[Madea B]

Thank you so much for putting it that way way. I love how you provide feedback to everyone in such a kind manner. I’ve noticed that many of the questions posted here are quite obvious to an outsider. And pondered on why I find it so difficult to see the obvious in my own situation. In the past I have been drawn to controlling narcissists. A very unhealthy pattern for me. When I found this guy it was so different I felt like we had such a deep connection because we both are broken in the same way. It’s like I need someone as broken as me. He is suppose to fly out tomorrow night and I’m already waiting for his disappearance. You have definitely helped me see reality. He wants me to move to Washington if things go as planned. (If he ever decides to show up…) I am finally stable in a good place financially and mentally after my divorce from a 18 year marriage. It was a long difficult road I didn’t know if I’d survive. So Realistically how could I give that up to start at the bottom again where I may not get back up from. My rational mind sees this but I pray my emotion mind cooperates. I have not been known to make the best decisions. But I’m too old to risk such big mistakes. Im 46 he’s 42. Watch this will be the time he shows up. Sheesh. If he doesn’t I do think it will be easier for me to let him go. But if he does show up I may be posting again.

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