Thanks for your response. I do have one more question on this same topic. About a yr ago I did for the first time in the 12 yrs and started to chat with a guy who was 15 yrs younger than me. It’s seemed to be comfortable with both of us, until about two months into it he got angry alot. He would of course apologize, until one day with no warning he ghosted me. I called a few times finally he answered. He didn’t know who I was but figuring it out he said loose his number, I did. Out of the blue I get a hello on my fb. He is all humble now. I opened my heart up to him to easy, it hurt me bad. Now he is back and I’m guarded big time. I don’t know how to react to him afraid of getting hurt again but my feelings for him hasn’t died. Help