all of this has been pretty confusing on my end.