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I love him for the good times, the memories we made and share, our son who we promised not to raise in a broken home, the family we were supposed to be. He had flaws but he also had a lot of good. He did all of the transporting and taking kids here and there while I worked, he kept the house clean, he fixed my food, he did so much. We promised each other forever and I am devastated. He did not drink again after what happened and was truly sorry. I made such a mistake to leave and now it is just too late. He tells me he does not want me, does not love me, he is happy with this woman who makes him happy and makes him feel alive and it is my fault because I left. If I didn’t leave he would have stayed loyal but he said I made that choice and he has moved on and is in love with this person. He tells me I need to date and find a man. My heart is so broken.
We were together 2 years and have a son who is a year old. I have 7 other children and he has 8 other children. My 2nd oldest who is now 19 was still living at home because of the passing of my grandma, so she chose to do college online for a year. When my grandma died last September, who we were very very close to it was devastating. There were some things that happened, such as my partner exploding while my daughter was in the car about me saying I was going to go without him to view my gma and say goodbye (her funeral was in another state). He lost his mind and threatened to kill me and my kids. Then at her funeral he went on a drunken binge because the plan was he would stay in the room with our son due to Covid and not wanting to expose him. Once we got to the hotel, I had to run my daughter to the bank and he had a fit because he didn’t want to be stuck in the room. So he went to the hotel bar and had a 3 day binge where he was beyond wasted. The night of before her funeral I took our son and stayed in my other daughters room with all of my kids to talk about gma and grieve together. He came pounding on the door at 130 in the morning demanding our son. He was wasted so I also went back to our room where he kept me up the rest of the night verbally assaulting me about all kinds of things. He also had told all the kids to leave the room earlier that day except my 2 oldest daughters and he proceeded to tell my oldest how great and wonderful she is and then say really mean things about my 2nd oldest. So, this caused my 19 year old daughter to hate him. And regardless that he apologized later, she would not forgive him and would not speak to him and it made extreme tension in the house. They would also have verbal fights on occasion that got really out of hand. He said because of how I let my kids treat him he became really disrespectful to me. He kept me up all the time verbally bashing me and my kids. He hates my daughter. He started calling me the “n” word when we would fight. So I decided to move out to release all the tension. Now he tells me everything is my fault. If I wouldn’t have moved he wouldn’t be with this woman. I abandoned him and his kids and we are over. He said yesterday that after spending the weekend at the beach with this woman, they are totally committed and he only wants her. He just repeats that if I wouldn’t have done what I did we would still be together, it was my choice to leave for my daughter and now it is too late. My heart hurts so bad.
