[Viktoria C]

I forgot to answer your question about his intention. He always had said that he wanted to be sure about us. He’s been through pain with his wife. He’s hurt in many ways. His childhood was very difficult. He didn’t receive much love.
He said that he had strong feelings for me and that he wanted to wait to see me in person to tell me how he felt. Then COVID happened.

[Viktoria C]

Hey Kanya,

Thank you for your reply.
What he meant in terms of volatile is that we had a fight, I asked him if he hopes that things would work out with his wife again. That question was triggered by the fact that he has been doing a lot of projects on his house. He lives with his wife and children. His responds to my question was: “I don’t think so.” It made me upset because I was hoping a no answer. I have a difficult controlling my feelings so I told him to not talk to me anymore but of course I didn’t mean it. He told me that it broke the trust between us. From that moment on things changed. We still talked every day on the phone or texted until a few weeks later. There was that day where he was distance and I asked him what’s been going on and he said that he was very stressed and worried about many things and the things between us didn’t make it easier. There was also jealousy from his side as described above.
He didn’t like the fact that I was looking for an definite answer from him in terms of how he feels about me. I was too pushy from his point of view. He also said that he had to stop looking for proof in terms of his jealousy.
He didn’t talk to me for a few days. I freaked out and texted him telling him how much I like him and how difficult it has been without him and that I wanted him to be honest with me. The next day he broke it off. It was too difficult for him and he said that we both needed some time.

Of course I was heartbroken and that’s when I found out about the hero instinct.

During the 5 1/2 months we would see each other 2-3 times a week until COVID started, we were intimate as well. I believe that things might have been different if COVID didn’t happened. The last time we saw each other was mid March. The breakup occurred June 1st.

I have been using the hero instinct as mentioned above which seems to be working?
He has messaged me during work hours almost every day. We work together. We also have been talking on the phone for 2-3 hours 1-2 times a week. He doesn’t get in touch with me on the weekends or after work or when he was on vacation.

Due to COVID I don’t know when I will see him again.

What do you think of my situation?

Thank you

[Viktoria C]

Thank you, Jade. I appreciate your feedback. It is just a scary situation because I do not want to loose him…

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