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Sure.. Here is the email, after our last exchange that did not turn out well.
“Yesterday did not go as I would have hoped or wished. I am sad that our relationship went from me thinking I would spend my life with you to now fussing in a parking lot outside of a restaurant we use to have so much fun in.
I had a lot of trouble sleeping last night, I by no means intended to hurt you. The question, My question: Why would someone have to check on you at the graduation party to make sure you were ok?, that I asked I felt was a legitimate question, I was hoping that would help us get to the root of the issue. I am worried about what that may confirm to me.
I often wish I would have never gone to the graduation party, maybe we would still be together. I don’t know why certain topics for us are so explosive. You often say I don’t understand your point of view, but I am trying to understand it and help you through it.
I realized I haven’t done a good job with allowing you to be vulnerable with me, to trust me with your deepest fears, hurts and pain… maybe I am not sure how to do that. For the life of me, I don’t understand your stance on the question or often the response I get when certain things are inquired upon. I really work hard to personally open up to you, be transparent, honest, and very open to you, for me, I have always felt there was never a topic, in concern to me, that we could not discuss.
to continue to be transparent… I find myself wanting to just hold you and kiss you and make it better, even when we first got together, Your eyes, I see a fragile, hurt, kind, loving soul. That I want to make better.. But I can’t make you better, also at the same time I want to cry on your shoulder because I was hoping we could make each other better. (as we know I am not perfect)
I will of course, give you all the space you need. Our interaction yesterday was painful to me, even my very basic childish comments of dating, was very uncalled for. For that – Please forgive me
I often imagined us growing old together, taking trips, laughing together. I truly believed that God sent the one, YOU, to me… I was/is hoping that I was not wrong, so it has been a tough thing to let go of.
I don’t expect a response you don’t have to… But I wanted you to know that what happened yesterday was not what I would have wanted for either of us. ”This was sent on 7/30 I called before he didnt’ answer the call thus an email. He has not replied nor answered the call.
I had a really good god mom call him she was very supportive of us being together (He has heard about how special she is to me) he didn’t answer the phone and she left a message, no callback from him.. I did call yesterday 8/4 just to say “He seems to be mad at me, i would love to discuss the email i sent, and told him that she called him and if he has a second please call her back she is very supportive of us, and knows how happy I was when we were together, don’t feel the need to talk ” as of today he has not called her back.
Just to note (Graduation Party was for his daughter who is 18, but it was given by His Ex Wife, Mothers/Fathers home) it was a horrible experience for me, he didn’t make me feel special and did not introduce me as his fiance’, and when I question why was he so distant there, he gets very defensive. I think there are some unresolved issues but not sure if I made it a safe environment for him to discuss with me.. btw Ex Wife Boyfriend was there also.
I do like what you said to write, but i am sure now is not the time.. Let me know your thoughts.. Sorry, my response is so wordy!! :
