[Rama H]

Hi Heidi,

Thanks for your response. It’s been really hard for me to accept that I had no control over how I felt and that I did the best I could do at the time, but I’m getting there. I keep wishing that he can see that too because right now I think he doesn’t really understand that and just sees me as the person who broke him.

I am currently on medication, yes, which has been a struggle for me to find what works but my doctor and I are working on it. I am also seeing a therapist to work through the heavy emotions and thought patterns. I am also doing my best to write, meditate, do yoga, feel my feelings (as painful and overwhelming as they are). I am more invested in healing and tackling my depression and anxiety more than ever before. In my letter to him, I expressed that I was trying my best to work on myself and that I had even started seeing a therapist. You mentioned that he needs to know and see that I am dealing with my depression differently than before. How can I get him to see that when he isn’t speaking to me?

Also, the last time we had met (before I gave him the letter) he said that he didn’t have feelings for me. I know you can’t read his mind but do you think that’s true? Why would it be so painful for him to be friends with me if he has no feelings?

Thanks,

R

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