[Lau H]

Ohh i didnt respond to his video thou, shld i respond?

[Lau H]

Hello! He come and squeeze my cheeks jn,then said smth like: finally smile,happy.

Im so happy,what shld i do next, shld i text him?

[Lau H]

Any form of respond i shld or shld not give? Like since its a food video: can i reply like: cook for me lah or lets go thr together!

Is that ok? Or anything is fine?

[Lau H]

How i love and support myself is thru shopping, splurging money go drinking, buy what i wan etc. But now no finance to do that. And a lil busy to do that now.

So i respond to him later? Since he send the video yst?

[Lau H]

Hello! He send me a food video,no captions, im so happy, have yet to reply, how shld i respond?

Going drinking, but not good for health. Better today, still a little nervous when i see him.

[Lau H]

Just cant help it, i just keep missing him every day. His always on my mind.

[Lau H]

Business getting abit busy but i need to face him everyday also. I just feel missing and lost and kind of like pc of me missing. Feel like crying everytime i rmb and think. What can I do?

[Lau H]

Yups today 17th March 2020, nopes i didnt managed to pass to him, cuz this morning my grandfather emergency so couldnt to his house to pass to him.

I dont mind to give everything to him, until month end, then mayb we can talk it out?

[Lau H]

Oh i see, i did let him know after this month perhaps we can talk about it. He say see how. See his mood. When I see him in office today, he walked pass, my heart was pounding so hard. The feeling of like nervous dk what to react, and the feeling of missing him. And perhaps the feeling of guilty, idk scared of him. What if he leave me, what am I gonna do without him?

He ask me to put this portable charger into his bag, then i saw the file and logo. Thats all, and noticed he keep gg to a couple of places frequently. Once i did ask him whr he gg and what his doing thr. He got angry, ask me dun busy body and give him private time to do his personal things(insurance). But i kept quiet for months. Dk why that day on sat, cant take it anymore just curious and ask him whether isit the insurance thing,then he flare up and things happened.

To me, i see it as, he angry cuz i found out that he doing insurance when by right not supposed to in the industry. And mentioned bout trust, shldnt he trust that and tell me also? To be more open of whr he go and what he do. I understand that i can be clingy and overasked. I just feel everything is my fault that causes it today.

I understand that i crossed the line, i apologied. And his response is dun bother apologising and saying sorry. And my mind blank, idk what to say or do to lessen his anger. I scared whatever i say or do fires him up more instead so didnt do much

[Lau H]

So i do trust him, as much as possible. Some times i admit that I overthink also. Which sometimes, do anger him or make him annoyed.

What shld i do now? Shld I just do nothing and dont text him now?

Hope to get a reply from you soon, thanks so much!!

[Lau H]

Hanging out is just start of this month only liddat. We do celebrate monthsaries. He does call me his girl friend. Future we did talk about, but most times like he will shy away. I do believe starting he is committed to this relationship. Its just recently this month starting to change.

Hiding of relationship is also partially like i dun want to also to share to others. I did suspect like January, but i did ask him, but he say no, like nth. They do work together also, so im not too sure too!

[Lau H]

My grandfather just got admitted to hospital. Shld i use that as a reason to meet him and cry in his arms?

[Lau H]

Shld I even wish him 1 year anniversary also? Since havent state officially break up or anything.

[Lau H]

Sure. Yups dating for a year, tmr is our anniversary. Not sure shld i pass him a gift anot.

Last time we did talk and all also, he will feedback sometimes im too sticky and clingy, so i did take note of it as well.

Basically, in our like of work(direct sales), we are not allowed to do insurance, bcos its a clash of interest. I alr knew it many months ago, bcos he ask to keep his portable in his bag and I saw all the paper works. But i didnt say anything
Then normally he will go out and he doing his own things(which is insurance). So recently he went to the area again so i was just casually like ask: oh insurance one ah? Then he flared up at me at the text, ask me dun busy body, thats his private life and privacy. Talked about no trust.he not gonna trust my words anymore.

Previously before we got together, had an episode of such, cuz he was attached, but we did hug and all. Then didnt want anyone in company know. Keep it a low key thing. Was pretty stressful for me that time bcos i didnt know what my status was w him and unknowingly spread or showed my emotions to some of my colleagues. And he was angry,and clarify if i did spread to others that we were together. Cuz not supposed to have office relationship.

Hence, i was scared that he will have such incidents w other ppl also when w me, making me insecure. Which i did see that like he will interact and conversation last since w one of my colleague also.

Since starting of march,the feeling i got is more of like his ok, to go eat w me and all, just see me eat, cuz he normally will go home cook also. But like not right feeling, abit unwilling kind. And he dun want me to go his house as often anymore, saying his tired, body cant take it anymore
His 30yrs old this year and I’m 21. I can understand that. One of the events I stayed over his place and his mum shocked, didnt expected passed a comment like: if not serious then dun bring her back to stay at home. That did affected me alil as well.

Good thing is i saw him in office today after 2days. Just cold, didnt get a chance to talk, bcos busy with work. He unblock me from telegram,but we arent talking. I just feel awkward and i dun dare see him eye to eye. And when i see him, my heart skipped and pounded v fast.

What shld i do next? Pls advise. Thanks so much!! So i go his place and pass him the anniversary present? 🙂

[Lau H]

To add on, when I expressed im worried for him, he just dont care, and say that its my own problem and feelings.

I did prepare a gift for him for 1st anniversary, shld i still go ahead to pass to him tmr or when we got a chance to talk? And potentially if got chance to patch back?

Im really scared. I gave my all to him. I dun wan him to leave me. I even introduced him to my parents, and that was my first time. And i got to meet his family too.

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